Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.

A/N: I do not reread what I write because I'm insanely lazy; I just write, hit spell check, correct what Word tells me to and then I post it. So there are probably lots of errors including wrong and missing words and simple grammatical issues, please excuse and ignore them.

I didn't think I would feel as bad as I did. I knew that it was what I wanted and that I had to do it. I knew that even if I had stayed, I would have been wasting more time and money. I had to drop out of school. It was the only option for me to do.

I was 22 and it was time. I had spent the last few years going to school and taking as many classes as I could to try and figure out where my interests were so that I could pick a major. I just couldn't seem to pick one though. I had come close to pick a major several times, but I never actually stuck with one. Now that I was 22, I didn't need to worry about anymore.

I didn't necessarily drop out of college, I just didn't sign up for classes. In my mind, I believed that I was only putting going to school on hold. Once I was able to be around humans more, I would go back and get some degrees. I didn't know how long it would take for me to get control over my thirst though.

That was one of the many things that Esme, Rose and I talked about over the years. They had made sure I knew everything I could possibly ever want to know about the painful process of being turned. They told me about how strong the thirst was and tried their best to tell me how the thirst feels. From what I gathered, I wouldn't truly know until I felt it myself.

We moved out of the house we were staying in for my change. Their cousins, who I had just briefly met a few days ago when we moved into their house, had a house they weren't using that was very far away from any human habitation. They wanted to make sure that when I was a very new newborn that when I ran around hunting, I wouldn't run into a human. I didn't want to take a human life and my mates were doing everything they could to help me avoid that. I was hoping to have Rosalie's track record with human blood. Although, they were both quick to tell me that I shouldn't be upset if I slipped and it would be more than understandable.

Today was the day that I would be changed. I was incredibly nervous and afraid of what would happen. Rosalie and Esme would change me and in three days, the rest of the Cullen's would wait around the perimeter to see if Esme and Rose would need help with me. They weren't sure how I was going to react when I woke up as a newborn and wanted to be prepared for as many possibilities as possible.

"Are you okay?" Esme asked as she walked up behind me and wrapped her arms around me.

I had been staring out of a window at the snow that was peacefully falling for the last few minutes. Everything was in place for me to be changed. The three of us were just waiting for me to say when and Esme and Rose would bite me and inject me with their venom. It was everything I wanted and I knew that I would be one of them so that I could have an eternity with them. But I was afraid.

I was terrified.

It wasn't that I was worried about waking up as a vampire and then my mates suddenly not want me. I wasn't worried about possibly slipping and taking a human life. I didn't want to kill a human, but I was smart enough to realize that as a vampire, I would be a creature that was simply higher on the food chain than humans. It wasn't something I wanted, but I could understand it.

What I was terrified of though, was the pain I would feel. From what Esme and Rose could tell me, the pain was unimaginable. It would feel like I was burning from the inside out. I was terrified to feel it, but I knew I had to in order to be given eternity with my mates.

"I'm afraid." I admitted.

"Afraid of what?" Rose asked as she moved to stand next to me.

About a year ago, Rose and Esme and admitted to be afraid that I would have a change of heart and decide not to be changed. They were afraid they would have to watch me grow old and then die. Once I died, they would follow suite. At first I had thought they were over exaggerating; I mean, there would still be the two of them to comfort each other. But, they made me think about how I would feel if one of them died. As a human, I could imagine myself falling into a very bad depression, even with one of them still with me. As a vampire, their emotions were amplified, their feeling of loss would be greater. They wouldn't be able to live with just suffering through an eternity of depression; especially if both of them agreed on giving up on living.

The tone in Rose's voice told me her fears were surfacing again. No matter how many times I told them both that I would never change my mind about being turned, there was still a residual lingering fear. It was a fear they would have until I was actually turned. Esme had told me that something they had long ago learned from Alice was that the future was never set in stone. Until I was turned, there was always a risk of me not being turned.

"I won't change my mind." I quickly said. "But, I'm afraid of all the pain I'm going to feel." I said with a frown. It was the only thing I was afraid of.

Esme gave my cheek a comforting kiss before resting her head on my shoulder again.

"Three days is a long time to go through it and it will feel even longer while you are; but remember, the pain will lead to an eternity with us." Esme said.

