A/N: This is my first attempt at a Vampire Academy fanfiction. After my second time reading Spiritbound and Last Sacrifice, I found myself wondering if there was anything Dimitri did while he was a Strigoi that Rose wouldn't be able to forgive him for. I haven't yet gotten the answer to that question, but my thoughts spawned the beginning of a potential masterpiece. Let's see what happens.

KATYA

I've never been the religious type. In fact, no one in my family was. True, we were all Christians, but we never really went to church or studied the bible. Looking back, I find myself wondering if my life would be any different if I had been a little more dedicated to my religion.

Would going to church every Sunday have made God answer my prayers as I watched my father being murdered by a monster? Would He have kept the monster from catching me when I ran? Would He have saved me from this hell? Would I have lost my virginity at sixteen? Would I be lying naked in a sorry excuse for a closet in shackles waiting for the monster to return?

I didn't have the answers to those questions, but it didn't matter. Those things happened, and that is my life now.

Still, I curl up in a ball and pray that the monster stays away tonight. The prayer goes unanswered as the huge metal door opens and he steps in.

"Good evening, puppy." He sneers. "Let's play."

ROYAL COURT SOMETIME LATER…

DIMITRI

I come awake dripping in sweat with my heart beating frantically in my chest. I take a deep breath and try to slide out of the bed without waking Rose. She didn't know about the dreams that continued to plague me and I never want her to find out about them.

She had been so willing to forgive me for everything I had done as a Strigoi but, as I tried to tell her, some things were unforgivable, and this was one of those things. If she ever finds out about this, I know she'd leave.

"Dimitri," Rose says as I try to slide out from under her arm. "Is something wrong?"

"No, Roza." I sigh. "Just go back to sleep."

A/N: For those of you who have figured out where this is going, keep your flames to yourself. I know dhampir Dimitri wouldn't do something like this, but Strigoi Dimitri would.