Hi there... All darling reviewers, readers and followers... Thank you for all the wonderful messages and PM's and reviews.. I appreciate each and every one of it.. Finally... This story has come to the end and this is the final chapter for Fifty Shades of Dejavu. I hope everyone has enjoyed this story with me and this has been a personal journey as well.. AS I mentioned, this is based on a true story of a family member. Thank you so much for the support...
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'Anastasia….' Christian greets with a huge smile on his face and looking crispy and handsome as usual…
'Christian…' I reply with surprise. I walk up to him and his smile grew wider…
'What on earth are you doing here?' I ask surprised but happy. I texted Christian before boarding yesterday and today he is here… yeah.. He has a jet and he can drop everything and fly anywhere he wants…
'To see you…' he replies and continues softly…'I missed you… I have to see you… '
'I missed you too..' I reply shyly. We got into the car and drive off to where I don't know…
'Where are we going Christian?'
'We must talk…' he says looking straight into my eyes… I know we have to talk but so soon? I ask myself.
'Where are we going to talk?' I ask him… equal stare and his gaze softened.
'We are going to drop your luggage at your place and going for supper…'
'Or…. We can stay at my place and talk…'
'I have arranged for supper at the hotel I am staying… and we are going there.' He says all business like.
'Christian… thanks for deciding but may I seek your permission to freshen up?' I asked sarcastically
'Anastasia… is that sarcasm I hear in your voice?' he asks but amusement is dancing in his voice..
'Yes…' I replied but he just smirked at me. I throw my glance out of the window into the darkness which is occasionally lit up by the street lights.
I see that we are pulling up at my apartment and Christian hasn't stopped smirking. Before I could open the door, Christian jumps out from his side, and rushed to my door and opened it. He gets the trunk and takes out my luggage and holds my hand.
'Come..' he says…
'It is my home… so.. come…' I say and lead the way. He has decided what I should do… I will show him that I don't do what I don't want to do. I open the door and lead the way while he follows me into the house.
'Give me ten minutes… I will just take a quick shower and make yourself home…' I say and turn away. But just as I turn away.. Christian tugs my hand and turns me around. He crushes his lips against my lips hard and needy… his hands holding me tight against his hard body around my waist. He has trapped my arms at my side and he is so strong… a small bite on my lower lips actually make me melt against his hard body. One arm circling my waist and another holding my head against his lips… He smells woody and heavenly…
'That is… ' I say breathlessly… unable to continue my sentence.
'Amazing… you lips is soft… and amazing' Christian says smiling…
'Christian…'
'Ana… quick.. Shower… I really have to talk to you…' he says and his face expresses different emotions – worried, excited, uncertainty.
'Only if you let me go… ' I say smirking at him and he laughs… Another kiss on my forehead he releases me and I walk to my room to shower… I put on my black jeans and beige frilled sleeveless blouse. A little blush and gloss, I am ready to go. When I opened the door and appear in the living room, Christian is going through one of my notes from training. I clear my throat and Christian face fills with happy smile.
'You are so beautiful…'
'So do you… you are always crisply handsome!' I replied.
'Ready?'
'Yes… but where are we going?'
'Trust me?' he asks softly looking straight into my eyes… his gray eyes are so needy, wanting, pure… asking.
'Yes..' I reply nodding. He leads the way to his car and once seated in the car, my stomach is in knots… Where is he taking me at the middle of the night? He gets into the car and starts driving. During the quiet drive, I decided to call my sister to inform her that I am back safely. I pull out my phone and Christian was quick to glance in my direction.
'I need to call my sister…' I say simply without any emotion display and call her number. Christian's hand loosens the grip of the gear.. What is his problem? Why is he edgy?
'Ven?'
'Hey… you have arrived?'
'Yes… How are mom and dad?' I am still worried about them… my mother has the tendency to break down even after an issue is solved.
'Mom is fine.. We are leaving Singapore tomorrow evening.'
'Alright…'
'Ann… follow your heart…' she says softly. I quickly throw my glance to Christian and I know I am following my heart… I decided to reply Ven and make sure Christian knows it.
'Venn… I am following my heart… Talk to you later… bye.'
'Bye dear.' Ven says and I end the call and put my phone back into my clutch.
'Following your heart Ms Steele?' Christian ask but his voice is more relaxed.. His whole body has relaxed.
'Yes Mr Grey…' I replied.
'We are here..' he says and exits the car and quickly came around to open my door. He helps me out of the car and tosses his key to the valet and leads me inside into a private dining area. After taking our seats, Christian signals the waitress to bring our meal.
'I believe your lawyer has advised you on the outcome of my ummm annulment?' I ask him.
'Yes… how are you feeling?' he asks with concern.
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Flashback of conversation between Ana and Christian while Ana is still in Singapore
'Christian… Everything is fine now… Karthi's family has accepted him but only his grandmother has not come to terms on what happened… My parents have accepted my decision. Just that my mother is still upset..' I called Christian after I manage to slip away from my family after dinner.
