BPOV

Right after Edward left, with his brothers, for his Bachelor party hunt. Jake swung up into my room, I was so happy to see him, that I rushed into his arms. Jakes arms tightened around me reflexively for a moment as he seemed to breathe me in.

"If I knew that running away would make you run into my arms, I would have done that months ago." Jake quipped.

I missed his deep voice, his sense of humor, and the way I always felt safe with him. I love him just as much as I love Edward, and I wish that I didn't have to choose. I made it seem like it was an easy choice, but it wasn't.

I'm not as in love with Edward as I was before he left me in the woods. But I have no real choice in the matter anymore, I have to be changed now, and getting married was Edward's stipulation. That is so typical of him, not giving me any choices.

"Don't joke, Jake. I missed you so much." I said as I reluctantly let him go and sat on the bed I will sleep on for the last time.

"What's up, Bella?" Jake asked as he pulled the rocking chair closer to the bed. I noticed the way he wrinkled his nose up at it.

"I have no choice but to be turned.." I said then explained to him about the Volturi and what they have decreed, and to Edwards stipulation.

To say Jake was pissed is an understatement, he stood up and started pacing around.

I wanted to give him something, just then, something special that will just be for us. Edward had my first kiss, but Jake can have my first time.

"Jake, I want you to be my first." I said, my breath hitching in my throat due to my nerves.

Jake stopped pacing, I could see the look of shock on his beautiful face.

"What?" He asked as if he wasn't sure he heard me correctly.

"I want to give you my virginity, I know its asking for too much, but I want to give you that as a memory to hold onto, after my change. Something good to remember me by." I answered as I stood up and stood in front of him.

JPOV

Claim her now! Don't let that leech get her! Wolfie snarled in my head as Bella came and stood in front of me.

"Are you sure you want this?" As much as I wanted to just make love to her, I could sense that she is in heat.

"Yes Jake, I am sure." She said as she leaned up on her tiptoes and pressed her soft lips to mine.

Needing no further encouragement I deepened the kiss, taking control. She whimpered into my mouth as I pulled back and began removing her sleep wear. After we were both naked I picked her up and placed her down on her bed. I crawled on top of her, I kissed her again gently, before I began trailing kisses down her neck and across her shoulder blades.

I didn't really know what I was doing, so I let her bodies responses be my guide. I loved the little whimpers she made as I explored my way around her breasts before latching onto her nipples.

"Jake!" She sighed in pleasure, I leisurely licked my way down her belly, I heard her sigh as I approached her pussy.

I replayed the memories of Paul's exploits, looking for tips on what to do now. I slowly ran my tongue down the seam of her wet folds.

"Jake!" Bella cried, I figured I was doing good by the juices that were gushing out of her. I continued working her over with my mouth until she shattered around my tongue. I greedily drank her juices.

I gave her a moment to catch her breath as I crawled up her body, and kissed her gently. I surged into her body and shattering her barrier in the process. I muffled her cries of pain with my mouth, and waited for her body to adjust to my girth.

After a couple minutes I felt her shift her hips giving me the OK to move. I slowly pulled out savoring the feel of her muscles contracting around my manhood.

"Jake! go faster!" Bella panted after a couple of minutes of my slow pace, I sped up and after a few minutes I felt our climax approaching, I bit the inside of my cheek hard to keep from marking her as I shot my seed into her.

BPOV

Jake rolled off me right afterwards, I cuddled into him wanting the comfort of his arms for a few more minutes. I knew then, that I would always treasure these memories. This experience wasn't just for him, it was for me too.

"I do love you Jake." I whisper to him, he caressed my back gently, before he sighed.

"I love you too, Bells, thank you for this." Jake said before he got up, tied his shorts to the string around his legs and with one last look at me, he jumped out the window.

I cried myself to sleep that night knowing that I probably won't be seeing him alive. But I don't regret giving myself to him like this.