I thought that everything I'd done to this point was horrible but now the thing that I planed to do next would set a new meaning to the word. I know this isn't smart, maybe it would've been smarter if I'd kept going with another diary but I thought I'd turned a new leaf.

You have to realize that addiction is controlling. I never planed on doing this, but no one is home. There are pills in my parents bathroom.

As I walk up the stairs to go get the pills, I began to remember the last time I took something. I hadn't even known. Someone had put LSD in the cookies. I hadn't know, but I thought they had been for me.

I still went up the stairs. The pain of with drawl was too much to handle. It's been over a month. It has become so painful that in my sleep I wake up wanting more.

So as I finish writing this last letter. I hope everyone that thinks that just one time isn't such a bad idea then well don't think that. Not ever. It will be the thing u regret most in your whole life.

-Alice-

No longer answering questions.