I do not own Chuck.

Ok so hi all, I love to read stories and always wanted to write one, but never felt I had that spark a writer should have. I wrote a story here some years ago. a Chuck story and overall many liked it, thought it wasn't great. I re-signed up under a new name and email, mainly cause I couldn't remember me login details but also cause I wanted to escape my first newbie story.

Ok so this story is about Chuck and Sarah and it picks up right where the finale finished. I wasn't keen on the ending so I wanted to picture a different ending entirely so I began writing and this is what I came up with. Hope it's ok.

Chapter 1 – The Beach

Sarah felt the warm lips of Chuck's pressed against hers, yet she had no recollection of kissing these lips before. She pulled away and rested her hand against Chuck's chest. She looked down to the sand and searched desperately to find the right words. Here in front of her was her husband, someone she had known for 5 years, someone she worked alongside and protected…..but it saddened her that she simply had no idea of this life with Chuck. Patiently waiting, Chuck sat there and gripped his hand around Sarah's that laid on his chest.

'Sarah….you can say it. I know that magical kisses don't work, I know this kiss didn't work'.

Still Sarah stared desperately at the sand, what could she say that could make this situation any better…or worse for that fact. Finally she brought herself to look directly at him.

'Chuck….this life we had….it happened, it was real. But it doesn't help when I can't remember a single part of it. I've had 5 years wiped from my memory, you wiped from my memory. Your sister…your best friend Morgan…I know nothing about them. I'm no longer a spy I was 5 years ago Chuck…but I'm no longer the woman I was a few weeks back'.

Sarah paused and breathed a small yet sheepish sigh. She licked her lips, pulled her hand away from Chuck and brushed her hair away that was riding over her face.

'The truth is, I only remember who I was before I met you. But I don't want to be that person anymore. I don't want to be someone who throws emotions out the window, who wants to fight mission after mission. I need to understand who I am now…not who I was 5 years ago or who I was with you. Chuck I'm sorry, this isn't want you wanted to hear, but I don't' know how to be the person you fell in love with'.

Chuck knew in his hearts of hearts that magical kisses didn't work. He almost lost Sarah once when Volkoff's daughter poisoned her. The thought of losing someone he loved most in this world devastated him to the brink that he could no longer live. Here he was, once again…but knowing full well that he indeed lost her. I have nothing left to lose.

'Go find yourself Sarah. I have no idea how it must feel to have everything ripped from you, but I'm guessing I'll have a good sense of it soon when I see you walk away from me. Putting our life aside, your right, you need to understand who it is you are, you have to find yourself. How can I ever be-grudge that'.

Chuck frowned; he needed to keep this moment as positive as he could. Yet inside he was breaking, it was a miracle to begin with when Sarah Walker fell in love with a nerd, this super sexy spy who was used to exotic locations, exotic men and fast cars. It took 3 and half years to finally win the woman of his dreams. Now with her memories totally wiped or supressed as Chuck wanted to believe, there was no way he could win her all over again. For a moment he wished he also lost his memories as to stop the hurt and heartbreak he would forever endure without Sarah in his life.

Sarah stood up and gestured Chuck to follow suit. She grabbed both of his hands and held them firmly in hers. She smiled.

'Chuck I may have lost my memories, but from being here with you for just 5 minutes, I know that you're a kind and gentle man. Someone who would never stop someone from doing what they wanted to do'.

Chuck gently raised Sarah's right hand and kissed her palm gently before he let go, something he wished he never would have to do. But in this life, filled with secrets, covers, missions and adventures nothing was a safe bet. Sarah always told him that but also constantly reassured him that she would never walk away and that she would always save him. But this woman wasn't the woman who told him these things; she may have been the same in flesh. But in persona, she wasn't his beautiful wife.

Chuck stood there staring into the ocean, trying not to ask where she would go next. The atmosphere was carm, yet strained to say the least. Would she go back to the CIA, something she knew exceptionally well and where her last memory came from? Can she really walk away?

'Can I ask you something please Sarah before you go?'

'Of course Chuck. Ask away'.

'Not that it's my duty as a Husband to worry, and not that I can call myself your husband much anymore…but where will you go now? You don't want to go back to the CIA do you?'

Sarah smirked, she couldn't blame him for not completely believing her right now. After all she was very good at lying and telling people what they wanted and needed to hear. But she wasn't about to go back on her word and had no intentions of returning to a life that can put her in a position of losing herself and her memories.

