It's been two days since the council was killed, and Mexico City was basically crushed to the ground. We've all decided to spend a few more days up here in the mountains outside of the city to rest up, and get situated. Plus Sam keeps complaining about his ankle hurting. So I guess Alex is waiting for him to stop complaining so we can get back on the road. But it's ok, it's nice up here, it kind of reminds me of when Alex and I were in the Sierra Nevada at the cabin. Only this time it's not just the two of us.
I'm sitting down the hill a little ways away from camp, in the grass looking over what use to be Mexico City. I still can't believe that the council is gone, that the Torre Mayor is still standing and how amazing it was that Seb and I were able to fly away from it. And I still can't believe that Razel might still be alive… great. But none of that is the reason why I haven't been normal the last couple of days, it's because I can't get what Alex said to me a few days ago out of my head. How he said he didn't trust me anymore. And then what we went through the other day, and what happened between us that night. I can't help but feel like maybe it all happened because he felt sorry for me or something. It makes me angry, queasy, like he was just using me. Like he doesn't feel the same way about me like he use to. Or if he did at all. What if the entire time he was saying he loves me was to just sleep with me? Would he do that to me? Suddenly I hear footsteps approaching me from behind. It's not Alex or Seb, because these have a slight stumble. It's Sam.
"Hey Willow. You ok? You've been down here for a while all by yourself." He says, as he sits in the grass a few feet away from me like I have some contagious illness and if he gets to close he'll catch it. For some reason I have a feeling like Alex sent him over here to make-a-mends with me because now we're going to have to work together.
I don't look over at him as I pull my knees up to my chest and wrap my arms around them hugging them tightly. "Hi Sam, yea I'm fine. Just have a lot on my mind." I said dryly.
I can see him out of the corner of my eye watching me, looking as if he's waiting for me to tell him the truth. He clears his throat and sits quietly for a few minutes. When he finally does speak he clears his throat once more "Look Willow, I know that you and I haven't been the best of friends. But I want to change that. I'd like to start over if that's ok with you. I truly am sorry for the way I acted and treated you and Seb, but especially you. When I found out that you're a half angel it just threw me, ok? And I truly am sorry I can't speak for Liz. But I'll do anything I can, to prove to you that you can trust me."
I didn't even glance at him as he spoke. Then I give a quiet short laugh, at the funny way his apology is almost like the one Alex gave me all those months ago. I swallow my throat dry and look over at him."Sam I'm not sitting down here alone because of you or Liz. Like I said I have a bunch of stuff on my mind that I'm trying to work through." I look away back at the fallen city. "Did Alex tell you to come over here and apologize to me?" I look back over at him, and frown my brow.
"No." he said, with no hesitation. "No, he didn't tell me to come apologize to you. I did that all on my own. I want to start over with you. Have a friendship and partnership with you." He frowns his brow at me. "Why would you think something like that? Alex isn't the boss of me, he's the leader of our group as AKs, he doesn't own me, or tell me what I do, or who to make friends with."
I sigh "It's just that, when Alex and I first met he kind of said almost the exact same thing. And I thought he might have told you what he said and tell you to come over here and say the same thing." My eyes soften as I look at him. "I'm sorry Sam. It was nice of you to come over and apologize."
He smiles and holds out his hand "How about we start over. Hi my name is Sam it's nice to meet you." He said.
I smile back and shake his hand "Hi Sam, I'm Willow. It's nice to meet you too." I let go of his hand and hug my knees again, looking back to the city. I can literally feel the tension between us fade away into nothing.
We sit there quiet for a while, finally Sam clears his throat and looks over at me. "So what's wrong?" I stay quiet for a few minutes. I can see him out of the corner of my eye looking me. He's not going to walk away, or let it drop until I tell him. "Willow, whatever it is you can talk to me. I swear, I know how to keep a secret, you can talk to me about anything I want you to know that. So come on tell." He said.
I let out a long breath, and then glance over at him. "I… it's just…" I sigh and look back to the city.
He follows my gaze. "Willow, there was nothing you could do to save the city it was going to happen whether or not the council was-"
I held up a hand to stop him. "Sam I know that nothing I did could stop the council from bringing the city down. That's not at all why I'm upset." I said. Not looking at him.
"Then what is it Willow?" he asked "I'm not leaving until you tell." I knew it, I think. "It's not about me is it?" I shook my head slowly. "Is it about Seb?" I shook my head again. "Liz?" I shook my head once again. "So it's about Alex." When I don't do anything, he knows that a yes. "What happened? You guys are back together, a happy couple right? What's the problem?" he said.