All I Want is to Be Perfect

By: Cielphantomhive145

Hi! I didn't think that chapter would get so many positive reviews. Sadly, this story is going to have to come to an end...otherwise the plot would just become extremely boring. I am no good at writing stories that aren't tragic.

Warning: Character death, intense sadness, violence.

Disclaimer: I do not own Kuroshitsuji. I only own the plot of the story, "All I Want is To Be Perfect."

Ciel

I watched in horror as my arm rose, preparing to skewer Sebastian with the sword.

I looked in to his eyes, he wasn't going to move. He was going to sacrifice himself for me...why?

As the knife was about to plunge down through him, I fought with all the strength I had. The knife slowly pushed forward, but I kept pulling back.

I would not lose this battle.

Sebastian

I watched the inner turmoil in Ciel. His eyes changed between their deep blue colour and the menacing red violently.

There was no way for me to free him other than sacrificing myself. Ciel is almost like a son to me. It sounded like I loved him as more than that, but that isn't the case. I love him as my son, seeing as I never had any children of my own.

Running forward, I grabbed the sword, pulling it from Ciel's grasp. I flung it across the room towards Lucifer, who was frozen with shock. It cut his arm off; both the sword and arm landing on the ground with a sickening thud.

"AHHHH" Lucifer doubled over in pain, clutching his arm. This bought me some time to grab on to Ciel.

"Ciel, listen to me, please. Keep fighting, I love you, you are my son. I never want to leave you, we will live together and I will care for you for eternity. I understand that your past was horrible, but you cannot just give up yet!" I pleaded with him; yelling as loud as I could.

Ciel

It's so dark. I can't see anything.

I kept fighting with Lucifer's possessive grasp, at some point I ended up in this dark room. Where am I?

"Ciel, listen to me, please. Keep fighting, I love you, you are my son. I never want to leave you, we will live together and I will care for you for eternity. I understand that your past was horrible, but you cannot just give up yet!" I could hear Sebastian pleading with me.

I would not give up.

I clenched my hands together and powered up my fire abilities. Sebastian loves me; I am his son!

I WILL NOT let my father down!

I lunged towards what appeared to be a door in this dark room, when I touched it, the wood disintegrated; leading me back to my own body. I was finally back in the battle.

Sebastian

His eyes turned blue once again, "Sebastian, I- "

I saw his eyes roll back in to his head and they turned bright red once again; I held him tighter.

His body was shaking, he began to scream.

"Ciel, you can do this, I am waiting for you."

Ciel

"Sebastian, I- " Suddenly I felt myself being pulled away from reality. I was back in a dark room.

"You will not win this, twerp." Lucifer was upon me, in my head.

"Yes, I will." I stood up, I was not planning on losing.

"We'll see about that," he lunged at me with all of his force, punching me in the stomach. I fell to the floor, unable to breath.

"See? You are nothing but a weak demon that should have never been born!" Lucifer turned his back and walked towards the door. As he reached the door I stood up,

"My entire life I have been pushed around, unwanted, unloved. I have lost all of my battles; however, this is on that I will not lose!" My eyes glowed red and my hands burned with the anticipation of a fight. I lunged forward and caught his neck. I tightened my grip to full force. Lucifer's body shook, he hit me repeatedly but I ignored the pain.

Sebastian was waiting for me.

Sebastian

Lucifer was still lying in the corner nursing his arm. But he was recovering quickly; I don't know how much time I have left.

Ciel's body was still violently shaking, an intense internal battle was happening.

Suddenly the shaking ceased, and Ciel's blue eyes shot open.

"Sebastian, I love you" he gazed up at me, "And we will win this battle!" He stood up, and I could see how filthy he was. He was covered in blood, and his skin was bruised. Just because it was an internal battle doesn't mean that there aren't any outer side effects.

"Stand up, Lucifer. You have caused my family and I to be humiliated. You have no right to live, you don't even deserve to burn in hell." Ciel spat venomously at Lucifer.

Lucifer abruptly sat up, reaching for his sword, "Oh, is that so? Well, I still have lots of tricks up my sleeves." He grinned, suddenly, Ciel was pushed against a wall by an invisible force.

"Since you couldn't kill your...Father...then I shall give you first class view for when I do it."

I could see Ciel struggle, but it was useless. That was Lucifer's strongest spell.

