Heyy! I'm back! Thank you all for your reviews, faves and follows, I really appreciate them:) I am so sorry I haven't been able to upload the new chapter in a while - well, it has been nearly a month since I put the third chapter so yeah.. I suck ._.

I am so sad since I watched 2x16 and then 2x17, my only comfort is to read all the wonderful fanfics you write everyday:) I hope Wade and Zoe will get back together soon, I already miss them as a couple!

Anyway, here's the new chapter, I hope you like it! I had another idea in mind as I started writing it, but then this thing popped in my head and I decided to go that way... we can say Wade and Zoe here are in a situation of transition, read more to understand better:)

I have already started with the fifth, I hope I will be able to upload in less than a week, wish me luck lol :D

The next morning, Wade woke up on a couch that wasn't his. He ran his hand through his blond hair and yawned loudly.

"You scared?" Lavon questioned him when he noticed he was awake, clearly referring to the night before. Wade looked up at him, still on the couch. He was in the kitchen, having breakfast with milk and cereal.

"What 'bout?" Wade asked, still sleepy. His friend gave him a knowing look and pronounced Zoe's name.

"So... Are you scared?" the mayor asked again as Wade joined him in the kitchen for breakfast. He sat on a stool opposite to the mayor and filled a bowl with milk and cereal.

"Yeah Lavon I'm scared" then he thought better of it and quickly corrected himself "No that's not it, I am not scared. I don't deserve her, she won't ever fall for a guy like me, and even if she did, I would let her down. That's what I always do, like when you tried to help me with my bar: I let you down. I'm not good enough and I will never be."

"You're not even trying" Lavon pointed out, motioning at him with the spoon he had in his hand.

"I tried. I told her I loved her" his friend widened his eyes, incredulous "I did, but I fully regret it, because then I understood she doesn't love me, she never will."

"Just give her time, man!"

"She asked for it, too. She said she's gonna fall for me, eventually" Wade's eyes were now lucid. He sniffled, then scratched the back of his head with his hand.

"So tell me, why the hell aren't you two together?"

"Because." He could not finish the sentence, he could not think of a reason that was not totally stupid. Maybe there was no real reason for it. "I don't know man, I feel like I can't do this. I'm not that kinda guy"

"You know you behave weirdly sometimes, right?" Wade looked up at him, half chuckling. Wade Kinsella could be many things.

"The matter is, I don't deserve her, I'll let her down, someday. I'll hurt her, and then I'll lose her, even if I would never want to. I'm not the one for her! I'm not-"

"Oh no, no, don't you dare say George Tucker 'cause I'm no fool. She chose you over him, Wade! And Golden Boy is now with Tansy. So don't you dare, or else I'll smack you in the face"

Wade didn't answer, he was too busy analyzing what his friend had just said.

"I hope you realize that breakin' up with her now means you're losin' her anyway." He knew what loosing her meant. It meant he would no more be able to kiss those soft, smooth lips of hers, to sleep with her by his side or in his arms. It meant no more spooning after sex, no more waking up in the middle of the night just to hear her breathe and watch her chest rise and fall as she peacefully sleeps, no more kissing her in Lavon's kitchen to annoy their friend. Also, he would not have the right to call her 'baby' or 'honey' or 'my girlfriend'. It meant no more Zoe.

Lavon shook his open hand in front of his friend's eyes to snap him back to reality "However, if you're really sure 'bout this, I guess Lavon Hayes can do nothin' to convince you against it. But, maybe you should talk to Zo"

He stared at him like he was crazy.

"Oh right and what am I goin' to say to her? The same thing I told you? 'Cause she won't understand, she'll bury me with too much questions, she'll try to punch me in the stomach with those tiny, ineffectual fists of hers, clearly without succeedin', but still." He burst out loud, a mix of rage, regret and woe in his eyes.

"Then do whatever ya want but don't you come back cryin' when she tells you she hates you and will hate you forever" Lavon said withdrawing from the table and holding his hands up.

"I won't" he almost shouted.

They paused for an indeterminate period of time, both eating their bowls of cereals.

"You're gonna lose her" the mayor stated, plainly.

"I know" Wade said. Lavon shot him a look, he had the saddest face he's ever seen on him. He was hurt and was the only one knowing why.

"I-" the major continued talking with the same tone "I don't understand you"

"Neither do I" Wade cracked a smile, stood up and put his bowl in the sink. He got out of the kitchen and just said "gotta go, bye!" as the door was closing.

"Wade can we talk?"

It was 10 pm when Zoe knocked on Wade's door. Even after the talk with Lavon, he was not ready to face her.

"I have nothing to tell you"

He was lying on the couch, the guitar lying on him, and what he had just said was a lie, he had so many things to say to her, he just couldn't speak up, not now at least. Part of it was because even if she was behind a door, hearing her voice alone evoked in his mind a picture of the pain that went through her face, the woe in her brown, sad eyes.

"Well I have, so can I at least speak my mind? All you'll have to do is listen. You don't need to say anything, but please-"

"Go away" suddenly he felt some kind of anger growing inside him. Or was it just... the alcohol?

"Are you drunk?" He looked at the empty beer bottles on the table near the couch he was sitting on, then at the glass in his hands, full with scotch.

"I maybe had one beer or two" then, he had taken it to another level when he shifted to scotch, but this he didn't tell Zoe.

"Wade" he couldn't handle it anymore, feeling frustrated and slightly annoyed.

