this is the 4th story in my series, reading the other 3 first is a must, to understand what has gone on. this particular story contains verysensitive material, and i would not recommend it to readers under 16. it also includes very bad language and lots of sexual reference.

as always make a mental note of who is telling the story at the start of each chapter or things will get confusing.

the story is based very loosly on big time rush. some names, places, times, dates have been changed to fit in with the running of things. sheriden lloyd, paisley prince, mackenzie davies and savannah davies are all fictional characters that i have invented, they are not based on any real life people! follow me on twitter sheridenlloyd for updates

paisleys story
"oh God, kendall look at me, I'm never gonna get back in my jeans... Ever" I moaned.

I stood in front of the mirror in our room just wearing my underwear and rubbing a hand over my massive pregnant belly.

"course you will pais, you only have a few weeks left then you will get back to normal" kendall said sleepily from his position in the bed.

"I better or I'm having surgery" I said inspecting yet another stretch mark that had appeared on me.

Kendall got out of bed and walked over to me "stop moaning pais" he said gently, tilting my chin upwards and kissing me on the lips.

"can't you say your sick today?" I asked giving him my best puppy dog eyes.

"no, I like doing these shows anyway they are funny... Come with me, Sheriden is going" he replied.

Kendall was off to film 'figure it out' which I knew he did enjoy, but I just wanted nothing more than to sit on the sofa and snuggle in to him.

"I don't think I have the energy... Besides all your stupid fans will rip in to me again... " I sighed.

ever since kendall had announced on TV that I was expecting his baby it was chaos for me.

The boys appeared on the Ellen Degeneres chat show promoting there last single.

When asked what the future held for the boys kendall decided to tell all about the pregnancy. Naturally it caused a huge stir and I was inundated with hate from all the btr fans.

they had labelled me as a rusher hater, saying I had trapped kendall. Doing it for publicity and getting my claws in to his money.

The worst ones were the little bitches that said I had ruined his life.

"well find the energy... Cmon pais... its not long now and you will be wishing the baby was back in there so you can get some peace and quiet" he said smiling.

"okay, but only if Sheriden is going, I'm not hanging around on my own waiting for you" I said in my stroppy voice.

kendall smiled "did you look at those names I wrote down?" He asked.

Baby names had become a slight issue with us. We couldn't agree on anything

"yeah I did... I'm not too sure on the weird ones kendall" I admitted to him.

"weird? They're not weird, just different pais... Better than Bruno" he laughed and rubbed my tummy.

Bruno was what I called the bump, it was better than 'it' but although Bruno was a boys name we had no idea of the sex of our baby.

We had no desire to and wanted to keep it a surprise for the end.

"leave Bruno alone... Are you going up with James today then?"

"yeah Logan is on today too, I don't know if Mackenzie will be there though" he said.

"oh if Logans going I will go, I've not seen him for ages. I spoke to kenz yesterday she is flat out at the salon so I know she won't be going on day trips out to watch you bunch get slimed"

"okay cool, I'm gonna grab a shower you get back in to bed for a bit and I'll wake you when its time to get ready baby" kendall said walking me back over to our bed.

I yawned at him in response, I hadn't been sleeping well and was waking up at the crack of dawn everyday.

I smiled at him and lay down in my sideways position.

I moved in to the town house with kendall after I had my first bleed during the pregnancy. I had had 8 in total, all resulting with trips to doctors or hospitals, nothing wrong had happened but after one scan at 20 weeks I was told my placenta was laying across my cervix, I've been having regular scans to see if it has moved up, if it doesn't I will have to have a Caesarian section as Brunos escape route will be blocked.

my last scan at 34 weeks showed that it had moved slightly so the docs reassured me that its looking hopeful that I should have a natural birth. I had another one booked in for two days which will be the final one at 38 weeks. So hopefully it will tell me that everything is running as it should be.

I dozed in and out of sleep. Kendall woke me up with breakfast, I then got washed and dressed and we drove down to bel air to travel down with James and Sheriden to the studio in which 'figure it out' was filmed.

Over the last few months Sheriden and I had become really really good friends.

she was due to marry James in 4 weeks time.

