Chapter 7

I covered all of my tattoos back up until my skin looked flawless once more... I can't tell anyone just yet. I had made up my mind, I was going to see Embry... we couldn't have a repeat of last night. We shouldn't be anymore than friends... My mind was being rational, but my body betrayed me with every thought of his body against mine, his lips against mine and in other sinful places, his strong hands caressing my body... I shook my head of those thoughts and pulled a jacket over my Motionless In White T-shirt, needing to end this with Embry before it got a chance to begin. I laced up my Converse hightops and combed my fingers back through my bangs, unsure if I really wanted to confront him or not as I heaved a heavy sigh. I closed my eyes and rolled them behind my eyelids... Now is not the time for second guessing, Mel... Get your head on straight!

I grabbed my house keys and stuffed them in my jacket pocket, trying to focus on what I was going to say to him as I exited the house through the back door. I took the trail in woods behind my house that led to Embry's and all I could think about was the possibility of Embry phasing from the pain I was about to cause him. I really was a bitch... ending something that felt so good to the both of us... something that felt so... dare I say... right. My mind was screaming that this needed to end, but my heart was also screaming that this was right and that we both needed this. Whatever this was... this desire, this pleasure, this connection... this love? My head was pounding with a headache as so many things rattled through my brain at once. How did the wolves do it? I can even bear to hear my own mind rattle on, it's got to be hell hearing several other voices that aren't your own in your brain.

I arrived at Embry's house and just went straight up to his window, cupping my hands next to my eyes and pressing my nose against the glass to peek in Embry's room. Sure enough, he was there... sleeping. The sheet was only pulled up around his waist, his left arm thrown over his eyes, and he was definitely shirtless, but that's all I could see. I took a deep breath and heaved a heavy sigh, bracing myself for whatever was about to unfold next... I took a hold of the window with shaky hands and lifted up, relieved to know that he still kept it unlocked. I pulled myself up onto the sill and dropped quietly into his room, Embry didn't budge an inch and his breathing remained slow and steady. I shut his window and took off my Converse, leaving them under the window, and pulled off my sweatshirt to lay it on the end of his bed as I sat on the edge of his mattress next to him.

At the shift, Embry lifted his arm from his eyes and smiled when he saw me, "Hey, Mel." I just smiled a small smile at him and he lifted his hand to stroke my cheek, "I could wake up to your eyes every morning and die happy at the end of the day."

I pursed my lips into a tight line as I held his hand against my cheek, relishing in the feel of his warmth, "I guess..."

He lifted his upper body up, his hand still against my cheek, and leaned in close to my face, his lips ghosting right above mine. My heart was hammering in my chest and ears as I awaited the feeling of his warm lips against mine. Sure enough, he kissed me... but it took everything I had to not retaliate, to not press my lips right back against his, to refrain my hands from twisting into his soft hair...

He pulled back from my lips and I knew he could read my face, clearly, "Mel, what's wrong?"

I gnawed on my bottom lip, knowing I had to spit it out now, "Embry... We can't..."

He looked confused, "Wh-what about last night? Last night-"

"-was a mistake."

He dropped his hand from my cheek and I could see the hurt in his eyes, "W-was last night not what you expected? Your reactions could've fooled me otherwise..."

"No, it's not that... Everything was great and felt... incredible..."

"Then why are you doing this, Mel?"

"I don't want to ruin our friendship! Whatever last night was... I don't want it to ruin what we already had."

"Mel... These feelings I have for you didn't just develop out of nowhere. I've always been attracted to you... unless... you don't feel the same?"

I shook my head, "No, I do... trust me... I just don't want to ruin how close we are."

He cracked a small smile as he snorted, "I'm sure what we've done has made us closer, not the opposite, Mel." I gave him a half-assed smile, but he wasn't having it. "Come here..." He pulled me to his chest and laid down with me curled up next to him and my head on his chest as he began to run his fingers through my hair, "Mel... last night was anything but a mistake..."

I ran my fingertips across the smooth caramel skin I was lying on and Embry sighed in a way that let me know he liked it.

I continued to trace aimless patterns across his chest as I spoke, "I'm not ready for a relationship, Embry..."

His fingers combing through my hair didn't cease as he spoke, "That's okay... we don't have to get together..."

I lifted myself up and looked at him, "But last night-"

He laughed a bit, "Mel, just because we had sex doesn't mean we're automatically a couple." He raised an eyebrow at me, "Unless... you want more?"

"I told you-"

"I mean as something else... friends with benefits?"

I made a face, "I just hate the way it sounds..."

"But it is what you want?"

"I don't know..."

"I'm sure I could convince you..."

His right hand twisted into my hair and I closed my eyes, letting out a soft moan as he pressed his lips against the column of my neck. I tilted my head back and let him assault my neck with hot kisses, my long fingers moving up his chest, his neck, and into his coal black hair, holding him against me as my left leg lifted to hitch on his hip.

I had to find my voice, and yet it still came out a sort of breathless squeak, "Your mom...?"

He shook his head and whispered in my ear, "Not home..." I could feel his grin against my ear, "so, you can scream as loud as you want."

He ran the tip of his tongue around the shell of my ear and I could feel my nipples harden against the padding of my bra at the small action. I moaned a bit louder than I previously had and shifted my hips in response to my arousal; Embry gripped my hips as he groaned in response. I could feel his erection through my jeans and I suddenly felt overdressed as I felt his smooth chest under my fingertips. My Motionless In White shirt felt like it weighed a ton and I wanted it off, yearning to feel Embry's smooth chest pressed against mine. Embry's lips met mine in a series of feverish kisses and the only thing filling the empty space in his room was the sounds of our passion.

The sheet around his waist had come off and I could feel that he had at least some kind of basketball shorts on. I pushed him down with my hips so that I could be on top and straddle him, he gave me a wolf-ish grin that made me wetter as I towered over him. His hands ran up my sides, pushing up my T-shirt until it was up over my chest and revealing my bra. His hands cupped my breasts, running his thumbs over my hardened nipples through the padding of my bra, and I arched my back into his touch as I moaned, closing my eyes and tilting my head back in pleasure as we ground our hips together.

"God, you're so hot, Mel." Embry groaned.

I put my hands on his chest and ran my long nails down his caramel skin as I grinned at him, "You're not too bad yourself..."

He grinned back just as playful, but the grin soon faded and his eyes got big as his movements stilled, "Shit..."

I was worried, "What?"

He moved me to the side and jumped up to grab a different pair of shorts from his dresser as he spoke, "Quil and Jake."

I scrambled to pull my shirt back down and straighten out my clothes, "Fuck..."

I stood up and straighted out my clothes as Embry tried to button up his shorts so his erection wasn't too visible. In record time, we managed to straighten ourselves out and I ran my fingers through my hair to tie it up in a ponytail.

Embry looked at me for a quick second and then took the ponytail out of my hand as he spoke, "You'll wanna keep your hair down."

I touched my neck and felt myself get red faced as I remembered the hickey he had done last night, "Oh... right..."

He pulled me close to him and ran his thumb over my lips, "We'll pick this up later... I promise."

He sealed that promise with a searing kiss and I grinned like an idiot when he pulled away, licking my lips. The sound of his front door slamming shut and the voices of our friends pulled me out of my daze and I noticed that Embry was no longer in the room. I heard a toilet flush and then Embry's cheery voice greeting our friends and explaining that I was already here.

Author's Note:Whew, sorry for the long update! I hope this is keeping your interest regardless! As always, please review! :)