The Things I Won't Admit

Chapter One: The Simple Misunderstanding That Started It All

It was another day at Cross Academy. The Day Class had just started their break time. The students of Class 1A were sitting in a big group, talking cheerfully. Zero Kiryuu sat away from the rest of the class, staring off into space. Bits of conversation made their way to his ears.

"So, Cross-san, who was your first kiss?" A Day Class girl asked the brunette prefect.

"Oh...um, well, it was in middle school..." Her voice trailed off.

"Come on, who was it?"

"It was just some guy. He asked me to a dance and we kissed there. That's all." Yuuki blushed slightly at the memory.

"What about you Wakaba?" The Day Class girl questioned. "Everyone's gotta tell their story!"

"Oh, it was last year. There was a boy I was dating but we broke up at the end of the year. We kissed a couple times." The quiet, serious girl said.

"These stories are all kind of boring!" The girl said. Others quickly agreed. "Anyways, who hasn't told their 'first kiss' story?"

"Kiryuu-kun hasn't." The boys' dorm president, Takeshi Nagaoshi, remarked.

The class sent timid glances over to the silverette. No one had enough courage to even ask. Well, except Yuuki who walked bravely over to her adopted brother and pulled him from his seat by the arm. The two walked back towards the group, Zero glaring quite scarily.

"So, Kiryuu, what was your first kiss like?" Takeshi asked. Zero tried to avoid the staring eyes of his classmates by looking out the window.

"I wouldn't know. I've never kissed anyone." The prefect said before turning around and walking out of the room.

The whole class was silent for a long moment, shocked by this new information.

"So, Kiryuu hasn't kissed anyone?"

"Wow, I would have never guessed!"

"It's okay for a girl to not have kissed anyone but for a guy it's just strange."

The whole class was buzzing with excitement now. They all turned to Yuuki to ask her questions since she knew Zero best.

"Well, he's always been kind of antisocial so he didn't really have any friends in middle school and I heard he was home schooled before coming to live with the Headmaster and me. I don't think he's ever had a girlfriend. I'm pretty sure he's not really interested in that sort of thing anyway." The clumsy prefect tried to choose her words carefully so that she could get the facts out properly and avoid offending Zero.

"Not interested in having a girlfriend?"

"That's a bit strange isn't it?"

"Wait, you don't think Kiryuu's gay or something?! I mean not having ever had a girlfriend or at least having had kissed a girl. And Cross says he's not interested in that sort of thing."

Yuuki was at a loss for words. She meant he wasn't interested in dating not that he wasn't interested in girls! She searched in her head for something to fix the situation but it was too late. Her classmates were now clinging to the idea that Zero Kiryuu preferred men. Although, the more she thought about it, the more it seemed very likely. She had noticed that even though he would admit that a girl or woman was attractive, he didn't say anything beyond that like a normal teenage boy would. She had always ignored it before but maybe it was because he just simply wasn't attracted to girls. Because anyone can recognize someone as attractive without actually being attracted to them.

"Yuuki, don't tell me you're starting to believe that Zero-kun is gay too." Her best friend, Yori, snapped her from her thoughts.

"Of course not, Yori-chan!" The blonde gave her a look. "Okay, maybe a little."

By lunchtime, the whole school was talking about the possibility of Zero being gay. Everywhere he went people kept staring at him. He ignored it of course; the rumors were definitely not true anyway. He sat down at a table in the outside cafeteria with his tray of food. (Yuuki had told him that he should start eating lunch) The young brunette came over to him with her friend by her side. They silently sat down and began eating their own lunches.

"Yuuki." The prefect paused in her eating. "You had something to do with this, didn't you?"

"O-of course not!" Yuuki replied, louder than she needed to. "I don't know what you're even talking about!"

"Wakaba?" He sent a glance over to the silent girl.

"She said that you've never had a girlfriend because you're not interested in that sort of thing."

Yuuki stood up abruptly and quickly ran off, making excuses about the Headmaster wanting to talk to her after she ate. Zero sighed.

"That idiot, always doing things like this." He thought to himself. How was he going to clear this mess up? The bell rang, signaling it was time for afternoon classes. Zero got up and threw his uneaten lunch in the trash. Maybe if he just ignored it, it would go away. He walked into the slowly filling up classroom and sat in his usual seat behind Yuuki and Yori. Yagari walked in and sent him a questioning look. Zero looked down at his desk avoiding his teacher's eye. Maybe he should just skip class. No, that would probably only increase the rumors. He could hear them now... You know why Kiryuu skips class all the time? Because he has a secret lover and that's the only time they can rendezvous privately! Or maybe something like: Kiryuu's always absent! I bet he skips so he can go meet up in town with some guy! Maybe he's some kind of male prostitute and sleeps around! Zero shook his head. He let out another sigh and lay his head in his arms, deciding to take a nap. Would this day ever end?