I enjoyed her company. She was really funny and had stuck up for me so much with all these hate campaigns against me. She was also labelled as a rusher hater, but for Sheriden it rang true. She had had her fair share of run ins with crazy fans and just doesn't bother to curb her mouth anymore.

She rejoined twitter and has fun tweeting fun facts about what her and James had been up to that will no doubt annoy the hell out of delusional hard core James fans that think one day he will be theirs.

She also pissed of the Carlos fans by appearing in some of his and his brothers youtube videos.

Sheriden had her own show on TV at the moment. It was a Saturday night favourite and was in to the semi finals of who was going to win the modelling contracts, there were six up for grabs, fashion, editorial, character, glamour, commercial and photographic.

It was a good spin on the usual modelling shows as no one knew who was going to get voted in to which category at the end. The controversial part of sheridens show was of course the promotion of glamour modelling.

Sheriden held no shame and did a very artsy magazine shoot with her boobs out on display to show what ever her models would do she would also gladly do to support them.

James was proud of her, he was besotted with Sheriden. It broke my heart to know they would never have children together.

The four of us would spend a lot of time together hanging out. I loved it as it resembled what I thought a family should be like and I loved sharing my pregnancy with Sheriden and James.
They both made a fuss over me. It sometimes got a bit too much but I let them get on with it.

"Sheriden please hurry up, we are gonna be late" James called out as he opened the door to let kendall and I in

"hey bro, wassup" kendall said to James as we walked in to the amazing entrance of the bel air mansion

James gave me a kiss on the cheek and gave my belly a rub "hey guys... Sheriden is taking ages to get her ass in gear. I swear she does it on purpose" he chuckled as we walked in to the large kitchen.

I sat on a chair at the kitchen table. Sheriden came down after a few minutes.

"hey pais... You look warm, all okay?" She said as she got a glass of water and passed it to me.

"I am a little hot, this LA heat is a killer" I said blowing a piece of hair from my face.

"well I hope your still taking it easy pais... I didn't think you were coming today?" She asked.

"she wants to see her heart throb logie bear" kendall butted in smiling.

I smiled back. It was true I currently had a funny crush on Logan after having some odd dreams about him, but I put it down to hormones.

"I think Logan is awesome, I always have, just because he invades my dreams at night kendall is not my fault" I blushed.

"oh pais... Logan isn't filming today. He called James at stupid o'clock this morning to say he wouldn't make it. Mackenzie had a bad one last night and she was admitted to hospital... She is fine but he won't leave her" Sheriden said.

"really? Her asthma is bad lately, that's the third attack she has had this month" I replied.

"its the heat" James said "she isn't used to the temps here compared to Portland, I dunno what Logans going to do when they figure that out" he added.

I slouched in my seat, I wish I had stayed at home, despite my child like crush I had on Logan I regarded him as one of my best friends, and was really looking forward to catching up with him.

"he will follow her where ever she goes, he is so smitten its sickening" kendall carried on from James conversation.

"its not sickening its adorable" Sheriden said.

"you only find it adorable because you have your own little sick puppy right here" kendall said giving James a pretend slap round the face.

"pais are you okay?" James said noticing me wiping tears away.

Damn these hormones I would cry at anything these days it was ridiculous.

"I'm fine I just really wanted to see Logan today, it was the only reason I came out" I blubbed.

"paisley cmon" kendall said as he pulled the chair out next to me and gave me a reassuring hug as he sat down

"God I just want this baby out, I'm so fed up" I sobbed in to his shoulder.

Kendall rubbed my back and said some stupid stuff in my ear til I smiled.
Then he kissed me on the cheek.

"paisley I tell you what, we will go and see kenz and Logan then we can go and do some last minute baby shopping and let the boys do there own thing getting gunked on their silly show."

"Really?... Thanks Sheriden, that's really kind"

James rolled his eyes as he should of left a while ago but because of Sheriden he didn't and now she had gone and changed her mind altogether.

I looked at James to say sorry.

kendall got up and kissed me on the head.

"are you going to be okay with her...she is very emotional lately" kendall said to Sheriden.

"sure we will be fine" she said

Kendall was then hurried out by James in to his truck leaving Sheriden and I alone.