"You don't have to go through with it." Rose said, her voice completely void of any emotion. "We wouldn't force you."

"I know you wouldn't; but there's no chance I couldn't go through with the change." I quickly said, making sure that Rose understood that I was still going to go through with the change. There was nothing that could change my mind about it. "Its' time." I said.

There was no reason to procrastinate any longer. I knew I wouldn't change my mind. Everyone was waiting on me to give the word. The only thing that was delaying my change was me and there was no reason for it. I already knew I was going to. It was time to do it.

"Are you sure?" Esme asked. "There's no rush."

"I want to." I said as I turned around in her arms and then placed a gentle kiss on her lips.

We had decided a while ago that when I would be changed, it would be in an empty, spare room. Just in case I woke up from my change in an aggressive mood, we didn't want to ruin any of the Denali's things, so, I wouldn't be around that many things for me to destroy. Esme and Rose would be in the room with me. They told me I would either want to hunt right away, or I would want to have sex with my mates for the first time as a vampire. According to Jasper, he has seen it both ways with newborns; some wake up with a sex drive if they see someone they are attracted to and others wake up very thirsty. Rose was hoping for me to crave sex, she said she really wanted to have sex without having to hold back; Esme said she didn't care which one I woke up to as long as I was fine.

Rose and Esme guided me to the room we had picked out. There was one bed in there; it was only to be used for when they bite me. It was a last human comfort I would know. Once I was bitten, they would leave the bed in there since it was only there for them to bite me while I'm comfortable.

I laid down on the bed, only one sheet and one pillow for me to lay on. It was a small bed so that both my mates could have easy access to bite my collar. It had taken a while for us to pick where they would bite me; I wanted to make sure they both bit me in an area that wouldn't make one jealous over the other. Like, if one of them bit me over my heart, or one bit me first, the other might get jealous and I didn't want that.

"There's nothing else you want to do before we change you?" Rose asked as she gently moved my hair out of my face. "One last meal, a little nap, something to drink?"

I had done all that last night and even this morning. I knew yesterday that when I had breakfast, lunch, dinner, everything I drank and even when I fell asleep last night, I knew it would be for the last time. At least before anything I eat the food and drinking anything for it to taste horrible. I was ready.

"No. I don't want to wait anymore." I said with a smile as I tightened my grip on their hands that hand griped mine the moment I laid down.

"Once we bite down, there's no going back." Esme said as she softly combed her fingers through my hair.

"I wouldn't want to go back." I said with a smile. They both smiled and slowly leaned down.

We had talked a lot about how and when I wanted to be bitten. Rose was all for having sex and then just as I peak, they both bite me. I was sure that Rose only thought that if I was feeling as good as possible that the pain would somehow be lessened. Esme believed that it wouldn't matter how amazing I felt just as I was bitten, I would still feel the intense pain. We both didn't want me to associate the pain of being changed with the pleasure of sex. It could definitely happen. Once it was put that was, Rose didn't want that either.

In the end, we decided that once I decided I was ready, I would lie down on the bed and both Rose and Esme would lean in and bite me on my collarbone. It was the closest to my heart that I could have both of them bite me at the same time.

I felt both of their teeth bite down into my skin. I did my best to withhold my groan of pain from the initial bite. I knew that the pain was about to get a lot worse. I knew they would both feel bad about causing me the pain I was about to go through, even though they both knew it was important. I was going to try my best to not scream out like I knew I would inevitably do.

I could feel their venom start to leak into me. Both women were very careful not to drink any of my blood. Just a second or two after they bit into me, they started to inject their venom into me. I could feel the burn of the venom the moment it was in my system. Just a couple more seconds after I felt the venom, the burning increased and I couldn't stay silent any longer.

No sooner did I start to scream did the pain override every other sense I had. I felt like I was burning and there was nothing else I could think of beyond the burning.

The fire was retreating from my limbs and started to focus on my heart. For what little relief was granted my limbs as the fire receded, the burning increased in my heart. Minute after minute passed as the burning focused on my chest. The pounding of my heart became the only thing I could hear; the one thing beyond the burning I could focus on.

