Setting: AU. Scully's not barren, Melissa's not dead, Mulder was never abducted by aliens, so you know I only changed, like, everything.

Disclaimer: If I owned anything there would be no need for fanfiction

Rating: M

A/N: I'm fairly new to X Files fan fiction so comments and suggestions are welcome and appreciated.

"Mulder, I…" She was speechless.

"I know you don't know what to say. It's ok. You don't have to say anything."

She stood in disbelief staring at this man standing in front of her, this man she hadn't seen in 5 years. "Why?" she finally said.

"Why what?" he asked surprised that that was her first reaction.

"Why are you here? Why now? Why?" Now that she was able to talk, the questions flew out.

"That's you're first thoughts? Aren't you happy to see me?"

"Well yes-but no-not now-it's… complicated." She was still trying to get over the shock of seeing him.

"When is it not complicated with us?" He gave her that boyish smile she loves so much.

"Yeah but-"

He put his finger under her chin causing her to stop talking. Then he leaned in and kissed her. "Tell me, Scully, is that complicated?"

"Mulder…" she whispered with her eyes still closed.

"Yes Scully?"

"Do it again" she said still whispering with her eyes closed.

He smiled and followed her demands. Then he kissed her again, and again. It wasn't long before the two got swept up in the moment. "My room," She said pulling away for a second gasping for air. "It's that way." She motioned at a room behind them. He smiled and swept her up bridal style. She kicked off her shoes as he carried her to her room then she slid off her dress as he set her down at the foot of her bed. He smiled at her as he unbuttoned and pulled down his pants. She smiled back pulling his shirt over his head. She pushed him down onto the bed then crawled on top of him. Slowly he moved his hands up her back and onto the back of her bra.

"Mulder," she said as she felt him unhook it.

"Scully," He said in response.

"No, Mulder." She said sitting up and rehooking her bra. "I'm sorry." She said tears building in her eyes.

"What's wrong?" He sat up and placed his hand on the top of her head and gently stroked her face.

"I can't." She said as a tear slipped out.

"Well let me help you remember how to do it." He joked trying to make her smile.

"It's not that." She looked away blinking rapidly trying to push back the tears. Once she thought she was ok she looked back at him. "Mulder," She tried again. "I'm sorry." She shook her head and climbed off of him. She picked up her dress and held it over her trying to cover as much of her body as she can. "I think you should go." The tears slipped out again.

"Scully?" He moved and sat on the edge of the bed. "Please tell me what's going on."

She walked over and grabbed his pants, still trying to cover her body with her dress. "Just get dressed." She begged as she threw his pants on him.

"Not until you explain what's going on." He said.

She ran the hand not holding up her dress over her forehead. "I can't believe I almost… I'm sorry." She said again.

Mulder put his pants on and walked over to her. He pulled her into a hug and held her like he's done so many times before. She didn't make a sound but he knew she was crying. He kissed the top of her head and waited for her to tell him what's wrong.

"I'm sorry if I was pressuring you." He eventually said breaking the silence.

"You weren't" she said still not moving. "This is all my fault. I am so sorry."

"Why do you keep saying that? What are you sorry about?"

"Everything." She said. "I'm sorry." She pushed him away. "I can't. You can't hold me. We can't be doing any of this. It was wrong of me to invite you into my bed. It was wrong of me to let you hold me like this. It was wrong of me to let you stay. You need to leave."

"Scully, I'm not leaving you like this."

"You have to." She insisted.

"Well I'm not leaving without an explanation. You owe me that at least."

"I know. I know." She moved her hand under eyes, wiping away her tears. She thought for a second on how to tell him then she looked at her trembling hand hoping she could just show. "Mulder, I-" she chocked on her words. "I don't know how to say this."

"It's ok." He tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. "You know you can tell me anything."

"You don't know how hard this is for me."

"I've got something pretty hard myself." He joked trying to lighten the mood.

She shook her head. "This is serious." She said. She held her hand up to her mouth still thinking about how to say it. Finally she decided to be direct. "Mulder I'm married." The words flew out of her mouth and she held up her hand and showed him the ring.

Mulder tried to respond but all that came out where a bunch of sounds "yu-wh-ah-hu"

"I'm sorry." She said once again. "I didn't mean to do this. It just happened so fast and it's been so long since I've-but that's no excuse." She shook her head ashamed of herself.

"I should get dressed." He finally said looking around for his shirt. "You should-ah-probably do the same. I'll just turn around."

"Oh…yeah…" she looked down forgetting that she was half naked behind the flimsy dress she was hiding behind. She quickly got back into her dress. "You can turn around now." she said.

They stared at each other for a minute. "Should we talk about this?" He asked.

"There's nothing to talk about." she said coldly.

"Are you sure?"

"What do you want me to say, Mulder?" She said practically yelling. "Should I apologies for moving on with my life? For not sitting around waiting for you to come back, not knowing when, or IF, you were coming back? Do you want me to admit that you broke my heart when you left? That I was in love with you?"

"Bingo." He said stopping her.

"What?" she said still angry. "You want me to admit that I loved you? Yes I loved you." She calmed down then added, "I loved you, Mulder. LoveD being the optimal word." She stressed the 'd'.

"Loved" he said.

"As in, not any more. I'm married now. I've moved on, Mulder." Then she added, "I don't love you anymore." She looked right into his eyes "What we had," she began, "It's gone."

"Well then," he said. "guess I should be too." Without another word being spoken he walked out of her room, out of her house and out of her life.

A/N: Don't worry there's more to come soon. Let me know what you think so far