AN: I know I should be updating Perfectus Femina…But God I was reading all the chapters again and realized I needed to renovate it…and you know what happens to a house that gets renovated…yup it is teared down.

I was watching this video as a break from my assignments, if you expect this to be epic this isn't one of them. I tried this for something new. I don't know what I feel about this to be honest.

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Hermione's P.O.V.

Distance…

It's what you claimed you did not get from me. Distance, is what you often asked of for my over bearing presence gets to be too much sometimes. You needed space from the worrisome friend who was always like your tail, like a shadow with a conscience, a nagging voice inside your head; that voice belongs to a person that tried so much to protect you. The very same girl who believed she could, if you were in her keeping she would.

But…

Distance is what you asked for; distance is what you need from me.

For once the world lays forgotten as we stay here inside the cold walls of this Gryffindor room. We are distant from everything. Away from the battle scene that was once a picture here. It's gone like so many things now…

I knew it was always like you to hide.

I see you now, curled up in your red sheets. I see the cuts and bruises on your face, it isn't healed yet and I remind myself tomorrow I would tend to them. I drew closer, your breathing is even, you don't notice someone's here with you. The adrenalin within your veins has died.

I felt like trespassing in your safe sanctuary. I feared I might rob you of a peaceful sleep if you wake now, but I could never keep myself away from you. Never.

I knelt beside your bed, I stared into your close eyes, I'm tempted to smile since you forgot to remove your spectacles in your haste to go to dreamland. I carefully remove it for you and place it on your dresser, beside that half eaten sandwich you recently asked for.

"Harry, I love you…" I tell you these words, words that I have always tried so hard to convey in actions, but words I could not say when you're awake, not when you're listening. I draw strength from our closeness, but sometime I can be brave in our distance.

Love. I believe is the most powerful thing. It's what kept me going, it was you. You're my heart.

But I'm not yours…

Distance. It is what must become of us. For the first time I have chosen me. I'll make sure to keep away. I'll back off. No more ruining any of your dates like I did with Cho, though unintentional. No more staying by your side when Ginny is finally here. I won't be the cause of you not finding Love.

I'll be keeping an eye on you, I'll be watching from the distance, as I always did.

You no longer need me. My job of keeping you alive is done. My wish has been granted and I told myself that if I just get to see you live, live a long and happy life, even if I wasn't in it. I would be happy. Before, I thought that statement to me meant I would give up my life for you. I was willing to sacrifice myself for your life. Now that I live, I view it in another sense. I have sacrificed myself for you.

In a way I did. I have. My experience in the Department of Mysteries proved to me how easily I could have died because of you. It didn't surprise me, what surprised me was knowing I did not mind dying for you. Harry, I would give up my life for you and the reason for that is love.

But I know you won't. You will not love me the way I love you.

I'm your best friend. I know I'm important to you. I'm one of the people you love. But we both know I'm not at the top of that list. I can't…I can't keep on pretending there isn't a priority number in that heart of yours; and mine doesn't say number one. But it's okay…

I've never cared much about me either. Truth is, I've forgotten me a couple or more times.

Distance is what we should have. I need to get away, I need to put myself first and I need to love someone else. Someone, who I actually have a chance to be with. Someone, I could grow to love more than you.

I was always closer to you than Ron. We both know that, but yesterday when I kissed him, we both knew I closed that gap with a kiss. It's going to be that way now…you won't be my priority. We have to be on our own…

I can't keep looking over my shoulder searching for you. I won't be pulled out of a dream and waking up wondering if you were having a nightmare. No more editing your essays and correcting your mistakes. All I ever do is chase you, and I've grown so tired. I won't be waiting for you anymore.

But…

I'll still be your best friend, just one call from you and I'm yours. I'll always be here…but maybe just from the distance.

"Goodbye…" I tell you goodbye but not because I'm leaving you. I never could.

I say goodbye…goodbye to the hope of getting closer to you, of me finally being in the same spot of your heart as you are in mine. I say goodbye to this closeness, and now I welcome distance. You don't need me anymore Harry, I no longer play an important part in your life, from now on, I'll just be known as that close friend who helped you in school, whose company you didn't even enjoy, but somehow you needed me to survive. It hurts but…

I'm not gone…just distant. And if you happen to wake up and ask me if I'd stay, my reply would be…

'Always'.

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Harry's P.O.V.

I hear the door creek open and then close. I listened to the light footsteps slowly fade against the background of the nightfall. It is eerily quiet in my dorm as I stay here alone, alone but deafened with silence and surrounded by darkness whose claws are as cold as a Dementor's kiss. All I want is numbness, and distance…

Distance from the regret that is now between me and the bloody door. So many chances all wasted, it was so close, she was so close as she'd always been. My stupidity is staring at can't i see what has been staring at me for years? I wear glasses for that reason don't I?

But now, now that I have had time to think about life, I realize she has been a big part of it. If she had left, a large part of me would have died. She was my pillar, my savior and my best friend…

"She's like my sister…" I say it again. It still sounded bitter and unnatural just like it did so many nights ago at the Forest of Dean. Bloody wanker, I don't have a sister.

I have to be distant too…for her sake, for them both. I was always in their middle, the bloody stop sign that kept them apart. It's time for her to be happy as I've robbed her of too much with all my recklessness and shortcomings. She deserved happiness and freedom from the lost puppy she helped ever since they've met so many years ago. I'm thankful i met her, I always knew she was special from the moment I saw her.

She deserved better. She deserved to be free of me. She had said her goodbye…maybe it was a goodbye for me. And rightly so…

I no longer needed to protect her, she no longer needs me. I've always held her back, always a burden she had to carry. She's free now.

She'll always be my best friend and I will always love her, now I know as more than a sister. But…

Distance…is my gift to her.

"I love you too…" I told the wind, and I hope that whisper of mine could reach her despite the Distance.

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AN: For those who hate this don't worry I might delete it tomorrow. I'm not sure how this turned out as I haven't actually read it. But like I said…I can delete this tomorrow if you want.

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