051. Fireflies.
When they are about 18, she has this ridiculous idea that you can use fireflies as reading light when you keep them in a jar. Freddie says they'll die, but catches them for her anyway - and cries when they appear to have suffocated.
052. Pills.
Freddie never tried taking his own life because she's always been there, but when Hector appears he eyes his pills just a little to often.
053. Endless night.
There are no endless nights, not even the one she sleeps with her head in his lap because she fell into slumber while arguing with him.
054. Crawl.
In his drunken state, he just manages to crawl up the stairs towards her apartment, but has to sleep outside because she doesn't hear the bell ring over the sound of Hector's voice.
055. Invisible.
Bel tells him he whines when he tells her she behaves as though he is invisible, and doesn't apologize when she passes him to run to the anchorman.
056. Wealth.
Ruth knew wealth in money, but Freddie taught her brotherly affection can create something that endures much longer - and so she tries to think of him while they kill her.
057. Power.
Freddie hates power because it were men with power that were responsible for his mother's death. He hates it so much he doesn't understand there is a good sort of power, too.
058. Desolate.
Freddie is a desolate man in a crowded society, and she doesn't understand how everyone always seems to keep a distance from him.
059. Tissues.
When her first real boyfriend breaks up with her, he brings her tissues and cake. Chocolate cake. She realizes only the next morning Freddie hates chocolate, but knows she loves it.
060. Varnish.
He says he only paints when the walls need a new colour, but sometimes his clothes smell like varnish and he has little spots of paint between his fingers (all while his room remains the same dull brown).
061. Careful.
One time, he breaks his leg when they are out in the field, and she is so careful in handling him he thinks he might break something once more.
062. Dirty.
One time, he turns up at her home in triumph, covered in mud and filth. He has never been so dirty, but happy ever before - and he only tells it's because he managed to save his rosebush from the passing storm when she has put him in bath and scrubbed him clean.
063. Circus.
He doesn't take her to the circus because he doesn't like that. Later, he thinks God punishes him for being selfish because her next boyfriend does.
064. Engagement.
He ponders for a long while whether to tell her of his engagement to Camille, but he does not because he is sure it will make him doubt.
065. Jail.
One time, they lock him up for pestering an officer and Bel only hears someone has to bail him out days later, because his father forgot him.
066. Barren.
Months after the day his shirt stopped being flawlessly white, she visits his rosebush and finds it barren. It feels like she has let his love gone to waste, too.
067. Lipstick.
He knows it is Bel's lipstick behind Hector's ear because it's the colour he told her not to wear.
068. Shirt.
When he has left for America, he knows he did so because he was angry with her. She cries in the shirt he left, and smudges it with her make up on purpose so he won't ask it back.
069. Shortbread.
Freddie loves shortbread but hates chocolate. She knows that is because his mother made shortbread for him when he was a kid and he never appreciated it before she died.
070. Groceries.
He loves cooking but he always forgets which groceries he has in store. One night, Bel finds a chocolate bar and a recipe for bonbons with her name scribbled in the corner.