Title: Last Day

Genre: Humor and Hurt/Comfort

DISCLAIMER: I don't OWN Detective Conan. BUT the happening in this story belongs to me!

A/N: This story was completed on December 2012 and now I will only fix few mistakes such as the comma and capitalization that I oath to do. December 08, 2015, Is the date I edited the whole story (so after 3 years I finally edited this). Also, thank you for all the readers who are still adding this fic to their favourite/alert lists. Thank you for all the supports, I didn't get to thank everyone properly so I am doing it now.

… -silence

'blahblah' –thoughts

"blahblah" –dialogue

Last Day

It's been five years when I shrunken into this child body. I sighed and thought 'Bad day'. I hate this day because my classes is boring as ever, I'm tired wearing this fake mask. Haibara did not go to school today that's why I was stuck with the Detective Boys. I wonder what is Haibara doing, I told her not to overwork herself from working with the antidote. I wonder why I said that, but I think I feel sorry for her. Ran is trying to move on with her life because I told her that I'm not the one destined for her and I don't want to cause any more pain to her. I told her that by phone, but me as Conan Edogawa is making her move on, like I've been saying that there are lot of handsome guys out there and she must not cling with the past. I guess it worked in some way but for me it didn't. I really do love her; I don't want to see her in pain anymore so I guess my decision is better than making her wait too long. I also stopped using Kogoro Mouri to solve cases; he can solve it anyway. I just needed to let him see the evidence. I also stopped meeting Hattori, I told him that I'm busy about the Black Organization and I need to help Haibara with the antidote. I stopped going to the Kid Heist because I don't want to see my look alike he makes me remember my broken dream and broken love.

Physical pain is no use to me; I can get rid of it by a painkiller. But the emotional pain I'm feeling is just too much that I can't get rid of it. I'm ashamed of myself people think of me as the Detective of the East but I can't even solve my own problem.

6 o'clock in the evening

Kogoro mouri is out for a case, usually I force him to bring me or I sneak out to where is the case but it's totally different now. He can solve it anyway so he doesn't need my help anymore. Ran is out on a blind date, organized by Sonoko. Somehow, I'm happy that Sonoko is helping Ran to move on. Well I'm alone in here now, I know that the food is in the fridge but I'm not hungry at all.

I sat on the couch then start to read Sherlock Holmes. I put down the book on the couch surface then I walk out of the agency. When I opened the door, to my surprise I saw Haibara standing in front of me her face shows dismay.

'I wonder what happened.'

I let her come in the agency, we sit down the couch, and then I asked wearing a worried smile "Why are you here Haibara?" she responded, not looking at me. "Shinichi Kudo is dead." she said in her cold tone and emotionless as ever, that's our Ice Queen.

"I see." That is the only word I can say then I remained silence after that. I never asked her why or how but I guess Haibara know something is up.

I said in childish tone "It's okay, Haibara" then I flashed a smile – a bittersweet smile.

"It's not okay!" suddenly I became numb, she raised her voice, she is angry, upset or something that I can't explain. "Do you think it's okay, Kudo-kun!?" she stand up then faces me.

"I know it's not but I need to try.. at least" I said in low but serious tone.

"We will die, Kudo-kun! Not by the hands of the organization but by the fate, do you get what I mean?!"

"If we will die then so be it.." I said in serious tone, as I tried to smile.

Then I continued "I've already corrected her life, their life. So it will be okay, I'm already content."

"Kudo-kun, shut it up! You big idiot think first before you speak. Do you think Ran can totally move on? No she can't, she never can't unless you are by her side as Conan Edogawa, but you are going to die, in just a month we will die. Do you know why? It's because it is the side effect of the antidote, our body became immune to the virus and it slowly kills our immune system while we never noticed that effect. If you die Kudo-kun, she will be a piece of crap!" she finished her explanation with a slap by her right hand to ,my left cheeks.

I snapped out to the reality. I will die in just a month and Haibara too. I guess, I can tell everybody that I will die and if I tell them they will act so damn overprotected about our condition and I don't want that. It's better to keep silent.

I looked at her, then I suddenly hug her, then I shed few tears.

I don't know why but I wanted to cry like a child… I will die within a month and I can't even totally correct my mistake.

25 days later..

I live normally as I did when I became Conan Edogawa, I still act childishly, and even more as the days pass by. Haibara is still trying to find a cure but I told her not to because we both know there is no cure that was on the 23rd day.

It's useless after all. I act distance when Hattori comes at the Agency, My excuse was something along the line of doing homework with the Detective Boys that I must do, or activities with the Detective Boys or about helping Haibara with the antidote. Sometimes they buy it but sometimes Hattori will eye me weirdly and I will try not to let something slip.