As soon as the burning reached the highest temperature I've felt it thus far, right when I was giving in to try and do anything I could to end my life because I couldn't stand the pain, not that my limbs had moved when I wanted them to, it all stopped. Everything.

My body was motionless. The fire was gone. My heart, I heard the final beat of defeat before it was gone. I wasn't sure what to think. I had grown so accustomed to the burn that I now that it was gone, I was lost as to what to do.

I stayed motionless as I decided what to do.

I could hear animals and wind move around outside; much louder than I had ever heard it before. I could hear people moving around, not too far from where I was. I wasn't sure what to think about them; but here was a part of me that believed they weren't a threat; even though I had no reason to actually believe that.

I was content to lay where I was, but a movement from the room I was in caused me to quickly move to my feet. I barely gave a moments' thought to the fact that I had moved much faster than what I had ever moved before. All I was focused on was that I wasn't alone in the room and I didn't like that.

I moved to the corner of the room, how I knew where the corner was, I had no idea, and stared at the two other occupants in the room. The moment my eyes connected with both of them my memories came back to me.

I could remember the painful memories of my youth, although they seemed very murky and didn't seem likely to last for much longer. I could also remember when and how I had met these two women and their family. I remember all they had done for me. I remembered when they told me I was their mate.

I was their mate, but more importantly:

They were mine.

Esme was closest to me, having taken a step closer to try and calm me because I had seemed so tense. I knew they were both trying to calm me down, they were both talking, but I just couldn't register what they were saying. Instead, I pounced.

Since Esme was closet to me, I talked her to the ground and latched my mouth onto hers. My hands wasted no time in taking her clothes off. She offered no resistance and for a moment I was grateful because I hadn't even bothered to ask if I could do what I was planning on doing.

"At least we know what we're dealing with now." Rose said in an amused tone from the side of Esme and I on the ground.

It was the sound of her voice that made me realize that even though I had one of mates underneath me, I didn't have both of them and that was not acceptable. I detached my mouth from Esme's, grateful that I didn't need to breathe anymore, and was about to move to get Rose, but I didn't want to get off of Esme. I couldn't help but give Rose a pathetic look in hopes that she would rectify the problem. I didn't know why I just told her to come to me; it was like the ability to talk was just simply too much work at the moment. All I wanted was to satisfy my mating needs with my mates.

"My poor little newborn." Rose said before she quickly disrobed and then pounced on me, causing me to land on my back with Rose straddling me. "Don't think just because you're a newborn that you get to play at being more dominant." Rose said as she tore my clothes from me; clothes I didn't even remember I was wearing. "That's my job."

A part of me, the more animalistic part of me, was angered that Rose dared to say she was dominate over me. I wanted to prove that I was stronger; especially when I knew I could with my newborn strength. But, another part of me, the part that could just barely think clearly, knew that there was no way Rose would ever be submissive to either me or Esme. It just wasn't in her nature and never would be; no matter how much my inner vampire really wanted her to be.

"Be careful Rose, our newborn wants to play." Esme said after I had managed to hoop my leg around Rose and wrestle her onto her back. If it wasn't for my newborn strength that wouldn't have worked. Also, if it wasn't for my newborn short attention span of wanting sex from either of my mates and Esme's voice making me realize I wasn't touching her, Rose wouldn't have been able to flip our positions again.

"Then let's play." Rose said with a snarl.

I knew it had to have been at least a full day later before the three of us stopped our activities. We had managed to stay in the single room. The bed was initially the only thing destroyed. It had gotten in my way when I was taking Esme and I over estimated my strength when I moved it out of the way. Just like we had planned and hoped for, I hadn't destroyed the Denali's house that was really more of a cabin as I thought about it. At least, the bed was the only casualty until I smelt a very delectable scent.

I hadn't even bothered to tell Esme or Rose what I had smelled, I just wanted it. We had been laying on the floor, having stopped our activities just a few minutes prior, when I smelled it. I had no idea what it was, but I wanted it. Every fiber of my body screamed at me to get a hold of it. So, I ran. I ran right through the window and towards the smell.

