FACING YOUR FEARS- EPILOGUE

It was a sunny morning in Academy City; it was a beautiful sunny morning. Well, too bad, because it certainly did not match the mood in a certain hospital room and Touma.

Why you ask?

Misaka Mikoto is currently bed ridden. If that's not bad enough, she's not herself. She's not the same girl. That's what Heaven Canceller said anyway. Touma sighed and stroked Mikoto's hair removing it from her face then stared at the pale, boring white ceiling, remembering every word that the frog faced doctor said.

-Flashback-

Mikoto was carried to the hospital, as she was placed in bed, Touma refused to let go of her hand.

"What the hell is happening?! What happened to Mikoto?!"

He shouted. A old and wrinkly hand took hold of his shoulder and said,

"Listen Kamijou-kun; just leave her to me okay? Misaka-san is my patient now. I'll definitely save her, no matter what."

Heaven Canceller (real name unknown) or as Mikoto called him "Doctor Frog face" said. Touma's hand trembled but let go of her as the nurses rushed her in.

"Now, would you mind telling me what happened?"

He asked, but Touma just remained silent. The only people with him where Kuroko, Uiharu and Ruiko. The members of Necessarius were all healing up; Accelerator went home with a struggling Last Order who kept on shouting "Onee-chan! I want to be with Onee-chan!" with her weird way of speaking, Misaka 10032 went home with them, while Konori straightened something's out with Judgment.

"If this is about Alesteir's plans, I know most of them. So I understand if you won't talk."

He said sighing; his words surprised Touma and the others.

"Y-you knew?!" –Touma

"Well, I am a doctor and somewhat his friend. Sigh, I'll get back to you later okay? Just be prepared for the worst girls, especially you Kamijou-kun.

-End of flashback-

"What am I supposed to do now, Mikoto?"

He asked himself. He removed his focus from the ceiling to the girl lying asleep in bed, the girl he loved the most.

"What am I supposed to do right now? I need you…I really really do…"

He said placing his head over his crossed arms on the bed.

"I don't understand why you're asking me that."

Mikoto's voice said. Touma looked up to see her, his one and only BiriBiri, looking at him. Her eyes were back to normal, her hair remained long, but her voice and stare was cold, it was almost petrifying.

"Mi-Mikoto…"

Touma said as tears were threatening to fall, but her stare remained cold.

"Why do you keep repeating my name like that? I don't understand. Why haven't you left my side for a whole week? I also don't understand. My head is aching because of all the questions I do not understand. You're not a pervert right? Because if you are I will fry you right here and now. "

She said as her head tilted in confusion then glared at him in the last part. Touma forced himself to smile as he helped her to lie down again

"Of course I'm here all week. Someone needs to stay by your side. And don't worry; I won't do anything to you."

"Well then why couldn't Kuroko or Uiharu-san or someone else watch over me? Not that I need to be watched over."

She said as she finally lied down. Touma sat down in his chair.

"Because they understand our situation Mikoto. They understand how hard things for us are. They know how important the feelings you lost were to both of us. If only you could remember."

"I'm sorry."

"Huh? Why would you be apologizing?"

"Well, it seems like I've caused you a lot of pain, all because I 'lost' part of me. I still don't understand it, the same way why I can't remember you…"

Mikoto said it so straightforwardly. Touma's heart rang with pain, but he kept it in. he smiled and placed his hand on her head.

"It's okay. You can take your time. Why don't you got to sleep first okay BiriBiri?"

"BiriBiri? That's me right? Why do you call me that?"

Touma's heart ached once more. Just how much more does he have to endure?

"I'll explain it when you wake up okay? Go to sleep."

With that said she closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep. Touma gripped his hand and brought it to his forehead. This time, he allowed the tears to escape his eyes. As each drop fell down, he cursed himself for letting this happen to her of all people.

"Just...Why? Why did it have to be Mikoto? What…what did she do to deserve this…this damn punishment?!"

He said as he remembered Heaven Canceller's diagnosis.

