Phil's POV:
I answered my door at night to see Dan waiting there, my stomach flipped as my eyes locked on his perfect brown eyes. He stood there looking as perfect as ever, which made me feel all the more nervous. I was scared to hear what he had to say, but at the same time it was better than waiting in anticipation, hoping that he would realize that we are perfect for each other. I invited him and we both sat down on the sofa in silence, he looked nervous – which scared me. His leg was bouncing up and down in an anxious way.
"What do you need to talk to me about?" I asked, breaking the silence.
He stayed quiet for a few seconds before answering, looking deep in thought.
"On the way over here on the train, I had a whole speech planned out for you. I've completely forgotten it all" He said, nervously chuckling.
I forced my mouth to break into a smile, was the speech him telling me that we were better off just friends?
"You told me to decide" He said "And I did".
I nodded, desperately awaiting his next words. My heart was beating faster than it ever had before. Faster than when I had my first kiss, faster than when I got my A-level results and even faster than the first time I met Dan. I wanted him to blurt it out and not beat around the bush like I knew he would. He tended to ramble in situations like this, yet stupidly I loved that about him. There wasn't much I didn't love about him.
"When I told you I had feelings for both you and Jessie, I made a mistake" He said. "I liked the idea of being with Jessie, I liked how she made me feel normal and how she had been all I had ever wanted back in high school"
I bit back some tears, hoping for a 'but' at the end of this heart felt speech.
"But then I realized something, it wasn't Jessie I liked. The whole time I was with her I was practically begging for those old feelings to come back and when I finally realized they weren't coming back, it hit me" Dan began, "They weren't coming back because now I had you. The idea of being with you terrified me, the feelings I have for you sill terrify me and unlike Jessie, you don't make me feel normal – you make me feel different"
For the first time during his speech, I tore my eyes away from my lap and looked at him. I felt a tear slide it's way down my face, barely even acknowledging it, I wiped it away with my sleeve. I always scolded myself about the fact that I cried at moments like this, even in movies I would always shed a tear.
"Normalness leads to sadness" He said quoting me.
"It's always been you and even though I'm terrified, it's a good terrified. Like when you finally do something big by yourself and it's new and it's scary but it makes you feel alive. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future, but I'm not going to let the fear of getting hurt stop me any more. This could be something great, as long as your willing to forget my stupidity and be with me" He said smiling.
A smile creeped upon my face, I tried to hide it but it just kept getting bigger and bigger. I tried to hide my face, shaking my head at this crazy smile.
"Is that a yes?" Dan asked.
I didn't have the ability to say anything, I slid over to his side of the sofa. Slowly and carefully, I placed my hand on the back of his neck, gently moving our faces closer. Our foreheads were touching and I could feel Dan's breathing getting heavier. I crashed my lips onto his, feeling him pull me closer. Out of all the times I had kissed Dan, this had been the strongest time. But it wasn't in a sexual way, yet it contained it's powerful effect. It was the kind of kissed that said, how did we take so long to get here?
We pulled apart and I nodded, "Yes" I said grinning.
I brushed a bit of his hair away from his face, his soft shiny hair. I still had my hand around the back his neck, not wanting to ever let him go. Eventually, I did and we snuggled up on the sofa. Dan was staying over tonight, there was no way I could be without him tonight. He lay across my sofa with his head in my lap, as we both watched TV. I had one free hand on his chest and the other playing with his hair. He grabbed the free hand and entwined our fingers together, placing them both back on his chest. We sat in silence, a completely comfortable silence – it was almost perfect. He looked up at me, his eyes shining and his mouth breaking into a perfect smile. I loved how simple yet amazing our relationship was and how Dan made me feel, I loved us. We had wasted a whole year, but I wasn't wasting any more of my life without him.
Ah this is the end! I always get really sad when I end phanfics but i felt chapter 20 was a good place to end it. I really enjoyed writing this though, I didn't get writer's block once – in fact if anything, I had too much to say and slightly rambled on. Anyway, thanks for the support and for following the story! Your reviews have always been so nice and funny, especially when you continuously insulted Jessie! Hopefully I'll start another phanfic soon, anyways bye!