Mackenize couldn't believe what was happening. John was dead. It seemed like a nightmare to Mackenize. She just wanted to wake up from it. She wanted to wake up in bed and feel John holding her. She knew it was her fault that John was dead. She'd been crying since she found out. Emily walked into her hospital room. She had tears in her eyes. She went over to Mackenize and hugged her.

"Grandma told me about John." Emily said tearfully. "Mom I'm so sorry."

"I know."

"Don't worry mom, it's all gonna be fine." "I'm gonna help you with the baby."

"Don't worry about me and the baby, Emily." "We're gonna be fine."

"I loved John."

"I know." "He loved you to."

"I'm gonna miss him."

"Me to."

"How long do you have to stay here?"

"Just overnight for observation." "Don't worry your sister and I are fine."

A few hours Emily was down in the cafeteria getting something to eat. Randy walked into Mackenize's room. Mackenize looked at him and broke into tears. He went over and hugged her.

"I know Mackenize." "I know." "Ssh it's ok."

"I killed him Randy." She said through her tears. "I killed him." "It's my fault he's dead."

"Calm down." "What are you talking about?"

"If John would've never met me he'd still be alive."

"Mackenize, John loved you." "You and the baby and Emily were the best things in his life." "He was so excited that he was gonna be a father."

"Why didn't Gabriel just kill me?" "I wish we could trade places."

"John wouldn't have wanted that." "If he had to choose between his life and your and baby's lives, I guarantee he would've said take me." "It's gonna be ok."

"Everyone keeps saying that but I don't think so." "Nothing will ever be ok again."

"I know it's hard but you have two girls you have to stay strong for."

"I feel like I don't have anyone now."

"That's not true." "You have Emily and the baby and your family." "Plus if you ever need anything I'm always here."

"Thanks Randy."

A few days later everyone was at John's funeral.

"We are here today to stay goodbye to a beloved son, brother, friend, husband and father." The priest said. "As we remember him we are reminded of his kindness." "His generosity." "As he goes onto a better place, let us remember that no one truly leaves us." "There spirit and memory are always with us." "John will be missed by many."

Everyone was walking by his casket saying there final goodbyes. Randy was next.

"Hey John." He said. "Don't worry about anything." "I'm gonna look out for Mackenize I promise." "I'm gonna miss you."

Four months passed since John's death. He left everything to Mackenize in his will. She was about ready to have the baby. There was one more week left until her due date. She was having a really hard time adjusting to life without John. She was back to seeing her therapist three times a week. She was sitting in the living room. Emily was getting ready to leave for the weekend.

"Are you sure you're gonna be ok if I go?" Emily asked.

"Don't worry we still have a week till the baby comes." They heard a horn beep.

"That's my ride." They hugged.

"Have fun."

"I will." She left.

It was nighttime. That was when Mackenize felt lonely the most. Every night she kept waiting for John to come home. Every night she was disappointed. She looked at the door and remembered the last time he came home.

Flashback

John walked through the door.

"Hi honey." Mackenize said from the couch. He came around the couch.

"Hi." They kissed. "Hey you." He said kneeling down by her stomach. "Daddy missed you." "Did you miss me to?" He kissed her stomach.

"I'm sure the baby missed you." "I know I did."

"I missed you to." They kissed again. "Where's Emily?"

"At a friend's house." "Why?"

"That means we're alone." He laid her down on the couch. He looked down at her and smiled.

"What?"

"Nothing." "I just can't believe how lucky I am." "I love you."

"I love you to." They kissed.

End Of Flashback

She started to cry as she thought of that. She felt a sudden pain in her stomach. She knew she was going into labor. She picked up the phone and dialed 911.

Three hours later she gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. She was holding her.

"Hi Alexandria." "You are so beautiful." "Do you know who picked out your name?" "Your daddy picked it out." "I wish your daddy was here." "He would've loved you." "At least now I'll have a little reminder of your daddy forever." "You have his beautiful eyes." "I love you Alex and anything you wanna know about your daddy I'll tell you." She kissed Alex's foreheard.

It was late at night. Mackenize was asleep. She heard the baby start to fuss. Then the baby cooed. Mackenize opened her eyes. She couldn't believe what she saw. John was holding the baby. He had on the clothes he was wearing the day he died.

"It's ok Alex." He said. "Daddy's here." "I love you." He kissed her forehead and put her down. He looked at Mackenize. "Hi Mack."

"John." "I knew you wouldn't leave me."

"Mackenize, I'm dead."

"No." "You're right here."

"I wanted to say goodbye."

"Why didn't the doctors do more to save you?"

"They did all they could it wasn't there fault."

"No, it was mine."

"Stop that." "It wasn't your fault either."

"Yes it was."

"No baby, it wasn't." "I died protecting you and our daughter." "I wish I hadn't but I did."

"Now, I have to live the rest of my life without you." She said starting to cry.

"Hey come here." They hugged.

"You're gonna be ok."

"Not without you."

"I'll always be with you." "Right in here." He said pointing to her heart. "Here I want you to have these." He took off his dog tags and put them in her hand.

"I can't keep these you love them."

"Yes and I want them to be with someone I love." They kissed. "I love you Mackenize."

"I love you to John." She said with tears running down her cheeks.

"I gotta go now." He stood up.

"No please, don't leave me." "Don't leave me."

"We'll be together again one day." "I promise." "Bye Mack."

"Bye John" He disappeared.

Mackenize opened her eyes. What just happened felt so real to her. She looked around. There was no one in the room with her but the baby. She felt something in her hand. She lifted her hands up. They were John's dog tags. She laid there wondering if what she just experienced was real or a dream. If it was a dream she wondered how she got John's dog tags.

That's it. I was thinking of doing a sequel to this story but I don't know. I have a few other ideas to. I hope you enjoyed the story.