Friday 29th March 2013

Dear Diary,

It has been a few weeks since I told my feelings to Stuart while being drunk as hell. At first it was awkward since he didn't want to. You know, since that guy was a douchebag to him. And it turns out that Stuart was once in a relationship with some jerk who really hurt him. He knows I wouldn't do that to him and after letting him think and work things out for himself-he finally agreed to start dating!

We're having our first date tomorrow evening. I feel all scared and excited at the same time. I'm not going to push him into anything. I did that with Lucy and, well, it didn't go well. I was a terrible boyfriend to her. But not this time. I'm going to be the best, most attentive, non-pushy boyfriend ever!

It feels a little weird to call myself a boyfriend again.

But no Raj, you shall not mess this thing up! Okay, okay, make some rules..

1) No making Stuart do what he doesn't feel comfortable with.

2) Do not try to "fix" him. It makes him feel worse with thinking you think he's broken. And it makes it harder and more frustrating for both of you when he doesn't seem to get better.

3) Don't get drunk and leave him alone (we've already learned what happens what you do that).

4) Be romantic just like your other relationships.

5) Try not to be clingy.

6) Love him. Hug him. Kiss him.

I'm making myself blush just writing this…I'd better go and pick him up from work. I'm hoping that this time things work out.