i'm still like pissed at freddie so i accidentally on purpose made him act like an asshole at the first part all angry at sam at the rest when he should really be cowering in fear, but whatever

YES I AM MAKING SAM'S RESPONSE TO THIS and i'm prrobably gonna put significant moments in his search for Sam :)

this accidentally came out longer than expected welp here we go

Dear Sam

Here you go again, just doing without thinking. Sam, did you even think about this for one second or did you just hop on your motorcycle and run off to who-knows-where you are now?

Sam, I don't understand why you would leave just because Carly left. We're all going through brand new beginnings, Sam, but you don't see us running away. All these signs could have meant for you to turn a new leaf or something, but not move to another continent without telling any of us.

Did you even think about us when you left? How do you think we'll be living like without Carly and you? We've already gotten the business of worrying and missing Carly, but now we have to do the same for you too. Sam, without you, Gibby and I would probably be the main target for bullies now. Gibby would become even weirder without anyone scolding him. Spencer would be pained. He'd just lost his little sister, and now he's lost you- the closest thing he ever got to another little sister. Spencer's always been the father figure for you, Sam, and now he's got no one. Sure, he's got Gibby and I, but even I know that you could be the only replacement for Carly. friendYou've put all of us in a bigger rut than we already are.

And what about me? You're my best friend. You're the one that's kept me laughing and happy. You're the one that I would always count on. You're the one that would light up my day with your witty jokes that I was always jealous of. You're the one that reminded me of all the beautiful things inside each of us. You're the one that opens my eyes to so many wonderful, profound things. Each day, I'd look forward to seeing you and talking to you, because you always left me wanting more. How do you expect me to live without you?

Did you even think about that, Sam?

Did you even think that the reason I pumped my fists in joy when she kissed me was that I realized that my love for her was no more? She kissed me, Sam, and I felt nothing! The girl that I have been chasing around for half my life kissed me just before she left to another world and I was supposed to be ecstatic that I was special enough to get a kiss. But, no, when she kissed me, it felt like kissing a rock.

And you're asking me if I meant what I said that night? Sam, I said it first to you!

Just remember it really clearly and vividly in your head.

"Hey. I love you."

I meant it with everything in me, Sam. I've never been as happy as I was when I was with you. You made me feel special. I've always been the lame nerd at the corner, waiting for some girl to talk to me because I never plucked up the courage to do it myself.

Sam, you kissed me that night and it was like a fire so wild and raging just lit up in me and it all felt so surreal and beautiful and great. But you ran away and you left me with 3 days to think about you and only you. That's when I realized that I love you. And I saw you in that Mental Hospital and you have never looked so beautiful. I felt myself drawn to you, like electricity.

Have I been doing my share in that promise? Sam, I've been trying so hard. Except, I have no idea how! What the hell is abnormal? What the hell is change? Is it being like all those other guys that walk around, feeling as if they're the kings of the world? Because, that's what I did, but I guess it was wrong to try. Sam, I have no idea at all what to do to become like you.

Sam, let's face it. We did ask for change. When I told you that maybe one day when you'd be normal, and when you told me one day when I'd be abnormal, we would get back together. And we've both been trying so hard to do exactly that Sam- change for the other person's sake. We did it because we wanted to be with each other, Sam! We both wanted to be in love with each other.

But, Sam, I don't want you to change any more as you want me to change. If you changed, you wouldn't be the Sam I fell in love with. I don't want to fall in love a Carly, there are so many Carlys in the world! I don't want you to become one of them at all. I want, no, need a Sam. A Sam that can knock out a truck driver with a carton of milk, a Sam that doesn't care what others think of her, a Sam that gives you a kiss with a fist. That's the Sam I need.

Sam, I don't want you to change. You don't want me to change. I agree with you it wasn't worth the change, wasn't worth the wait, wasn't worth the break-up.

If we just listened to our hearts and not what Carly said, we could have still been together and I'm sure we could have sorted out our differences. Sam, I want us to be together.

Please don't let go. Please don't move on.

I won't say how much I'll miss you. Not yet. Because I'm going to look for you, Sam. No matter how hard it is or how long it will take. I'll cross the whole world to get to you.

I'm never letting you go. I'll hold you in my heart because you're my tattoo.

And I'm yours.

Wait for me, Sam. Please.

So, who do I love and why?

I love you, Sam. I love you because you're you. I love you because you torment me and laugh about it. I love you because you get that sorry looks in your eyes when I ignore you. I love you because you made me feel special. I love you because you're strong and gorgeous and angelic. I love you because you've opened my eyes to so many things. I love you because you made me such a better person. I love you because you're my life.

See you soon, Sam.

I love you.

Hate, Freddie

YES GOOD OKAY that was it i'm sorry it kinda sucked welp um I'm gonna be doing a We Are Never Ever Ever Getting Back Together and like 100 words with a maximum of 5 sentences for each word and probably a fluff based on 7 things? and an alternate ending woop woooop See you soooon!

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