Hey guys! So this is my first PLL fanfic..but hopefully you guys like it! R&R!

Summary: Spencer thinks Toby's dead. She doesn't go crazy, she's not found in the woods, she just goes home and copes, but that's really hard to do when she finds out she's having his baby! Instead of it being their senior year...im moving it back to their junior

Chapter 1:Woozy

I couldn't get that image out of my head...seeing him lying there...I was surprised that noone has found him yet...actually it was weird. I contemplated calling the police, but with our history with the police they would find a way to pin it on me. So I won't...but that image...it never leaves my head. It feels like someone is taking a hold of my ribs and slowly and painfully pulling me apart millimeter by millimeter.

I wish they would just tear me apart all at once. I wake up screaming...Mona did this...A did this. And whoever the A bitch is...needs to pay...

"Spence..." Aria came in. I haven't seen my friends in days...they;ve been calling but I haven't felt like being around them.

"Hey" I said. She ran over and hugged me.

"I have been so worried about you are you ok?" she said. I nodded.

"What did you see in those woods Spencer..."

"Toby...he's..." I said crying. I couldn't finish the sentence before the tears came. I'm not used to crying or feeling like this...i'm usually strong and tough but I can't be right now.

"Oh my god Spencer...i'm so sorry" she consoled me.

I sat there and cried more in her arms. Toby was the first guy who told me to chill out, who let me chill out, who I could be totally ugly around and not perfect around...but it was all a lie, he was A...he helped hurt us, he probably helped hurt Allison. But I love him...he stole my heart and never gave it back.

"Spencer...nothing has been in the news. Don't you think someone would have found him by now?" she said after I was done crying.

"I don't know then...but I know it was him. I saw the tattoo"

"you think A moved him..."

"i don't know...i don't care..." I said. I all of a sudden felt really woozy...and sick. Sick? I never get sick! I'm on 5 different vitamins to make sure this doesn't happen to me. I ran to the bathroom and puked my guts out.

"You ok?" Aria asked.

"Did I just puke?" I said astonished.

"I have never even seen you have a stuffy nose...are you sure your not pregnant" she said jokingly.. But then I thought about it and then ran back to my room and looked at my calender.

"Oh my god"

"Wait you and Toby had sex?!" she said. No no no this can't be happening this isn't happening.

"Aria...i need you to go to the store and get a test for me...please!" I said.

"The shop owner is Ezra's aunt! What am I going to look like buying a pregnancy test!"

"Than go out of Rosewood! Aria please!"

"Why don't we call Emily! We all know she can't get pregnant!"

"Aria!"

"Fine...for you I will...but if anyone recognizes me I am sooo saying it's for Emily!" she said. After she left I paced my room. I did the math and it's been a months and 2 weeks since Toby and I had sex before I found out who he was. I can't believe this...what if I am pregnant! It's father is dead! I can't have this baby! I won't have this baby!

I sat on my bed trying rationalize everything. But than I thought about this time in Toby's truck.

Flashback

"Toby..." I said.

"Yes baby..."

"Are you ever mad that we don't have sex?"

"Of course not! Spence...i know you have your reasons...i respecrt that"

I couldn't believe I have someone as perfect as him...

"I'm scared i'm going to get pregnant"

"that is always a possibility"

"what if I do...what would you want me to do?"

"I would love for you to have it of course, and I would stay by your side...but if you choose otherwise I would still be right there"

"But you would want the baby?"

"Yes..i know it's hard to be a parent especailly young...but I think you would be an amazing mother and I would feel like the luckiest guy in the world to be the father of your children"

"your so perfect"

End flashback

"Here!" Aria came in with the brown paper bag and a gallon of juice.

"If you drink your weight you'll have to pee quicker..." she said. I rolled my eyes. I took the juice and started chugging.

"Ok I think I have to pee" I said. She had wide eyes.

"what?" I asked.

"You almost all of it before having to pee...i'd take one sip and be running to the bathroom"

"Taller people have bigger bladders"

she popped her mouth open. I went to the bathroom and peed on all 4 test and then let Aria come in.

"What are you gonna do if you are?" she asked me. I thought about my flashback...I thought about what my Toby would want...and he would want me to have this baby.

"I'm going to keep it" I said.

The timer went off and we both looked at each other. The moment of truth.

"Well call me momma spencer..." I said.

"positive?"

I nodded.