Tilly moved rapidly in her bed her face scrunched up her gentle hands gripping hold of the bed covers. She was having a nightmare, her thoughts rushing through her head of Jen, that moment in the alleyway where she seen Jen. She bravely put on a face and told her she didn't want her, which wasn't true. It hit her in the stomach, she felt like she couldn't breath, she wanted to grab her, touch her, kiss her right there, but she had to control her emotions and be brave she had to, she couldn't have her heart broken again.

Tilly woke up and burst out crying, she had the same dream over and over again since that day, she never wants to sleep knowing when she closes her eyes, her thoughts are only on Jen, and the memories they shared.

Tilly got out of bed slowly and wondered to the mirror to wipe the tears of her face and started to apply her makeup for college, she looked at her timetable to see what she had for the day ahead of her, and she noticed straight away one class that stood out more than the others, 'Art'. She sighed and memories rushed through her head of Jen and Tilly in the art room, kissing, flirting, when everything was simple, perfect.

Tilly went downstairs to go and get her bag as her mother noticed she was a little too dolled up for college. Her mother smiled and said 'any particular girl I should know about?' Tilly blushed and smiled and ignored her question and left the house.

She met up with Sinead and Ruby and wondered up to school, listening to Sinead complain about Bart and Ruby complaining about Esther, which she had no interest to what either of them were saying as all she could think of is what it's going to be like in Art today, seeing Jen. They finally got to College and the bell rang as everyone was slowly walking to class sighing, complaining about how tired they were. Whereas Tilly, Tilly was in her own world, wondering how to speak to Jen, wondering if Jen wants to speak to her.

She noticed the bell had rung and she was late to her first class, art. She quickly shuffled through people and ran down the stairs and bumped into Jen and dropped her books. Tilly and Jen looked into each other's eyes, and Jen quickly looked away and apologised and rushed into class. Tilly quickly picked up her books and walked into class, and hurried to the back of the class and sat down quietly, listening to Jen speak about art, watching her hips and lips move. She was interrupted by a young lad who had specs and brown curly hair that smiled at her and caught her attention. He leaned his chair back and tried to flirt with her, and soon turned away embarrassed when he noticed she wasn't interested.

Jen giggled to herself noticing the young boy trying to flirt with Tilly and Tilly ignoring him, she felt a pang of jealousy knowing she couldn't speak to her but he could. She had to speak to Tilly she had to finish off what she was trying to say in the alleyway before being interrupted by Tilly. She needed to speak to her, she had too.

The bell rang and all the young students rushed out the door and Tilly slowly walked to the door, ignoring Jen in sight. Jen quickly said 'Tilly, could you stay behind please, I need to talk to you about your grades'. The students had left by now and Tilly awkwardly stood there and asked why she really wanted to speak to her. Jen slowly walked towards her until their bodies were inches apart. She looked into Tilly's eyes as tears filled her eyes, she whispered 'I'm so sorry Tilly I didn't want any of this to happen, I miss you...' she paused then said quietly 'I love you Tilly Evans...'. Tilly's eyes opened wide and her mouth dropped. Jen giggled and said 'I didn't expect that reaction in my head' as she smiled and moved towards Tilly's lips to kiss her. Tilly quickly moved back, and Jen looked at her strangely with disappointment then looked on the worry on Tilly's face and turned around to find the headmaster at the door.

TBC