Hi readers,
I've been working on this rewrite for a few weeks. It's been something I've been wanting to do for a long time since I completed it. I wanted to get over my dissatisfaction to my story and make an improvement.
My method of thinking out my ideas is writing everything down on a piece of paper. I have a special notepad I keep beside my bed and I scribble anything down that I can think of to spice up the story. If you see that notepad now, a quarter of the papers are no longer naked.
I finished the story halfway where Emma and Killian's relationship are from blossoming. But…this is where my announcement seems sad and I feel like an asshole for doing this.
My fucking computer crashed. Every. Single. Chapters. Gone.
I can't tell you how long I cried over this. Jesus, I was mad.
The only option I have now is use my parent's lap top. But…doing another rewrite, after I did and poured myself on, God it doesn't seem possible.
Guys, I hate breaking promises. It is beyond crude and unfair to me. But I'm sorry to say there will be no new story by next week.
I am so upset. I couldn't look at my notepad again.
Part of me really wants to do this rewrite because I swear, there was a smile on my face when I read through what I got so far. It was readable, nice, and very juicy. I have to admit it I was really excited to share it with you. Because many of you are aware how many times I warn new readers to avoid m fanfiction if you can't stand poorly written work. I just don't want to waste anyone's time. And I was going change that by improving this story to a better level, and for other readers to read it with easy and enjoyment.
I failed you guys. I am sorry.
Frankly, I'm going to need some time to convince myself that I can't give up. I want to make this rewrite so bad. But to explain my feelings in a proper analogy, it feels like an architect telling himself he's going to draw out a new project after his girlfriend loses his layout and drawings that he worked on for months. I'm that architect now.
I don't know. I feel like a jerk for announcing so excitingly that I was going to post a new story…I really was excited. Now it's the complete opposite.
If you guys have any questions, I'm sorry but please be understanding and don't PM me. I'm too depressed over what happened today. I don't think I can control myself if someone mentions about all those chapters I lost.