-Flashback-

Doctor frog face came out of the room and walked towards Touma and the others. Touma immediately stood up,

"How is she? Why did she pass out? Will she be alright? Will-"

"Relax Kamijou-kun, Misaka-san is—"

"Doctor Frog face!"

A girl shouted. They all looked back and saw Mikoto in her tattered dress running toward the said doctor. Touma's face immediately lightened up and a warm smile graced his worn out face.

"Mikoto!"

He was about to run into her and hug her, but Mikoto just ran past him and hugged Heaven Canceller instead.

"Ugh! Misaka-san! You-you just recovered! You shouldn't move around like that!"

Heaven Canceller said as he suffocated from Mikoto's embrace.

"You look just like Gekota! You're the special doctor edition! For some reason, I'm extremely happy! I don't understand it."

Mikoto said as she giggled and blushed. Everyone else was dumbfounded.

"Uhm, Onee-sama?"

Kuroko said raising her hand. Mikoto looked at her then smiled.

"Oh, hey…Kuroko right? I didn't notice you there. Ah, so…Uiharu and Ruiko are with you? Why? Is there Judgment stuff happening?"

"Onee-sama, aren't you bothered by the fact that you are in a hospital, in a ragged dress, hugging a doctor? And did you just forget my name?"

"Well, I was wondering why I was in the hospital, but I don't really understand. I don't know why, but there are a lot of things I don't understand, I really mean A LOT of things…"

She said as her smile turned into a frown.

"Uhm, Misaka-san, why don't you change into some hospital clothes first? People are starting to stare at you."

Heaven Canceller said. Mikoto just stared at her outfit, than at the people, then at Kuroko, then at the doctor.

"But why are they staring?"

"Well, let's just say that it's embarrassing. It's a common human emotion Misaka-san; you need to learn it as well okay?"

"Human emotions are very difficult to understand. But if you say so, I'll be going then."

She said as she turned around and started walking into her room. On her way there, Touma was staring into space and she accidentally bumped into him. Touma looked at her with surprise. Mikoto stared at his face for a moment. Everyone else watched them.

"Uhm…h-how-"

Touma stuttered, Mikoto just bowed then continued walking.

"She didn't even greet Kamijou-kun!"-Uiharu

'She didn't even electrocute him you mean"

Kuroko added, Touma just stared off, before snapping back to reality.

"What just happened?"-Touma

"Sigh, seems like you had no effect at all."-Heaven Canceller

"What's that supposed to mean?"-Touma

"What I'm about to say is quite difficult to believe, but it is the truth."

"After what I've seen, I'd believe you if you said that Santa Claus and unicorns exist." –Ruiko

"Well, Misaka-san has lost herself."

He stated. Everyone just nodded and after 5 seconds, their eyes widened and they shouted,

"WHAAAT?!"

"Shhh, be quiet. Anyways, I meant what I said. I don't know how things happened, but she has severe brain and heart malfunctions. It's like someone experimented on them."

"Well, that's not far from the truth." –Touma

"As a result, she has lost her personality. Her powers are still intact and she is still a very powerful electromaster, although, she has lost her heart and emotions. We scientists usually don't believe this, but, in this case, it's the only possibility."

"Then how come she remembers Gekota?" –Touma

"That's because I induced her to it. I constantly reminded her of it and also gave her a brief overview on who she was. I'm actually amazed that she managed to act like that towards you girls. Misaka-san is really smart. I mean, when she woke up, she had trouble remembering her own name. I only told her about what I know about you guys and she managed to act like that. She truly is a genius."

"Then what about me? Why doesn't she remember me?!"

Touma asked, his voice rising in pitch.

"Her heart was damaged the most. She has lost almost every bit of her emotions, and from what I can see, she has lost love."

"Are…you telling me…that…Mikoto loves me?"

He asked blushing and stuttering at the same time.

"No, Kamijou-kun. Misaka-san LOVED you, in a past tense. She has lost all her love. It may be impossible to bring it back, not with magic or science."

The moment he said that, a faint smile appeared on Touma's face,

"What is it Kamijou-kun?"

