Gomen! I was planning on doing this chapter over vacation I had and yet it seemed the end came sooner then I thought and I did and accomplished nothing. I still have some idea where this story is going and it kinda just flows as a I write it so I could be going right and then suddenly go left. Anyway there's chapter 12 so happy we are this far though I know other stories are longer this is my proud work. I won't ramble on much today so let's get on with the story.

Thinking

"Talking"

Zanpaktou

Hollow

oOxOo

Last time on the thing I never had

Ishida didn't answer right away and Rukia had to question weather or not he was going to. But he had a look on his face, a look that said he was thinking. Trying to words this a certain way, and that brought anger to the surface. Tightening her fists she opened her mouth to scream at him. To scream at him to not bother sparing her the details the lies. It wouldn't make things any better for the situation.

But she was cut short when he did finally speak and the honesty in his voice brought unshed tears to her amethyst eyes.

"Who can say."

oOxOo

She sat where a few days ago Ishida sat. He was the logical one of the group the one that came up with all the ideas and ways to solve problems even though most of them where ignored and rejected. And yet, he didn't know why he didn't tell her. Why they didn't tell her why Ichigo was with orhime why she was left in the dark? Oh well happiness can't be held for too long. It's like holding water in your hands, sooner or later all the water will leak out and dissolve into the land unable to be recollected. Leaning back onto her hands she started up into the holes of the cave at the full moon. Rukia sometimes felt that she held more power, more confidence during the full moon, like her and her zanpaktou pulled energy from the silent and beautiful moon.

Sighing she couldn't help but relax under the rays even with all the problems that where accruing. It had been days since she last saw anyone, no one came too find her, no hell butterfly had come her way and he hadn't come back after that first encounter here. Did he know that she was here again and did not want to talk to her? Was he keeping up his end of the bargain and didn't want to see or talk to her unless they needed to? Probably. It was what she asked though, though in her anger and sadness she still felt a little pissed that he wouldn't try to at least have some kind of relationship be it friendship or lovers.

Rukia dear, we have one last test before you can achieve my bankai. You have done well fighting with me in the soul world, you have risen a little below captain level and would uphold well against one. You have learned all my dances and preform them beautifully. And now, I shall teach you a powerful, and dangerous technique.

Before Rukia could reply to her soul sword she was swallowed into a world of darkness. She felt the skin on her side press and bruise slightly, maybe from when her body fell from the rock? Shrugging from the little pain she now felt from the high retsu she now emitted she awaited the light she hoped to see. To see what Shirayuki had planned for her "last test."

The light she got was blinding, rendering Rukia blind for a few seconds. Blinking furiously against the dots in her vision she was met with a world of snow and ice. Barren was the land scape, no grass or blooming trees. There was only dead trees their dark branches stretching out to the sky covered lightly in snow and naming glittering icicles. The world was beautiful and Rukia automatically felt at home. This dead world of black and white fitted her well.

In the middle of the waste land stood her zanpaktou not in her humanoid form but in her sword shape. Confusingly Rukia walked slowly up to her sword and found it wasn't exactly her sword. It had the long cloth at the end attached to the crystal gem. And yet the blade that was usually pale white was a transparent crystal itself. It released a cold blast of air like pulsing heart beat. Her heart beat to be exact.

Now with even more caution then before she stepped in front of the sword with as much strength as she could. The ice dust the blew from it coated her skin and paled her skin and dusted her raven hair white. The shinigami robes she wore became white and the black tie a turquoise blue. She stared at her hands in awe. It didn't hurt, it stung a little yes but there was no numbing sensation or frost bite she usually got in the cold.

She clenched her fingers and gasped out loud. Her knuckles and joints that bent where cracked. The ice fell from her hands and to the covered plain but the wind picked it up again and it collected onto the places where it cracked and healed the ice. Amazed even more, Rukia did this multiple times to see if it was a fluke and the limit to this new power.

Yes Rukia, this is the new power of achieving bankai. However as you have already figured out, there is a down side of it that will take years before it is not a hazard.

By lowering your body temperature you have become in a sense of the word 'dead.' Your blood, your cells, your heart beat, they have all been frozen by my snow and ice. If cut by an enemy you will not bleed out, if paralyzed by enemy retsu you will not be effected, if limb is lost it will regrow as ice and when thawed your flesh arm will be there still for now. You are the ice queen.

But do not think you can always use this as a defense, because as much as it's powerful. It can destroy you. Heat your body up too quickly, you will die, move to quickly and you will shatter.

Shirayukis voice echoed throughout the word, sounding motherly and stern like a guardian telling a child to have fun in the night but to be careful. Rukia continued forward with her hand, she felt the joints at her shoulders crack and the snow picking up to heal the damaged ice. It was slightly uncomfortable knowing she could shatter and die just from a slight movement. Grasping the sword with breaking hands she blew out the cold air that was building up inside and pulled the zanpaktou free. Then...

Suddenly she was back in the world of reality. Sun trickled through an opening between the curtains and Rukia had to wonder, How long was I in my spirit world? From the direction of the sunlight now and the direction of the moonlight when she left she was out of it for more then 18 hours! But within it only felt like a half hour, no more!?

Wait...curtains?

Sitting up quickly her vision went blank for a moment till she heard a clatter to the hard cold floor. Regaining her sight after a few seconds of deep breathing she turned to look at what she knocked over. There on the floor un-damaged even though it's matter looked so fragile. Her zanpaktou. Though not. It was different the hilt was still the same with the cloth wavering behind it, and yet the blade itself was completely different. It was clear! Transparent!

The room she was in was in the same state as was her room when she left and she couldn't help but look around in wonder at how she wasn't cold or frost-bitten at all. Looking down in eagerness Rukia saw it was just her hands that were of ice though in her spirit world it was her whole body. Lifting her hand she cracked her knuckles once again and saw snow from the room collect to heal once again.

She did it.

The moment, short lived when the door made a sound and forceful pushing against the ice and snow echoed through the small space.

Why can't I just enjoy this tiny bit of happiness I have?!

Just before the intruder could force themselves completely through Rukia hid her ice hands under the wool blankets and slipped into her noble mask.

"Knocking would have sufficed instead of breaking and entering."

There that one is down. If you haven't read the manga then don't continue past this little thing /SPOILERS\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\ I'm glad Rukia got her bankai so I don't have to come up with anything elaborate but I guess I can play on powers and what not. And I may change her bankai clothing as well. /DONE\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\

At chapter 12 I do feel like I need to speed things up, because I'm just dragging this out,because I like to describe things in full and repeat things too. But anyway I wanna thank everyone whose dealing with this long boring story!

THANK YOU