I wanted to write something that wasn't so happy-go-lucky Jori. I always see these fics where Jade and Tori confess their love and live happily ever after. But I don't really think that's how things would go.

It started out as sex. It was sometimes dirty and filled with painfully sinful ecstasy. It was hidden closets and dark rooms after midnight. That was until she said those three words. Jade West said 'I love you' first. She was tracing a bleeding bite mark on Tori's thigh when she said it. She wrote the words in blood on the girl's tan skin. She kissed every letter. Tori was ecstatic. She smiled and agreed to the words. She loved her too.

This was the beginning of a nightmare. They were nineteen when they moved into an apartment together. Happy hopes and whispered promises were etched into the walls and ceilings. Jade started to get possessive.

"Where are you?"

"Who are you with?"

"Did you sleep with her? With him? With them?"

Question after question was screamed at Tori as soon as she walked through the door at the end of the day. Tori didn't care. This was Jade. Jade loved her. She loved Jade and that was all that mattered. Tori was so sickeningly nice that she always justified Jade's actions.

She took the strict schedule Jade gave her without remark. Jade wanted to keep her safe. That's what she told herself, and anyone who gave her a piteous look. Not that she had the opportunity to talk to many people besides her family and Cat and Andre. They were they only people on her safe list.

Jade really did love Tori. She thought Tori was too innocent. Anyone could take advantage of her. She needed to put down rules to keep her safe. She wasn't jealous. She was afraid. Someone might steal Tori away from her.

Sometimes Tori cried herself to sleep at night and Jade curled her fingers around the girl's wrists to keep her from running away. Sometimes Tori whispered in her sleep the things she couldn't tell Jade in the day. She didn't like the rules, or the schedule, or the blacklisted friends. She felt like a caged animal.

Jade was terrified. Tori didn't like her life with Jade. Tori was unhappy with Jade. No. Tori was going to leave. She couldn't let that happen. She got out of bed that night and locked the bedroom door before leaving the apartment.

"She's going to leave me." Jade clutched onto Beck's tee shirt with such ferocity he thought it was going to rip.

"Good." He replied peeling her fingers off of the fabric. "You're no good for her Jade." He told her. She crumpled into a heap on the floor of his apartment.

"I know." She sobbed. "But she can't leave me." She met his eyes. "I love her." He shook his head from side to side sadly.

"That doesn't mean you have the right to control her." He sighed and slid down beside her. "Jade, you are so dangerous when you say 'I love you'. Those three words constitute a ten page contract for you." He wrapped an arm around her back. "When she said it back she signed her life away. But you never let her read it." Jade stretched out so her face was in the carpet.

"I don't want her to leave." Her voice was muffled through the material.

"Then stop controlling her life and trust her. Let her talk to friends and come and go as she pleases." He stands up.

"Tell her you love her not expecting to hear it back." He advised as he pulled her up.

"What if I can't?"

"Then you'd better say goodbye."