"I just remembered something that Laura told me. She said that Mikoto and I possessed something that is stronger than any form of magic or power. I guess, now, I finally understand it. And I'm gonna use that to bring Mikoto back."

He said turning to Mikoto's room.

"What would that be Kamijou-kun?"

Heaven Canceller called out, Touma looked back and smiled.

"It's my LOVE for her. It's stronger and more powerful than anything else."

He said moving forward. The doctor and everyone else smiled.

"That was really cheesy, but, I'll forgive you this time, Kamijou-senpai."

Kuroko said smiling, but her face darkened when she thought of how hard things were going to be.

-End of flashback-

Now, he was staring off into space again. What time was it? He didn't know, nor did he care. His mind was too preoccupied with so many thoughts right now.

"I wonder how school is. I've been gone for a week now. Mikoto was kidnapped during the foundation week, so there were no classes. Then I've been watching over her for a week now… Fukiyose's gonna kill me…"

He said to out loud, to no one in particular. He didn't anticipate that anyone would answer him.

"Then just go to your school. As I said, you don't need to watch over me. I'm not a kid."

A voice said. Touma turned and saw that Mikoto had woken up.

"Eh? I didn't realize you were awake BiriBiri."

"I've been awake for quite some time now. If you hadn't noticed, it's already 6:30. Curfew will be broken if you stay here any longer."

"It's okay. I've stayed here for a whole week now. I'm sure that no one will mind."

He said smiling. Mikoto stared at him with curious eyes for a moment before speaking.

"This has always puzzled me, but why do you stay here?"

"Isn't that obvious Mikoto? I'm here for you, and I won't leave until you get everything back."

"I still don't understand. But is the thing that I lost somehow connected to what happened before I ended up here? What is it exactly that I lost?"

She asked. Touma heaved a sigh,

"Say, before I answer that, I just want to know something Mikoto."

"Go ahead."

"Mikoto…what do you think of me?"

"I don't know how to respond to that. I can't seem to remember much about you."

"I don't mind if you had some of your memories lost, all I'm asking you is how you think of me now? For the past week that I've been with you."

He asked looking at Mikoto who just stared back at him with her clueless eyes. She was silent, he waited for her response.

"Do you wish me to tell the truth?"

"Well…yeah…"

"Well, in all honesty…"

"You know, why don't we just change topics, I wanted you to read-"

Touma rummaged through his pocket and took out an envelope. Mikoto closed her eyes and breathed. She paused for a while before facing Touma with an irritated expression on her face.

"In all honesty, I HATE YOU."

She said straightforwardly, without hesitation. Touma stared at her in her surprise, accidentally crumpling the paper in his hands.

"You…you're just kidding right? It…it was a joke right?"

He said faking a laugh. Mikoto grunted,

"No. I was DEADLY SERIOUS."

Touma stopped fake laughing and looked at Mikoto.

"What?"

"Sigh, I said that I HATE YOU. You're very annoying. Sticking by me, day and night. I don't even know you!"

"Well…that's because you forgot some of your memories so…"

"Even if I did forget them, I'd rather not remember them, if they were about you. I'd honestly be better off not knowing you."

"Mikoto…you…you don't know what you're saying…"

He said with a hint of anger in his voice.

"And do you? Do you know? Don't act as if you've know everything about me! I'd bet that the reason that I am in this hospital in the first place was because of you right? You're probably a good for nothing jerk who causes nothing but trouble! YOU-"

Mikoto held her mouth. She knew that she went too far. She looked at Touma, only to find him giving off a broken smile. A loud pang came from Mikoto's heart.

"You're right. I guess you are right… I'm sorry Miko- I meant Misaka-san. I'll stop coming over then. I'll just call Shirai-san to watch over you… I'm really sorry."

He said as he stood up, pushed the envelope back in his pocket and left. Mikoto watched as he walked away and closed the door behind him. When he didn't hear his footsteps anymore, she held onto her heart and broke down crying.

"You really are something else Misaka-san."

Heaven Canceller said walking into her room. He sat on the chair Touma sat on and patted Mikoto's head.