'No, I don't. The best part of having my memories erased is the chance and opportunity it presents itself. I have a chance to start over and going back to the CIA is not at the top of my list. Do I wish this didn't happen….yes I do Chuck, with all my heart I do. But is has and whatever I tell myself, it's the choices I made that brought me here and put me in a situation and vulnerability to have this sort of thing happen. They don't teach you at spy school that one day your life will fall apart but they do teach you to expect the unexpected.'

Chuck calmly put his hands into his pocket and turned back to face the ocean. His heart was pounding, how could there ever be anything good about having your memories erased? What best part is there? He breathed a huge sigh and took one last glance at Sarah before saying…

'There is no best part about it Sarah. I could never wish this kind of anguish on anyone. Yes there is the chance to start over, I get that. But starting over and turning your back on your old life, it's…..'. Chuck stopped. He could feel the frustration boiling over, but how could he be mad. This woman has lost everything, and in this single moment a selfish thought ran through his body.

'It's….what Chuck?'

'Never mind Sarah. I've lost you and I have to come to terms with the fact. I almost wished that I had my memories wiped too, but I could never truly want that. My life with you hasn't been plain sailing to say the least. But it was a journey that I would never ever regret living'.

'I would never want you to wipe your memories Chuck. No one should have to go through this. I'm trying hard here not to be someone completely alienated to you, but how can I not when I don't remember who you are….remember who I am.'

Tears were something Sarah never shed often, but there was no stopping the few single shed of tears streaming down her face. She may have forgotten Chuck, but she sensed that her life with him had been nothing short of magical. Sensing and believing were two different things. So was remembering.

Chuck had not once glazed back at her, but merely spoke to her as if he was speaking to the ocean.

'The ocean is carm today, peaceful. Our life was anything but.'

Chuck couldn't look at her, he lost her. What good was looking at her when all he would see was someone who would never come back to him. It wasn't her fault, none of this was. She was on that train just as much as he was, she did what she always did and that was to protect Chuck. My fault…I told her not to worry, I told her to stay in the cabin whilst me and Casey worked it all out. Of course I was to know that if I were in trouble, she'd come after me like a shot.

'The ocean Chuck?' Sarah replied.

'Yeh.' Then Chuck snapped. Sarah was at the beach, she came here by herself and he knew that he would find her here. But how did she know to come here. Supressed…not wiped. She came here like I did that first day we met. We're meeting all over again and she knew to come here.

'The beach' Chuck shouted.

'Maybe this can be the trigger to it all. Maybe this can help us…help you Sarah'.

Sarah stood back, wanting to believe a simple beach could help. But Chuck was pulling at straws, however she dared not to dampen the situation.

'Chuck…what are you saying. My memories were wiped..gone. How could a beach be a trigger to it all'?

'Tell me….how did you know to come here. You're literally sitting in the same spot as I was 5 years ago. Why are you here, sitting here like I was'.

Sarah, knowing full well Chuck wanted to believe there was a way out, wanted to play along. He was a nice guy after all, how could she dampen his hope and dreams. She shock her head and cradle her face in her hands. She peered back up and landed her hands on her hips.

'Sarah…..'

'I dunno Chuck. I left castle and wanted to find a spot where I could just breathe. Somewhere….i…..'

Chuck interrupted…

'Somewhere you knew?'

For a moment Sarah was confused. He finished exactly what she wanted to say, what was rolling around in her head. She bit her bottom lip and searched for a answer, somewhere I knew….? Is Chuck onto something…..

'Sarah….your memories, how can they ever be wiped, erased. They can't. A brain is there to store information, to store memories. Yours are simply supressed. This beach triggered something, something that, oh I dunno. But the fact is you knew to come here, somewhere you would feel safe. If you remembered that, you can remember everything. You found me here 5 years ago and you must have known I would find you here too.'

Chuck had a point. This beach meant something to her. And she did know to come here. How was this possible Sarah asked herself several times in her head.

'What does it all mean Chuck?'

'I think that we needed a trigger to make us realise, make you realise that your memories are merely suppressed and nothing more. We can get them back Sarah'.

Chuck was delighted at the thought that Sarah remembered the beach, remembered the moment the journey truly began.

Hey…please review. Hope you enjoyed it. Next chapter up soon.