I vaguely heard Esme and Rose give chase after me. I was running on pure instinct and instinct was telling me that there was food nearby and my burning throat desperately wanted that food. It vaguely crossed my mind that I didn't want to share my prey with anyone else, but I also recognized that it was my mates following me and I knew I would share anything with them. So I didn't bother giving them a warning growl to stay away. I would share with them if they wanted to.

After I had been running for a second or two, I started worrying about what it was I was following. I was able to figure out it was the scent of blood that was calling to me, but I was worried about what the source of the blood was. I was afraid that somehow, a human had escaped the other Cullen's and that I was about to attack and kill a human. I didn't believe I would be able to stop myself if I got too close to a human with how much my throat burned and how loudly my instincts were yelling at me to satisfy the burn. I had started to slow down so I could try and figure out what exactly it was that I was hunting.

"Just follow your instincts Bella and you'll do fine." Esme said from just slightly behind me.

With Esme's encouragement, I started running at full speed again. Esme wouldn't encourage me to hunt a human; she would know if it was a human or not. I had full trust in both her and Rose and if they weren't trying to stop me, then I wasn't going to hold back.

I wasn't sure what happened once I saw my prey. I couldn't even remember what kind of animal it was; still can't. All I remember was that once I saw it, I found an extra burst of speed and drained the poor creature in seconds. When the first one was drained, I moved on to another one. I ended up draining four creatures that hunt. I also remember that when I was done hunting, not even bothering to go back home, I decided the forest floor was the perfect place to show my mates how much I loved them.

I didn't end up seeing the rest of the Cullen's, or the Denali's since they were all waiting to hear about how the newborn was doing, until three days after I was turned. It was a very embarrassing moment for me because several of the vampires present decided the fact I had sex with my mates for so long was very good teasing material. I was very thankful that I couldn't blush because the teasing and smug looks on both Esme's and Rosalie's faces would have had me blushing for a while.

I had stayed and visited with everyone until later that evening and I only left then because I was still used to the human need to turn in early because of sleep. I wasn't allowed to go back to our home, I had to stay in the Denali's cabin/house they had in the middle of nowhere, but the room I had been changed in now had furniture in it. Apparently three days were more than enough time for Alice to decorate a room. I went straight to our room and the three of us cuddled on the new bed. It would take some getting used to, all the free time was new to me. It was refreshing.

"I like this." I said from my spot on top of Esme. Instead of lying in between them, I opted to use Esme as a body pillow and just laid on top of her while Rose laid next to her. I was very thankful that Vampires couldn't get uncomfortable.

"We have eternity like this." Esme said as her fingers went slowly up and down my spine. When we had gone back to visit with family, I had refused to go anywhere near them until I had been given an outfit to wear. The moment we were alone in our room, I took all three of our outfits off. I loved the feeling of their skin on mine. Their skin was no longer cold and it burned in all the right places.

"We could spend months like this." Rose said from her spot.

"That sounds amazing." I murmured as I started to purr. I will be honest, that was one of the things I was both dreading and looking forward to. I was dreading it because I didn't want Emmett to tease me about it, but looking forward to it because I was fascinated that it was even possible in the first place.

The moment I started to purr, my two mates started to purr and I could feel myself fall into an even greater state of relaxations.

"Too bad you won't last that long." Rose teased.

I knew she meant that my thirst wouldn't let me last that long. They had fully prepared me about my future thirst issues before they had changed me. As far as I cared, the worst was over. I fully trusted my mates to keep me safe from attacking any humans or even being around them until I was ready. My biggest worry was the pain of being changed and it was all over. I didn't have to deal with that anymore. I was free to be with my mates.

That's all I cared about. As far as I was concerned, my life was complete now that I had eternity with them.

A/N: This story is complete. I've been uploading new chapters to 'Take a Chance on Me'; I haven't been changing the story, just making some little changes because everyone that voted opted to have Bella paired with the sisters rather than just Tanya; so I'm making it work. Soon, I will start posting new chapters to that one. I don't expect that one to be a long story. I imagine just a few more chapters, but I really don't know until I start writing them. Once that story is done, which I will also be working on finishing my Hermione/Fleur story which will also be short, I will start on a Rosalie/Bella fic I have in mind. IDK how long it will take me to start on the Rosalie/Bella fic, but that will be the next, new story I do.