"shall we call and announce our arrival our just show up" Sheriden said

"just show up. I really want to see him... I'm odd right?" I confessed.

Sheriden laughed "well its not as odd as when you slapped kendall round the face after he brought you back cheese and onion chips instead of the cheese and chive you asked him to get" she chuckled at the memory of one of my many pregnancy melt downs.

"oh God I'm a nightmare aren't I?" I said shaking my head.

"pais your perfect... You're having a baby not a midlife crisis... Its normal. So let's go and see our best pal logie" she said smiling.

I smiled and we walked out to her car.

As I waddled through the hospital Sheriden asked at reception as to Mackenzies whereabouts. we then made or way up to the ward.

Mackenzie was on an open ward shared with 5 other patients. It must of Been sometime since Sheriden had been on a normal hospital setting like this instead of the private health care she was used to as her face looked somewhat confused.

She kept her sunglasses on as a way to disguise herself from the normal people. Sheriden walked in to Mackenzies ward and whispered in to Logans ear before I had even made my way through the double door entrance.

Logan walked out to See me, giving me a hug and a kiss and reducing me to tears.

"your a silly sod pais... Come on let's get a drink" he said and walked me back out the way I had just waddled in by, leaving Sheriden and Mackenzie to chat.

The cafeteria in the hospital was fairly busy but Logan found us a quiet spot to sit down. He brought me over a bottle of water then sat on the bench seat next to me and slung an arm around me.

"what's all these tears about then Reno?" He said.

"I just miss you logues... I'm sorry I'm just fed up really... I'm being selfish. Is Mackenzie okay" I replied sucking back the tears.

"its good that you miss me, I'm sorry I've not been about, things have been a bit mad lately, but yeah kenz is okay, she is on a nebuliser at the moment. Her air ways aren't doing what they should but she will be fine..." He said. " what about you, how's Bruno coming along?"

I smiled, Logan was the only one that called Bruno, Bruno.
"we are fine, only have two weeks left, got my last scan day after tomorrow.. I'm so tired and fed up, I just really wanted to see you because you remind me of fun and being stupid, not being fat and boring not being able to do anything" I confessed.

Logan gave me his cheeky grin that I got to know so well when we played a load of pranks on kendall on the tour bus "pais are you sure its got nothing to do with the dreams of me going down on you" Logan chuckled.

I went bright red.
"fucks sake. Kendall can't keep anything sacred can he? I didn't dream you went down on me, I dreamt you kissed me... A few times" I laughed.

"well can't blame you to be honest, its not much of a competition between me and kendall" he said giving me a little nudge in the arm.

Logan and I had a good catch up in the end. Despite what James had said both him and Mackenzie were aware that it was that heat and humidity triggering off her asthma attacks, she was trying to manage it best she could but because her medication had changed so much lately it was kind of hit and miss.
Logan assured me that neither him or Mackenzie had any desire to leave LA anytime soon.

I only said a brief hello to Mackenzie when we returned to her ward. She looked even more tired than I felt, and she looked fed up that Logan had just dumped her with Sheriden.

Sheriden took me out shopping, I had far too many items that one baby would ever need already in the nursery but Sheriden loved to buy things and I didn't want to take that away from her so I just let her get gooey over the little outfits and cute bedding.

"pais look at this" she said beaming at a tiny pair of shoes in the department store we had been in for half hour.

I laughed, they were tiny little baby converse sneakers.
"awww kendall will love them on Bruno" I said.

"I so hope if its a boy it won't get stuck with that name paisley" she said giving me a serious look

"i don't think kendall would allow for such a boring name, he seems hell bent on calling Bruno something weird. He had Suzuki written down on his top ten ... Suzuki, Sheriden." I said shaking my head.

"well clearly kendall has lost his mind, isn't that a bike or something" Sheriden said as she rifled through more baby clothes.

"yeah its a bike, its a car but its also Japanese, I think a half Italian baby can do with out a Japanese name thrown in to the mix" I laughed.

"plus Schmidt is German... Suzuki Schmidt, it does have a ring to it, but technically it... Bruno ...will be quarter Italian pais, your mum is white American" Sheriden clarified.

