It's so hard to take my eyes off of him. I wish we could be open with out relationship but that would make things too difficult and confusing. If he ever asked me to I would in a second but he never has. I know he's not embarrassed of me, he just wants me to be his and only his. I have our late nights on shuffle on my mental playlist, and he doesn't make it any better by winking when he see's me blushing. Every one just thinks it's friendly flirting, like him and Garcia, just not as open.

Every once in a while when a case gets emotionally rough I want him to hold and kiss me. But that can never be. What if I kissed you right now? The question I ask myself when ever he's close, during a briefing, in the bullpen, or in the lounge when we get coffee. We both know what would happen if we were caught but it's hard not to take what's yours when it always an arm lengths away. So we'll always be each others not-so-little secret, until we get home that is.