Now I went to Haibara's place and I find out she has a fever and it's getting worse. This was the 3rd day since she had a fever, maybe because she overwork herself so I guess it's still my fault.

Hakase is taking care of Haibara for now, and he never know about our current situation, sometimes the Detective Boys visit her to give notes about our lecture, saying many stuffs about the cases we solve when she is not around and they are hoping for Haibara to be feeling well, they don't know it's the opposite.

This past 25 days I can't see that Ran is crying or sad about me, so I guess she totally move on with her life, I'm happy for her, it makes me feel relieved that she wouldn't be so sad if we left them behind. I also want her to see in a wedding dress and being married, though I guess it won't happen because I only have five days left. I have heard from Sonoko that Ran is dating with someone but still Ran didn't answer the confession of that someone, and Sonoko said Ran told that someone that they are still too young for that.

29th day

I look at Haibara, I'm in Hakase's place, I want to take good care of her. She can't move much, Hakase wanted to take Haibara to the Hospital but I don't want to when he asked for a reason I lied and said "She will be fine, for sure she will be feeling well after two days."

Again Hakase trusted what I said. Before I went in here, I told Kogoro Mouri that he is great more that the Detective of the East and West, as usual after hearing that he laughed maniacally and for the first time ever in my dear life he respond "Thank you."

After telling Kogoro of that I told Ran that I would not be going home because I will take good care of Haibara and she agreed.

Yesterday I phoned Hattori and told him that I am really sorry for not talking to him because I'm really busy of planning how to take down the organization and I even told him to say hi to Kazuha for me.

I also bumped with Kaito Kuruba early in the morning today, he asked me why I'm not going to kid's heist he also told me that the heist is boring because I'm not there. I lied at him and said I was busy with school work and helping with Ojii-chan I'm sure he is not satisfied with my answer that's why I told him I will be going to kid's heist next time. I'm still not sure if he even believed me.

Afternoon

Hakase is out on a convention with the Detective Boys. I even forced Hakase to go to the convention to have some fun with the Detective Boys even without me and Haibara. I insisted that I will be taking good care of Haibara while he is gone. He trusted me.

This past five days I called my parents and told them that I was still busy getting information about Black Organization. They warned me to take care of myself and not to be in so much trouble.

I also noticed that I don't care about the organization now. I don't pay them much attention now.

Evening

I wish Haibara will wake up now, I want to talk to her about everything before we die but I guess fate doesn't want it to happen.

30th day

This morning Haibara is feeling better, we don't know the reason but we don't care. It's not time for that. I'm a little bit feverish but I am able to hide it.

Ran is in school by now. Kogoro Mouri is drank and watching again… geez.. he never change.

I left a note on my room Ran will find it the time she inspect my room when I went missing. I will not go to school this time but I will go somewhere first. I went Hakase's place and I saw him sitting on the couch. Haibara is in her uniform. I told Hakase that Haibara and I would go to school to surprise the Detective Boys because Haibara is fine now.

Hakase agreed though he wants to call the Detective Boys to come here.

In school

We entered the classroom then the Detective Boys stood there in happiness. After that, the class went on. After our classes this afternoon we went to the playground. We played and played until the sky is already dark. When it is already 6:30 pm Haibara and I sneak away from them. We have a plan. No one can stop us from doing this.

We walked around the park, around the district.

After a while ago we bumped with Sonoko and Ran. Haibara and I greeted them. I said in most childish tone "Ran nee-chan, Haibara and I will be out for a while but I will go home later." Ran smiled at me and said "Sure, Conan-kun" then I responded "I love you Ran nee-chan as my big sister."

After that they lost sight of us because we blend with the crowd. I left her confused purposely. It's my last word to say to her directly..

Somewhere in river side watching the sunset

I get my phone then I phoned Hattori, he answered my phone call then I told him "You are the rival of Shinichi Kudo, don't forget that. Be happy with Kazuha." Then I hung up my phone before I hear him respond.

Haibara get her phone also then called Hakase then she told him "Hakase you are a father to me. You are always precious to me." She then hung up the phone.

We look at each other. I smiled at her. She smiled at me. She isn't the ice queen everyone knows.

"I like you Haibara. You are my best friend no matter what happen." she respond "the same with me Kudo-kun."

After that conversation we texted the Detective Boys "Be a detective when you all grow up, all of you has a potential." after sending that we turned off our phones.

It's already so dark here. My temperature is getting high. We know it's going to be our end. But we aren't sad we are still happy. But deep within me I'm so sad, I am feeling mixed emotions.

I hold her hands tight. She hold my hands back. I shed few tears. She started to cry.. we cried frantically like a lost child.. it just hurt.. it hurt a lot.. What will happen to everyone after we die.. I'm sure they will be okay but there is a part of me that is not sure. I know this is what Haibara felt too…

TBC