"true, but I don't think Suzuki is the best name out there, he loves all these odd ones, but I like the normal plain ones" I sighed and shook my head at a garish green baby out fit Sheriden had picked out. She put it back on the rail.

"well you best get thinking because your fit to burst pai... What the fuck are you doing?" Sheriden shouted at a couple of girls that had been following us from a far through the shop, but one had just pulled her phone out trying to get a picture of us.

"Sheri leave them alone" I said pulling her by the hand and down towards the stairs.

she rolled her eyes at the two little bitches that now stuck their middle fingers up at us.

"fucking rushers!... can I get these?" She asked holding the baby converse sneakers in her hand still.

I smiled "no one can have enough shoes right?... Not even babies" I chuckled.

"that's my girl" Sheriden giggled.

We stopped at a juice bar before we went back to sheridens car.
I noticed the two girls that Sheriden had sworn at in the department store were still following us.

I picked up my juice and waited for Sheriden, but just as she turned around with her drink in hand the girl who had tried to get the picture of us barged right in to me knocking my drink from my hand spilling it all over me and on the floor but Sheriden slipped and went flying on her backside.

The girl realising what she had done then ran off.

"oh no, Sheri are you okay? Fuck have you broken anything" I panicked.

"I'm fine... I'm fine" she said as one of the juice bar staff helped her to her feet.

Sheriden had suffered a broken back in a skiing accident a few years ago, her spine was put back together with pins along the base , but she had also been diagnosed with osteoporosis which basically meant her bones break easily.
Because sheridens spine was so damaged already with the pins, it was feared that her spinal injury would eventually crumble the bones if not treated with care on her part. It was because of this that her and James couldn't have a baby. As the pressure it would put on her body and back could potentially send her in to a wheel chair for the rest of her life.

"are you okay?" She said checking me over.

"I'm fine just... Stained" I said looking down at my once pretty white maternity dress that could also serve a family of four as a tent.

"James is going to go fucking nuts when he hears about this" she said as she linked my arm and we made our way down to the parking lot to the safety of sheridens Mercedes.

Once back at sheridens bel air mansion and the boys had returned after filming Sheriden allowed for them to tell there story of the day in which kendall had actually got through to the next round of the kids game show and would be returning to finish his filming tomorrow, but James had already been sent down the slide of slime.
They both seemed really happy until Sheriden told them about our day.

"this little fucker just barged in to her... She is 8 months pregnant for fuck sake. why would that cross any ones mind to knock in to a pregnant girl" Sheriden said.

"shit really? Are you okay pais?" Kendall said rubbing my belly.

"I'm fine but the drink I had got knocked over and Sheriden slipped and fell..." I carried the story on but James interrupted me.

"what... You fell, fuck Sheriden are you okay?" James said .

"I'm fine, luckily I landed on my hand more than my ass" she said.

"Jesus what is the matter with these people? That's it... That's fucking it" James shouted.

I had seen James angry before but I had never seen this, this was disbelief and hatred that now shone in his eyes.

"James no one got hurt, its just the actions of one silly teenage girl" I said.

"no paisley this is getting fucking ridiculous now, do you know Sheri gets death threats along with her hate mail, she gets things chucked at her, gets called names in the street, gets constantly bullied on twitter and now they are physically hurting her... I've had enough... " he ranted.

"James calm down honey" Sheriden said.

"I'm fucked off with it, hearing it, reading it, seeing it... Do they think we find it funny... I don't find it funny" James finished.

"once the wedding has been and the baby has arrived they will get used to it. Girls don't like to imagine their heart throbs with other women James... Its part of the job of being with you guys" I said.

"unless your Mackenzie ... mackogan" Sheriden laughed at the nick name the rushers had placed on Logan and Mackenzie as a couple.

Although no one on camp mackogan had ever officially said they were dating each other it was well known now that they were.
But the btr fans loved her, mainly because it gave them all hope that normal girls were regarded as date-able but mostly because she was friendly, her hair salon REDCHERRIES was open to the norms of the general public not the rich and famous, which made her an easy porthole in to the world of btr for a lot of fans.

