A/n: I have a lot of feels right now so this just had to be done. This is Brittany's take on what happened after her and Santana's talk during the play.

Dear Journal

It's friday again and Santana's not here. She hasn't been here for a lot of fridays actually. I know it's probably stupid but I don't go out on friday nights anymore. Instead I stay at home and do what we would be doing. I put some popcorn in the microwave pop in a sweet valley high dvd and cuddle up with the duck Santana won me at the state fair. It still kinda smells like her. I guess I could go out, I mean She did take me out on fridays. But it just seems wrong without her here. Watching the stars in the back of her dad's ford pick up or skipping stones on the lake just wouldn't be the same.

I miss her so much Journal. I know she misses me too. She said so during the play. But then she said it's fine if we date other people. I couldn't believe she said that. Does she not want to be with me anymore? I was so sad after she said that. I couldn't help but say it. Say how I feel every friday night I spend without her. She could always hide her feelings so well, something I never really learned how to do.

When I got up and walked away I thought it was really over. I thought she didn't want to be with me anymore. But then she got up to sing and I knew. I knew she felt the same as me. I could just tell that she wanted to be with me. That she sits in her dorm on friday nights wearing my hoodie and watching the little mermaid (because she knows that's my favorite Disney movie.) She's always great at hiding her feelings but not when she sings. When she sings I can feel all the things she can't say.

She thinks this is what I want. That this is what's best for me. But she's wrong journal. She's never been so wrong about anything in her life. I don't need this.

I just need her.