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Chapter .2.
Edward's POV
It had been 100 years since I left my beloved Bella. I hoped she had lead a full life and had, a normal Human experience. But I still loved her.
But I still had a little part of myself that still wanted Bella as mine. I still claim she was mine. I might have left her but she would ALWAYS be mine.
Our family had never been the same since we left Bella. Then Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie left us. And we still didn't know where they went and we couldn't find them with any of our mutual friends. Not even the Denali's had seen them.
Esme had been sobbing a lot since they left. Having lost her two daughter and two sons. I had heard Esme still thinks Bella was still her own daughter.
Carlisle had been spending more time at the hospital being upset that he had lost most of his children. His thoughts since had the depressed feeling to them. They just added to my depression.
Alice thoughts all centred around Jasper still. Even through she had cheated on him and he had given her divorce papers. I heard all the thoughts of denial going through her head. She still thought when she found Jasper he would take her back.
I keep seeing her look for Jasper's future and hear her fury when she wouldn't find it. I hated her thoughts.
I DID ask her a couple of years after leaving Bella to check Bella's future but she hadn't been able to see her future either. It was like her gift didn't work anymore. Expect I had seen her get visions of Carlisle, Esme and myself.
We had gained two new members to our coven/family. Damion Kites and his mate Allison Coulson. Allison had a six sense and Damion could feel auras.
They were nice enough but we still couldn't help think about Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper coming back to find them.
Carlisle and Esme had thought that if Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper came back they might think we replaced them.
But besides that our family was happy. Kind off.
We had now moved back to Forks and the memories of My Bella were so strong now. I sometimes wished when these feelings took over I could have spent her human years with her till she died of old age.
I decide I needed to know about when she died.
"I am going to the cemetery I need to see when Bella died", I say to my family
"We will help you Edward. She deserves to be remembered", Carlisle replies
"Let me get some flowers. Her grave should have flowers", Esme suggest
"I will help you!" Alice says
Soon we were ready and head to Forks Cemetery.
"Where do we start?" Alice asks
"I guess we will just have to look row by row till we find her or Charlie", I say quietly
We look through the rows in silence. We looked at each headstone in soberly. As some names we recognized.
"Hey this is Angela's!" Alice says pointing to a grave
Angela Sophia Webber
Birth: 9th of May 1988
Death: 16th of February 2006
Age: 18
Beloved: Daughter, Sister, Friend, Classmate
A Kind and Gentle Person
"That's so sad. She died only 18", Esme says sadly
"I wonder how it happened", Carlisle muses
"Umm Edward, Charlie is here", Alice says pointing at a grave
Edward's eyes widen at Charlie's Death Day.
Charles 'Charlie' Geoffrey Swan
Birth: 16th of July 1964
Death: 16th of February 2006
Age: 42
Beloved: Son, Father, Friend
Chief of Police
A person who seeker Justice for those who deserved it.
"How did he die the same day as Angela?" Alice asks confused
"Oh god. Bella is next to him", Carlisle says shocked at what was on the gravestone.
"No, no this wasn't meant to happen", I cry reading the gravestone
Isabella Marie Swan
Birth: 13th of September 1988
Death: 16th of February 2006
Age: 18
Beloved: Daughter, Friend, Classmate
A Kind and Generous Soul who wasn't mean to be taken so soon after everything.
"She can't of died only months after I left her! No there has to be some mistake", I gasp
'Oh my poor, poor daughter. So young', Esme thinks
'Oh my, how did this happen? What caused three people to die on the same day?' Carlisle thinks, 'Only Bella connected Charlie and Angela together. Could it be a coincidence?'
'Oh god how could I have not seen this and stopped it', Alice thinks
I fall to my knees in front of my beloveds grave.
"I am so, so sorry son", Carlisle says putting a hand on my shoulder
"How did this happen?" Alice asks
"We might never know the answers", Carlisle replies sadly
"Oh Bella I am so, so sorry I should never have left you. I should have been here to keep you alive till old age took you", I cry
I sob dry sobs at the grave. While Esme cleans it and places flowers on it.
"I am so, sorry my daughter. I hope you can forgive us from where you are now", Carlisle says to the grave
"You where my first best friend. I am sorry I couldn't save you and didn't see this happen", Alice says to the grave
"Oh my beloved daughter what a life you could have lived. I am so, so sorry I left you", Esme tells the grave
"I am sorry my love. I love you so much. Please forgive me. Forgive me", I beg to the grave
I continue to beg forgiveness to my loves grave. How could I have not let her live a human life? She deserved that and more! She deserved children and grandchildren! Why couldn't she have that?
Did I leave her for nothing? Did she suffer? Did she still love me?
"May her soul rest in eternal peace", Carlisle says softly
We stay for a little while long. Before my family help me back to the house. Both Damion and Allison looked at us and their thoughts where asking what was wrong.
But I couldn't speak. I rushed up the stairs and slammed my door shut. I needed time to think. Should I go to the Volturi and ask them to kill me so I can join my beloved? Then again vampires didn't have souls so I would never see Bella again.
I drop to the floor sobbing.
How could this happen?
How was I meant to go on knowing my beloved died only a couple of months after I left?
How was I meant to go to school here in Forks with all the memories of my beloved?
All I knew was that my beloved had died so many decades ago and I wasn't there for her. How would I live with myself?...
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