"Hey….I gotta talk to you" Shay said surprised by her own confidence as she approached her partner who was in the middle of inventory

"What's up?" Dawson asked looking up from her clipboard

"There's something I should have told you a long time ago…"

"Leslie Elizabeth Shay, are you coming out of the closet?" Dawson asked faking shock but not being able to keep a smile off her face

"You caught me, Dawson, I'm a big old dyke" Shay laughed "Seriously though I need to talk to you" she said closing the rear doors of the ambulance behind her as she climbed into the back

"Everything ok?" Dawson asked, suddenly worried that there was something serious going on with Shay

"Yeah…well…kind of…I just need to finally be honest with you about something"

Dawson put down the clipboard, turned her body slightly and looked the blonde dead in the eye "What's that?"

"Its….I love you" Shay suddenly blurted out while mentally she was still trying to choose her words. What the fuck am I doing? It's true but I seriously couldn't think of a better way of doing that? She thought to herself

Dawson smiled "Duh, I love you too, Shay"

"No…" Shay said firmly "I know you love me, and I know you know I love you but I mean I'm in love with you"

"What?" Dawson asked shocked at what she had just heard

"I'm sorry…I don't know when it happened, and I know it's totally wrong….and…I just…I don't know what to tell you, but I love you, and I'm sorry I feel this way but you have the right to know…even if it's wrong on so many levels. You're my

best friend, and you're straight"

"I'm not that straight" Dawson said suddenly glancing down at the floor of the ambulance

"Wait…what?" Shay asked, her voice full of anticipation

"I've…I've kinda had a little girl crush on you for a while" Dawson said glancing up at Shay before looking back at the floor

"Don't fuck with me" Shay said firmly, with a hint of a smile on her face

"I'm serious….I just never thought I'd admit it….but since you're being honest I need to be also"

Shay extended her hand and lifted Dawson's chin so she could look her in the eye "Is that really true?"

Dawson nodded and bit her lower lip "Yeah…"

"So what do we do from here? Do we…."

"You kiss me" Dawson interrupted her partner

With that, Shay leaned forward and just as their lips met, she awoke from her dream. It was all a dream, she was in bed, at home, alone.

"Son of a bitch" Shay said out loud to herself, before rolling over and hugging her pillow tight to her body. Although she would never admit it out loud, she had spent many nights hugging that pillow and imagining it was Dawson, and tonight was going to just be another one of those nights