A Lonely Reunion

Wandering through the grey and poor streets of Rukongai, the most miserable district of Soul Society, a tall man was looking for a wrecked and filthy inn, still a luxury for most of the people who lived here, most of them don't even have a ceiling. Walking staring at the ground he found himself in a dark alley precisely in front og the inn front doors...It was the first time he came here in a year and a half but his feet knew too well the way here...Staring at the door he inhaled deep just to expel the air from his lungs hard in trying to gain courage. This was it...he needed this.

Entering through the doors he was greeted with the inn owner...although he didn't come here for some time, he was a current costumer and they developed a fair relationship but not enough to be friends.

"Yo Renji... haven't seen you for a long time...how are things?" he asked patting him in the shoulder.

"Hey...I'm good.." he draw a weak smile and nodded, "Say...is that room free?...". The owner nodded in confusion...and Renji understood why..he never came here alone in the last years, there was always someone with him or already waiting for him in the room...naked..open window..silver hair glowing with the moonlight...Renji was pulled from his thoughts by the other voice..

"Do you want sake?..." he was staring to him wide eyes just like he was crazy...and the lieutenant probably was. "Yes..two bottles..and two bowls.." the owner looked at him confused for the second time but he didn't ask anything.

Grabbing the bottles and the bowls and thanking the man, Renji walked his way to the last room in the corridor, he opened the door for the first time in some time and he still could hear it, he stood in the midle..still...remembering the moments he and his lover had here...he could hear it...the moans when they make love...the fights and the cries when they got possessive over each other and the angry sex they indulged after...the laughs..the promises..he could smell..the scent of persimmons mixed with sake..he inhaled closing his eyes and an image of his precious person flooded his mind...tall..lean..cyan blue eyes and silver bangs..and that smile..others saw malice, Renji saw love. He woke up from his thoughts to shut the door.

He got close to the window and opened it...feeling the breeze caressing his bronzed skin, then he sat and placed the two bottles in front of him...he filled both bowls and he took a sip from one and smiled feeling a tear rolling down his face..remembering the first time they met here.

In a room of a filthy inn two bodies covered in sweat were fighting for dominance on game of pleasure...moans and swearing..screams of lust filled the air. Renji and someone he met that same night, he didn't even knew his name, were looking for a good time and they were not alone, apparently in the room right beside his, someone was doing the same..and they were even louder..well it only added more thrill. After he was satisfied the redhead dressed himself and was ready to leave and noticed that the ruckus on the other room had stopped, he found that amusing..they were finished in the same time..this walls were pretty thin, one could hear everything.

Closing the door behind him..he started to leave but was stopped by a familiar voice..

"Yare...yare...Abarai-kun..ya have ta be more cautious.." a mocking..dangerously smoothing voice came from behind him, he turned around eyes wide open only to see the captain of the third division, Ichimaru Gin, leaning on the wall with that creepy smile plastered in his face.

"Ichimaru-taichou..." and he bowed slightly...

Gin smiled widely removing himself from the wall and getting closer to the redhead.

"Ya were havin' a pleasurable time..didn' ya?" he was too much close for Renji taste but a thought popped in his mind..it was him...it was him and other man beside his room..so the moans he heard and that add more thrill for that random encounter was his...He looked at Gin directly..

"With all respect...you weren't exactly silent..." he said grinning. "...but thanks..it was freaking amusing..." and he stopped before he said something he could regret..Renji was out of his mind to talk to a superior like that but sometimes he just couldn't shut up...it was his spontaneity fault.

He was asking for some punishment, but that didn't come, instead they were standing in front of each other, closer enough to feel their breaths, looking deep into the eyes of the other, for Renji surprise Gin had his slightly open and he could see the amazing blue..he never had seen that colour...it was enticing. Coming from nowhere..moving their bodies simultaneously they smashed their lips for a hungry kiss, grabbing each other roughly, they were already trying to rip their robes off when they noticed they were in the middle of the corridor, with no delay and without breaking contact, kissing and moaning through the walls they entered in the last room...closing the door for the first night of their life together not guessing this wouldn't be the only one.

After that night..came much more others, they were addicted to each other...the more they did, the more they wanted...two completely different and yet so similar souls..each one of them with a goal that they valued more than their own life.

When they had their first fight it was aggressive..they fought with words..they fought physically and then came the angry sex..it was inevitable..they couldn't keep off of themselves..it was almost like a drug..and they started to be possessive. After some time they thought it was better to make a promise sealed by blood...no matter what, they would fight for their own goals not involving their relationship. And they kept it until the end.

Renji was crying and smiling at the same time. Remembering his lover always got him with mixed feelings...he thought he could never enter here again and now here he was ready to say goodbye.

"We are both fools aren't we?...Now I understand what you were trying to do...I'm sorry...I'm so..." he started to cry with a loud sob. "I hated you...I'm so sorry...forgive me..." and he embraced his legs looking through the window...tears rolling down abundantly from his eyes with no way to be held. He cried as he watched the sun hide behind the trees.

When the sobs stopped and he could talk..he continued but the tears were continuously dropping..he sat more straight and grabbed his bowl pouring more sake.

"You know Kira is fine...and strong. Rose came back so don't worry he won't let nothing happen to your fukutaichou, he treats him really good..I know you would make him do your papperwork..you lazy snake, but I know you always cared for him..." he smiled still crying, "oh..and Rangiku-san is freaking hot as ever..she cut her hair...she stills make Hitsugaya-taichou mad...you know how she is..." he stopped and took a sip placing his other hand in is own red locks." ..I let it grow...as you asked...I hope you like it.." more cries...more sorrow.

"I'm sorry...I couldn't be there..I was so angry when they told me..it was so painful..I can't describe what I felt in words...no one knew about us..so I had to suffer in silence..every night I cried..one I tried to slit my throat with my bare hands and then I remembered your face..and I realize how ridiculous I was being...I made a promise with you..I will keep it until I die...I'm sorry for being so weak..." this was actually making Renji feel good...he should've done this sooner...he was letting it all go...

"I love you...I freaking love you more than anything in this world " he said between sobs.

"I'll keep you alive inside my heart...your bravery will never be forgotten...I am so proud of you...you are so strong..how could you love a dog like me...thanks...I want to thank you because you show me what love is, because you show me how much a man can endure to keep track of his goal...you kept all to yourself..you build walls for no one and nothing could come close to you...in the end you didn't want to hurt someone...you just wanted to carry on and fulfil the promise you made to yourself..and you always suffered alone...from the bottom of my heart...I'm glad you let myself see the true character behind the mask...and I regret nothing...I'll love you forever..." and he trailed off...letting go some more sobs.

"I'll keep fighting to reach my goal with the strength you showed me ...I will not disappoint you.." he grabbed the skin close to his heart clenching his fingers in it...frowning trying to stop his sobs...he staid there for hours...with thoughts painted of silver and blue. When he finished his sake, he got up and closed the window, he got to the door opening it and looked behind to place the ware was...one bottle and a bowl were still full of saké.

Renji let out a sad chuckle "foxy bastard..." he whispered and he got away from there closing the door behind him.