It was time for the class change-over when Zero woke up. The Day Class girls were excitedly heading over to the Moon Dorm. He sat up groggily and put on his Disciplinary Committee armband. He stood up and made his way out the classroom. Students were in groups in the halls. Typical after school chatting. As he passed they stopped talking and looked at him. Damn. Were they still going on about him being gay?! If they really wanted to know his sexual orientation, they could just ask him! He would tell ensure them that he was definitely heterosexual. He walked quickly to the Moon Dorm entrance and began his duties. He yelled at the fangirls to stay back.

"Why the hell can't they just listen? It's not very hard. Dammit they're looking at me again. I'm not gay, idiots!" Zero sent glares their way. "God, stupid Yuuki, starting all this!"

The gates of the dorm opened and the girls began screaming louder. Aidou did his usual flamboyant show and the girls went crazy. Through all this, though, the Night Class students sent him weird looks. He could swear that Aidou was hiding an amused smirk! Wait, they couldn't have heard the rumors, could they? After all, they were a long way from the school. Unless, they heard the Day Class girls talking here or they came to the school building during the day. Zero sincerely hoped they hadn't heard that stupid rumor. Not that he cared what a bunch of vampires thought of him. He just didn't want anyone thinking something about him that wasn't true. An annoying presence appeared behind him and a light breath blew on his ear.

"Hello, Kiryuu-kun. I heard the most amusing rumor today." A voice whispered in his ear. "I believe it had something to do with you and, ah, what was it? Oh yes, you're sexual preference. I didn't know you swung that way."

An amused chuckle rang through his ear and he was pissed. He was NOT gay! Nor would he be ever! Why couldn't they just understand that? Oh, that's right; he hadn't actually denied any of the rumors. Well, he would now.

"I'm not gay, you bastard!" He swung around to face Kaname. "I'm perfectly straight, thank you!" And with that, he turned to stalk off into the forest but was stopped by an arm snaking around his waist.

"Oh, really? But what if I were to do something like this?"

A hand grabbed his chin and turned it roughly to the side. A pair of lips pressed against his. Kuran was kissing him. KISSING HIM! And in front of almost the entire school! Zero felt himself blush and shoved the pureblood away. He wiped his lips off and glared. That bastard had stolen his first kiss!

"Ah, what's wrong, Kiryuu-kun?" The brunette smirked.

"Y-you..!" Zero couldn't speak properly. His blush deepened as he noticed he had everyone's undivided attention. Well, if they hadn't thought he was gay before, they certainly thought it now. Here he stood, blushing like crazy, after getting kissed suddenly by a guy!

Zero turned around and dashed off into the woods. No way in hell he was going to continue standing there, looking like an idiot. He heard the girls behind him start to talk excitedly. Did they want him to be gay? Maybe he shouldn't have run off. He should have stood his ground and...and what? What could he have done to deny the rumor then? Embarrassment swelled up inside him. That stupid blood sucker had kissed him. And for a second he hadn't really minded it. In fact, he had sort of, dare he say it, enjoyed it. No. There was no way he was going to admit he liked that kiss. That he really wouldn't refuse doing it again.

Zero reached the barn. He went inside and sat in the hay next to White Lily. His thoughts kept swirling and his heart was beating swiftly in his chest. In his mind, the kiss Kaname gave him kept replaying over and over. He fell onto his side and shut his eyes. Damn bastard.

"Hello, Kiryuu-kun." A familiar voice interrupted his thoughts.

"What the hell do you want, you bastard?" Zero growled.

Kaname strode towards him and knelt down beside him. Zero glared at him menacingly. Kaname stared at him for a moment then said three words that made Zero's stomach drop.

"Be my lover."

Be my lover. Those three words kept ringing in his mind. He stared at the pureblood in front of him, not able to comprehend completely what the man had said to him. Had the vampire gone completely crazy?

"W-what?!" He managed to gasp out.

"Exactly what I said. Be. My. Lover. It's really not that hard to understand." Kaname stated simply.

"Why the hell would I be your lover?! I thought I already told you and everyone else! I'M NOT GAY. Therefore, I do not wish to be the lover of a guy!" Zero began to rant.

Kaname, getting tired of Zero's yelling, leaned forward and kissed him...again. Zero blushed deeply before pulling away. He turned his head and glared at the grass.

"Well, you haven't answered me yet."

"I'm not interested in men. I thought that was a clear enough answer."

"Ah, no. I'm afraid not." Kaname smiled at the ex-human and pulled him into a tight embrace. Zero, caught off guard, didn't try to fight him. The silverette's heart raced at the contact. He was filled with conflicting emotions. Somehow, he knew this bastard wasn't going to leave him alone if he didn't comply with the request.

"F-Fine, I'll be your lover." He sighed in defeat. "But I refuse to love you."

"Really now? Are you sure you'll be able to resist?"

"Resist what?"

"Falling in love with me."

Zero pushed the pureblood away and glared at him.

"I'm sure it'll be no problem."

Zero couldn't believe it. Had he really just agreed to be a vampire's lover? He sincerely hoped this was just some big joke.