"You've certainly endured too much, I think that's enough. You can cry all you want…"

With that said Mikoto cried even louder, hugging the pillow to her face. Heaven Canceller just watched with a sad expression on his face.

"Is…this what true love does to you?"

He asked handing a handkerchief to Mikoto. Mikoto took it,

"I don't know Dr. Gekota… there are still a lot of things that I don't understand…"

"Why are you pretending that you forgot everything? Why are acting so cold towards him?"

"It's not like I remember everything. Whenever he's around me, I just feel safe…and warm. Even though I have forgotten everything, I just know it. I know that I love him…"

"Misaka-san…"

"But…I also know… I also know that I can't… I'm scared… I don't want to hurt him… I don't want to leave him…"

She said crying harder by the minute, if that was even possible.

"Misaka-san, there is still hope for you. We can always approach other hospitals to check on you. I'm sure we can find a way to save you!"

"You're Heaven Canceller Dr. Gekota. If you can't do something about my body, then no one can."

"Then, are you prepared to…DIE… Misaka-san?"

He said. Mikoto just stared at her hands. The hands that Touma kept on holding onto while he thought that she was asleep. The hands that caressed his spiky black hair whenever he fell asleep with his head lying on her bed. Her ragged and worn out hands that had to keep on carrying that burden that came with being an angel for the rest of her SHORT life. She gave a faint smile,

"That's why I wanted to keep my distance. I want to make things easier when the time comes…I don't want to see him hurt…not anymore…"

She said pulling her knees to her face. Heaven Canceller sighed and stood up.

"If that's your choice, then I can't do anything about it. But, I guess you should have this."

He said placing a letter on her bed beside her; he then walked to the door. Before he closed it, he said,

"Kamijou-kun gave that to me. He wrote that while you were asleep, the first day you came in the hospital. He said that he wanted you to read this when you fully recovered. I found it on the floor outside, he must have dropped it when he walked out. You should read it."

The door closed and Mikoto cried herself to sleep, not even minding the letter. Meanwhile outside, the rain started to pour heavily. But Touma didn't care. He just stayed there and allowed to rain drops to wash away his tears. The next day, Kuroko visited her, along with Ruiko and Uiharu who wore their uniforms.

"Ara? That's weird. Why isn't Kamijou-san here with you Misaka-san?"

Uiharu said placing a basket on the table.

"Oh, him? He left last night. He hasn't come back and I hope he doesn't."

Mikoto asked pain still visible in her eyes. Everyone was shocked.

"Humph, I knew that you would eventually wake up and realize that he was nothing more than an insolent swine. A useless perverted moron who does not match your grace Onee-sama! He-"

"Drop it Kuroko. JUST DROP IT NOW."

She said menacingly. Kuroko cowered in fear, smiled and nodded. Then, she noticed the letter beside Mikoto. Kuroko took it,

'Onee-sama, pardon me, but, what is this?"

"Oh that? It's nothing? Just throw it away or something. Burn it for all I care."

"Misaka-san, I think you should read it. it might be important."-Uiharu

"OH! That's right! Uiharu! Shirai-san! Can you come with me to the mall? There's something I want to check out! Bye Misaka-san!"

Ruiko said grabbing the other two and running out the door.

"What was that for Ruiko?"-Uiharu

"I'd bet that the letter was from Kamijou-san. Misaka-san is hiding something; I think they need time alone."

"But you're not exactly going to 'leave them alone' now are you?"-Kuroko

"Was it that obvious?"

Ruiko said with a smile. Back to Mikoto:

Mikoto decided to read the letter. There was no harm in it right? After reading it, she would just burn the paper using electricity or something like that. But unknown to her, she wouldn't be able to do it. not after what she read.