"Just go away" with that, a little tear dropped from her eyes as she decided to leave.

Running down the porch steps, tears began streaming down her face and she couldn't help it.
She would talk to him the next morning, she thought. What difference does a night make, anyway? He wouldn't even be drunk, so that'd be a plus.
Wade hadn't moved an inch. Since he didn't hear anything, he thought she had taken his advice and left his house. He stood up and got to the closest window that faces her home beyond the pond and saw her walking towards the main door. Before going inside, she glanced over the pond and there she saw him, staring at her through the window. He realized that he had been discovered and quickly turned from the window, trying to forget the sad look she had on and that line – bright because affected by the shining sun – that linked her eye to the chin and he could swear, that was a tear.
She sighed and got inside.

As she was lying on the couch, Zoe remembered about the conversation she'd had with Rose earlier so she called her. As the answering machine went off, she decided to leave a message.

"hey Rose, it's Zoe. Remember the plan to remedy things with Wade? Forget it, everything's cancelled"

She took a cool shower and then slipped under the covers of her bed. As she was dozing off, she collected her thoughts. Why did he seem so distant, so detached? Why did he act like that? She couldn't understand the reason why he was keeping distance from her. Well, she did know he was hurt because of the 'I love you' thing, but she had tried to explain that. She thought things with him were going just fine, even though not without problems. Then he said 'I love you' and she froze. She was guilty but that didn't give him the right to give up on them and not talk to her for ever.
Again, she thought about her conversation with Rose and again, found herself thinking she would fix everything with Wade because he was worth it, even if it appeared he didn't agree with that.

When she woke up the next morning, she felt the urge to puke, so she ran to the bathroom. After some time she was starting to feel better so she decided to go to work anyway, the nausea didn't bother her all day long. When back home she thought about it. Was if a food poisoning? Or was it something else, like...? When was the last time she'd had her period?

"I really need to talk to you" you could tell something bad happened when Zoe showed up at Wade's house early in the morning. Wade, this time, went to open the door.

Now they were standing on the porch, he was looking at her, puzzled. She finally spit it out "Wade I think I'm pregnant" she still couldn't believe what she was saying, let alone Wade.

"Uh" those words had scared the hell out of him. He couldn't think, and started feeling all dizzy and stuff, so he leaned against the door so his shoulder was supporting his body, his arms crossed.

"Uh what? I tell you I'm pregnant with your baby and all you can say is uh?" She was shaking hard and all Wade wanted to do was to stop her from doing it in some way but he was terrified as well and couldn't move, so all he did was stand there, still.

Suddenly, a thought hit him.

"Is it mine?" He said, unsure.

"Yes you jerk" she huffed and stared at him like he was some kind of freak "whose do you think it is?"

"What, just sayin' " a tiny smirk spread on his face. Even in a situation like this he could still make jokes, he was incorrigible.

She widened her eyes and hit him on the arm, "jerk" she repeated.

Wade smiled but then froze. He was scared as hell, even more than she was, but in his heart he knew what the right thing to do was, so he went all serious and spoke again.

"We can do this" they locked eyes and stared at each other for some time.

"Do what?"

"We can raise our child, together" he paused, running a hand through his hair and then on his shoulder "we can do it."

"No we can't. We've been together for, like, 3 months. We're not ready, I'm not ready, NO!" She was seriously starting to freak out, so Wade hugged her, moving his hand slowly up and down her back, not knowing what else to say. He had never been good with words, always preferred actions.

"Slow down, girl" he tried in a soothing voice. Zoe seemed to calm down a bit so he moved away a little so they could meet eyes and cupped her cheeks with his hands. He could feel her heart beat loudly and so could she. He brought his lips to hers, kissed her lightly and she didn't fight back nor complain.
He wanted to be strong for her but inside, he was freaking out as she was, maybe even more. It had been only in the morning when he didn't want them to be together, and now there he was, trying to start a family with her.
She breathed in and out to calm down, although the kiss had already done much of the job reassuring her.

"Maybe I should get my blood analyzed, just to be sure, you know"

"I can come with you if you want me to" he smiled.

"Yeah that'd be great" she smiled back at him and he pulled her closer, enfolding her with his arms. She buried her face in his chest, feeling the heat irradiating from his warm body and inhaled deeply. His shirt smelled like pine and she loved that.
They broke the embrace and headed to the clinic.

"You know, I have this feelin' we're gonna have a girl" Wade said, suddenly breaking the silence that had fallen between them as they went down the street.

"I would love for it to be a girl" she turned to him, a wide, sweet smile on her lips.

"You do?" He leaned over to give her a kiss on the forehead and held her closer to him.

"Yeah"

"Me, too" they both smiled.

Some days later, they sat on her couch, Wade's arm around Zoe's shoulders, the envelope with the test's results in her hands. The days had passed slowly since they first discovered they were going to have a baby, and they were just starting to get used to the idea of raising a child together and being a family.

"Okay, I'm doing it now" they both breathed slowly, staring at that envelope which contained their future. She opened it carefully and as she was reading the results Wade inhaled deeply, the wait was killing him.

"I, I am not... pregnant" she stated with a sigh of relief.

So yeah. Zoe's not pregnant. I've read some fics where the couple have a baby, and I totally respect and love them, but I felt like, at least in my story, they're not at that point yet. It's just too soon for them;)

In chapter 5 we'll see how that will affect their relationship...

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