'Anastasia.. You worry about everyone except you.' He says with concern..
'Christian… how are you?' I ask him... Only I know how much I miss him... He has been occupying my dreams - day and night... I just want Christian to hold my and I will feel a zillion times better... His touch brings life to my body... And he actually touches my soul...
'I miss you terribly' he says with a whisper but I can hear his sincerity… 'When are you coming back?' He continues..
'I am leaving tomorrow early morning… I should be in San Francisco tomorrow late evening.'
'Anastasia…'
'Christian… I miss you a lot… I ..' I just can't say that I love him… I have to see him..
'I will see you baby… ' he says softly… I can just melt hearing his voice.
'Anastasia… take care of yourself..'
'I am fine Christian…' I reply… I remember my conversation and he has told me a few times that I don't care of myself…
'Anastasia… ' he says my name and clears his throat. After a short silence, 'Anastasia… I want you… I need you.'
Huh… my fork is midair with salad and my mouth is slightly open…
'Ch..'
'Anastasia… I think I am in love with you… I need you… These two weeks has been a living hell for me. I was on my toes until you return… I was just restless…'
Anastasia's lawyer has updated me that the annulment is through and she is free as a bird… now I can make her mine… only mine…
I have converted the playroom into Anastasia's room… her study.. I have decorated the room in blue with her posters decorating the walls… The room is my escape.. Hell yes it was an escape for me while it was a playroom for my weekend activities but now… it is a place where I can actually relax in this room just looking at her posters.. Her eyes are lovely… her smile is mesmerizing. I will try to persuade her to live with me… I know she won't, she loves a job a lot… A man can dream and try…
After her phone call, I am just in cloud nine… Anastasia is returning and I am going to ask her to be my girlfriend… I realize I love her and she is the only one I want. I have told her about my BDSM habit but now I am clean… I am out of the habit and it is all because of Ana… my Ana…
I want to show her the world… show her love… love that she never had …
That moment, when I saw her on that plane eight months ago… I know she is the face that has been haunting me since I was a teenager. She was the reason behind my sub characteristic – brunet long wavy hair, milky skin, pointed face… but I never found the face… the person that I want. I felt like I hit the jackpot when I saw her… I chased her and when she denied her feelings and pushed me away, I was crushed. I drink away on her wedding day… I fired twelve people during her honeymoon… not that she is the cause of it but I was too angry… way too angry to tolerate any incompetency.
Her musical voice made my day when she told me she is returning to San Francisco and I hop on my jet just to meet her… I arrange for a dinner just to ask her to be my girlfriend… be mine.. Only mine.
'Christian… I realize that I am in love with you too… I couldn't help but to think of you.. You filled my mind day and night.
'Are you sure this is what you want? I don't want to push you… but I..'
'Christian .. I know what I want. I want my life and I want you in it. And I am sure of it… I know this is what I want. I have given a long thought about it.. Throughout the flight.'
Christian reaches my hand and holds hid as if his life hangs on it.
'Anastasia… I waited for you for eight long months… I got drunk on your wedding night.. I thought I had lost you.'
'But..' I wanted to ask him so many questions but he hushes me.
'Let me speak Ana…' I nod at him… and he is still holding my hand.
'Ana… when I first saw you, I felt I knew you for my entire life… as you know, the type of relationship I was in before..' I nod at him… I know he is involved in BDSM but to what extent? Is he still with them? Was he involved emotionally? I don't know,
'Anastasia… I can read your face. I know what is going on in your mind… No Ana… I was not involved emotionally with any one of my subs… it was a pure business arrangement.' I opened my mouth to ask a question that is bothering me but he places his index finger on my lips…
'I am in a clean bill of health.. I can assure you that.' I nod at him… trusting him. His eyes show that he speaks the truth… I can see the honesty in him through his gray eyes… which I have never seen in Karthi…
'Anastasia… after I saw you on that flight the first time, I had a sub, Merci. I tried to forget you but was not successful. I saw you in Merci… but it was not enough… I wanted you. I ended the contract… I started following you.' He stops and took a long sip of his wine.
'Anastasia… after ending the contract, I destroyed the playroom. I redecorated the room – for you.' He smiles feeling that he has accomplished a big thing.
'That is very thoughtful Christian but I need to know something…' Now I am worried… he wants me.. Alright… but as a what? Sub? Hell no!
'Anastasia… I don't want you as my sub. I want you…as a special person in my life…. My girlfriend..' he says with a spark in his eyes and a big wide smile.
'Christian… I… I… '
'Anastasia… I love you…' and he kisses my knuckles… he rises from his seat. I followed him and got on my feet.
I look into his beautiful eyes and I know what I want…
'Christian… I love you too….' I said and I know I mean it and I know Christian means every word and for the first time, I know I am being loved….
END OF PART ONE - STAY TUNE FOR THE SECOND PART OF ANA AND CHRISTIAN'S LIFE IN THE SEQUEL...