It's been almost three year that Mable and I have been at Gravity Falls. Apparently our parents planned the whole thing. They sent us off and never actually planned on getting us back. Oh well it's not like we actually want to come back. Gravity Falls was a better home than the city. I've gotten used to everything here going home just seemed pointless. I mean going back to the city seemed useless. Gravity Falls is my home now. AH jeez I guess I'm just mad at my parents for basically abandoning us here. It's like they never cared or they used to care but they just liked not having kids. I thought I could forgive them. I overheard my parents talking before we left for Gravity Falls. They never wanted me they just wanted Mable. I was an accident. They never really loved me. I wanted to forgive them but know they just blew their second chance. I never told anyone how I felt. It's better to keep every emotion bottled up right? No one really cares about you. You're just a waste of time and space. NO one expects anything out of you because they know you can't do anything right in your life. Every day I expect it to be my last. One day someone is just going to get tired of me and just... I know, I have been close to death numerous times and acted like a little kid each time but things are different this time. I am willing to die if it makes everybody happy. After all, a life is of little value if everyone has one. People are born every day and people die every day. No one cries about it. Death is a part of life. Have you ever stop to notice all the children dead from war? No one cares about their lives. Want proof? We still have war even after children die. See? Same principle, if I die nothing will change. Nothing is going to matter no one's going to cry and no one is going to care. I looked out the window while Mable was sleeping in the other bed.

"come on just give me a chance" I mumbled to the sky. I walked down stairs trying not to wake Grunkle Stan or Mable. I walked into the kitchen. Waiting on the counter was a regular steak knife. I tried not to look at it but it seemed to be calling me. One swift motion and all my pain and everyone else's would be over. I went to the refrigerator to get a snack. Literally nothing was there. Typical for Grunkle Stan to forget to buy food or maybe was just to cheep to pay for it. I turned around to go back upstairs and the knife was still on the counter. Of course it was stupid what could it have done walked away. Actually weirder stuff has happened in this town walking knife was a possibility. I did the stupidest but smartest thing I could have ever done. I picked up the knife and slid the sharp edge over my wrist. I hissed at the pain. It wasn't actually pain it was …comforting. I watched as a couple drops of my blood fell to the ground. Then something weird happened, as soon as the blood hit the ground the wind changed direction making an eerie noise as it hit the window pane. I put the knife back where it was and went back upstairs. Everyone was still asleep but I just wasn't tired yet. It reminded me of the very first day at Gravity Falls. I was actually too scared to fall asleep. So much has changed since then. Wendy and Robbie went to college. Mable and I are in Gravity Falls High School. Mable has made friends while I am still struggling to be seen heard and cared about. Soos and Grunkle Stan were possibly the only ones that didn't change. I am starting to get the impression that the only reason Grunkle Stan still keeps me around is because I find mysterious things that he could put in the Mystery Shack. Another possibility is I work for free. I have to he's my great uncle. Mable has become almost popular here. She's bright funny and fun to have around and I am pretty sure she brings good luck. The only time any one talk to me is because they want to find out if Mable is free Saturday or if she is single, which she's not she has to have a date everyday of the week. I guess I really wasn't in anybody's life any ways. I looked at my wrist I couldn't see well in the dark but I could tell the bleeding stopped. I lay down in my bed and tried to go to sleep. I have a long day of rejections and heartaches and sadness to look forward to tomorrow.

Hey Guys,

SO this is my first gravity falls fanfic if you don't like it let me know. I wasn't sure if I was going to make this a one shot or not. If you want me to write another chapter I will but if not *sniff sniff* :'( I understand. If the story continues it will get happier just sayin'. But seriously let me know what you think and I will think about writing the next chapter. one thing you should know about me: I'm bilingual so I switch languages in the sign off. For example

Á tout á l'huere (see you soon in French)

~STAR7K~