Mikoto,

Hey! I hope you're feeling better Mikoto. Wouldn't want you to be all quiet, because that would just be weird. First of all, I just wanted to apologize to you. I let you get kidnapped TWICE, I failed to protect you and I even punched you. I hope it didn't hurt… don't worry Mikoto, I swear, I won't let anything like this happen again. You will live the normal life you always had, and after I've achieved a world where no one has to suffer or be sad, I'll come join you. We'll live a normal life together, share a normal love together. That might have sounded cheesy and it's really embarrassing, but I don't care anymore. I'd shout that over and over again and get embarrassed in front of the whole world, if that would prevent me from losing you. You have no idea how I feel right now. You're right here next to me, but I can't do anything to help you. Do you realize how much sadness, grief and fear I have right now? I'm scared to lose you Mikoto…I almost died when you ignored me and just passed by me. It was excruciatingly painful. But you know, I'll endure it. I'll endure this pain over and over again. Because that's just how much I love you. So please don't leave me. Please remember everything about us. I hope that we can live our loves the way we both wanted it to be, together and happy. I love you Mikoto, no matter what you lose or forget, even if you turn into a psycho maniac, even if you electrocute me all the time, even if you hate me and forget about me, I will still love you. Never forget that, okay? There's no more reason to be scared. Because I'll always protect you from your fears. We'll overcome them together Mikoto, then we can happily fall in love.

Even if I'm gone, I'll always be watching over you, I'll be somewhere close, somewhere pretty and peaceful, so when you'll need me, I'll be there. Even though I'm not by your side, I'll always be in your heart to protect you, to make you happy, but most of all, to love you.

Oo=_=oO -Crying

That was what the letter said. Tears flowed out of her eyes, she had made her resolve. She ran out her room, tears flowing through the air. Nurses and doctors cleared her path as she came running up to the hospital rooftop, hoping that he was there. She literally blasted the door with her railgun.

"TOUMA!"

She shouted, eyes closed, hands to her heart. She didn't know whether he was there or not, if their love was true, her voice would reach him, no matter where he was.

"YOU MORON! I did all the things I did because I wanted to make you happy and safe! But you… you end up making me cry and feel bad about it! What now huh? I only wanted you to be happy! I only wanted what was best…for you…because I…because I… BECAUSE I LOVE YOU KAMIJOU TOUMA! I REALLY REALLY DO!"

She said crying harder and harder, falling to her knees. She kept on crying and crying until she felt arms wrap around her.

"You said it; you finally said it, Mikoto…"

"T-Touma?"

Mikoto said without looking back. Rain started pouring again, but to hell with that.

"You did it Mikoto, you FACED YOU FEARS…"

"I…I love you, you damn jerk. Don't leave me like that!"

"I could never leave you Mikoto, I've said this a couple of time already Mikoto, but I'll say it again, I love you."

He said, turning Mikoto to face him. He held up her face and looked at her, she just smiled. And that was it, the final signal for them to finally kiss. They stayed there being drenched by the rain for god knows how long. And after they parted, Touma hugged her and said,

"We'll get sick if we stay any longer Mikoto."

"Oh yeah. Could you go in first? I have something to do…"

"Well, if you say so…"

Touma said standing up and helped Mikoto stand up. Before he walked in, he turned and said,

"We'll be together Mikoto, forever."

Mikoto just smiled. When Touma closed the door, Mikoto fell to her knees, gripping her chest tightly as a sharp pain came to her heart,

"I'm sorry Touma…forever is just too impossible…"

She looked up to the dark grey sky, her tears mixing with the rain, trailing down her face,

"4 years huh? Just four more years to be with you…"

She said to herself, cursing her own misfortune.

-FACING YOUR FEARS-

-FIN-

Thank you for reading Facing Your Fears (part 1). I want to thank everyone who reviewed and followed this story. Special thanks to Namikaze Nara, allfictions, Mro Taz, Iariz, and everyone else who reviewed and sent me pm's. I'm sorry that I cant say all of your names, but please know that I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Because of you guys, my first ever story to be published was a success.

By the way, the name of this story's sequel is "Facing Your Fears: Loss" I still haven't published it yet though. But don't worry; I will continue this story of mine. Please look forward to the twists and the truth about Mikoto's last words.

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I seriously love you guys, really… Until the next time we meet! (Which wont be too long)

Facing Your Fears part one is finally done, now, on to the next one.

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Why the heck am I crying?