Yay another story! This is a one-shot about how Alec feels after the breakup. I've had this written for a while and just haven't put it up soo…here it is!

Disclaimer- I don't own the mortal Instruments or the song.

I'm here without you baby, but your still in my lonely mind! I'm here without you baby, and I think about you all the ti-

Alec picked up his radio and threw it against the wall, leaving the wall dented and the radio smashed. The words of the song hung in the air.

I think about you baby, All the time!

How dare it?

How DARE the song remind him of…

Alec chocked on a sob and grimaced. Thinking of his name brought back memories. Memories that made his heart ache.

Alec and Magnus on vacation in London…

Alec and Magnus together when the group went to the Sealie Queen…

Alec and Magnus in the Accords hall…

His breathe caught. That one was especially painful. He still remembered Clary's mark that bound Shadowhunter and Downworlder together, if only for a night. Fighting beside Magnus…he was happy. Amidst all the fighting and pain, he was happy to be with Magnus. That night gave Alec the strength to come out to his parents. He finally did it.

Now…

Now his dad was always in Idris. His parents were divorcing. In the back of his mind he knew he was the cause. Avoiding a taboo all your life…then it to show up in your own home…It was too much for them to handle. Maybe never speaking of it will make it go away. Maybe staying in Idris and avoiding it…Maybe his dad will forget. He can move on like it never happened.

Alec slowly stood and picked up the remains of his radio. His heart felt like the radio in a way; shattered and broken, never to be completely put back together. Never to be perfect and whole again.

How dare Magnus?!

How dare he leave him standing with that stupid witchlight stone all alone, heartbroken and confused. How dare he kiss him and say that it was still over? They loved each other, that's what couples do! Fight, then make up…

…right?

Alec wasn't sure anymore.

Emotions flooded to the surface.

Hurt.

Angst.

Confusion.

Love.

Regret.

Mostly, regret.

He hated how he allowed Camille to deceive him into even thinking about shortening Magnus's life. He should never even come to see her.

He regretted not trusting Magnus like he should have. He regretted most of all, staring after Magnus as he walked away. Alec, not saying anything. Shoving his stupid hands into his stupid pockets, saying nothing, as his love walked away. Maybe forever.

Would he get Magnus back?

He didn't know.

He hated how he was unsure of if, or when, he would ever see Magnus again. Maybe never, after all he did say he never wanted to see him or his friends again. Alec sighed. His last memory of him was Magnus walking away. A sob racked his chest, fighting to get out. Alec held his breath until the feeling passed. He would not cry tonight. A single tear escaped his lashes, however, and was slowly trailing down his smooth cheek, breaking his resolve. He let out a shaky sigh. His vision was slowly clouding up from the tears and he quickly blinked them away. He would not let Isabelle, or Jace, see him cry. He was supposed to be the older, wiser, big brother. He would be strong. Slowly, ever so slowly, Alec stood. He breathed deep, and wiped away his tears. Then, he walked out of his room and into the corridor as if nothing had happened.

He would be strong.