"yeah its because she is friendly though Sheriden, if you toned it down a bit then maybe they wouldn't make you such a target" kendall said.

Our debate in to the btr fans hatred went on in to the night. Sheriden and I had made plans to meet up tomorrow to have a good look at baby names while kendall filmed his hopeful win on 'figure it out'

Once at home I lay in bed with kendall, I again found it hard to sleep.
"baby do you wanna fuck" I said to kendall as he lay next to me with his eyes shut. A smile crept on his face.

"no... Shush" he said still smiling.

"I'm desperate for you though baby, we haven't had sex in ages" I moaned.

kendall opened his eyes " pais, I love you, but it freaks me out with the placenta thing in the wrong place, I don't want to hurt anything in there" he whispered and kissed me.

"I doubt very much that your cock can reach that far up kendall" I laughed.

"once baby is here I will fuck your brains out pais... I promise, my balls are the size of fucking watermelons, I'm gagging for you" he said closing his eyes again.

"your so romantic kendall" I giggled.

"I know, I'm a catch huh" he smiled at me with closed eyes.

I laughed and snuggled myself in to him as best I could, kendall rubbed my belly until he fell asleep, I spent hours staring at the ceiling until sleep finally took me.

The next morning when I woke up I had severe back ache. I had a bath which eased it I wondered if this is what Sheriden felt like every day with her back.
I made a mental note to feel more sympathy for her next time I saw her wince in pain.

Kendall dropped me off at sheridens then him and James set off to finish filming. James still had to be present to film the end of the show.

Sheriden and I sat in one of her amazing reception rooms, it was gorgeous. The furniture was unreal. Sheridens old mansion was to die for, and James' old bungalow was so modern and beautifully set out, but mix them up together in this bel air madness, and the result was breathtaking.

I was in a lot of pain with my back, I kept shifting from position to try and get comfy.

Sheriden did notice.
"pais sit in that chair, the back is higher" she said.

I nodded and tried the high back chair but it wasnt helping.

I tried my best to ignore it and carried on with the task at hand of baby names.

"Hayden?" Sheriden said with her nose in one of the baby name books. "could be a boy or a girls name" she added.

"no I used to go to school with a Hayden... She was a bitch" I replied.

"okay... Erm... Nadia..." She suggested.

"I quite like Nadine... But quite like isn't good enough is it" I sighed "what do you think of daisy? Or Rhys?" I asked.

"daisy... Its cute" she replied smiling.

"it is isn't it? Kendall doesn't like it" I sighed again.

"Osbert?" Sheriden said laughing, "who would call their baby Osbert, seriously... That can't be a real name.

"ow..." I moaned rubbing my tummy.

"tell you what I'll make us a hot drink and we can have a time out" Sheriden said getting up.

"okay great... Thank you Sheri... Do me a favour and don't tell kendall about Osbert... He will probably love it" I laughed.

Sheriden smiled at me as she walked out to the kitchen.

Sheriden had adjusted well to learning of my pregnancy, she liked the thought of the little Bruno bump, but kendall had shared with me that she was scared stiff of her reaction of seeing kendall with an actual baby in his arms.
It was a weird situation for all four of us to get along so well when Sheriden and kendall used to date, and made a baby once apon a time. Sheriden lost the baby in a car accident.

Both her and kendall had found it very hard to cope with what had happened, but now that Sheriden couldn't have children it made watching my pregnancy a lot harder for her.

She liked to distance herself when I seemed in pain, hence her quick exit to the kitchen to make drinks.

kendall still adored Sheriden and had taken a lot of time to help her through this tricky time. They would go off and have little chats, Sheriden would come back looking like she had cried a river and would give me a hug.

I didn't mind. I knew it was about the babies and not about them still having a thing for each other. Besides I think I adored Sheriden just as much as kendall did.
She is lovely.

My tummy cramped like anything, I had been getting a few Braxton Hicks the last few weeks but this felt odd.

I stood up and water gushed out from me all on to sheridens wooden floor.

"ooh my" I said as another cramp came.

Sheriden walked in with tea and looked at me then at the floor.

"your fucking kidding me" she said with eyes filled with fear.