This battle was now between Lucifer and I.

"I never lose," Lucifer spat at me.

"Well, neither do I" I smirked. I couldn't lose, Ciel was waiting for me.

Lucifer picked up the knife with his remaining hand. He lunged at me, aiming for my neck. I swiftly dodged and managed to stab him with my knives as I passed him.

He quickly retaliated by my side, causing my abdomen to feel like it was being burned in hell's fires. The pain was so much I stopped moving. I collapsed on to the floor, clutching my side.

"Now then..." Lucifer's eyes lit up with the deep menacing red that Ciel's were when he was possessed, "DIE!"

The knife plunged down through my chest, the pain radiating throughout my body. Out of the corner of my eye I watched as Ciel was released from the wall. He ran to my side, helping me lay back on the floor.

"Now then, Ciel, I shall let you go, but as punishment, you are doomed to living eternity knowing that you were the reason Sebastian died." With that Lucifer disappeared, leviathan and all.

Ciel

"NO!" I watched in horror as the knife plunged through Sebastian's chest. I collapsed off the wall, running as fast as I could towards him.

I could vaguely hear Lucifer talking to me in the background but I was so focussed on Sebastian that I didn't hear what he said.

"Ciel, I love you. You are like a son to me; it is not your fault that this happened."

"No...You can't die! You were supposed to be by my side for eternity! You weren't supposed to leave me!" I sobbed, burying my face in Sebastian's bloodied suit jacket.

"Ciel, it's alright...I will...return..." He smiled gently at me, stroking my hair as he said that.

"No...Please, Sebastian...DON'T LEAVE ME HERE ALONE!" The tears ran freely down my cheeks. I took off his suit jacket and undid his white dress shirt. I quickly ripped his shirt up and used it as gauze; trying to stop the bleeding.

"Ciel...I promise you...I...will...r-return..." I watched as the light faded from his eyes. Returning them to a dulled crimson, mahogany colour.

"DADDY! PLEASE!" I shook his shoulders. Attempting to arouse him from his sleep. He's just sleeping, right? He isn't really dead?

"Daddy, you weren't supposed to leave. This is a very mean joke that you are playing right now. Please wake up daddy..." I sobbed, why didn't anything ever work out for me?

"Daddy..." I collapsed on top of him chest, hugging him close.

Sebastian

I watched from the side as Ciel sobbed. I leant down beside him and placed a gently kiss on the top of his head.

"I promise you, I will return, I have never lied to you, and I do not plan on starting now." I hugged him as sobs wracked his small frame.

"Daddy..." He collapsed on top of my beaten, dead, body. I was almost in tears myself. I set off, looking for my way to re-enter the world.

100 years later

Ciel

I roamed the streets of London aimlessly. I had nothing left for me. I have been wandering the world for the past 100 years. Looking for something that I would never find.

I felt my stomach grumble; instead of eating souls, I just ate human food. I continued down the street, looking for a bakery to get some lunch.

When I finally arrived at a suitable lunch place, I walked up to the counter and placed an order for a piece of chocolate cake.

Daddy would never approve of me eating chocolate cake for lunch. But today was the one day that I disobeyed dad's rules.

Today is the anniversary of his death.

After I paid for the cake I took a seat at a nearby table for two. I apathetically picked up my fork and began to eat my cake. I could feel the tears building up behind my eyes. I quickly wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my sweatshirts.

Since it has been 100 years, the year is 2013. (A/N yeah, this story started in the 1913). Style has really changed; people can wear whatever they want, and not be questioned about it or looked down upon.

As I lifted the fork to my mouth to finish the last bite of my cake I heard the door chimes jingle, signalling someone entered the store. I ignored it and finished my cake.

I went to take my phone out of my pocket, not noticing that someone had pulled up a chair and was sitting across from me at my table.

"Shame on you, you shouldn't be eating cake for lunch. Didn't I tell you that before?" I looked up and my eyes widened with shock.

"Dad..."

"I never tell a lie."

I know...the ending wasn't that great. But that's it! The story is over! This was my first fanfiction ever...sadly; my friend won't be reading it because I didn't reach her review quota of 100. But I guess that's ok because I had so many fabulous and dedicated readers.

Thank-you all so much for reading my story and sticking with it to the end. I understand that there were quite a few uninteresting moments, but I'm working on improving my writing skills.

So, until next time...bye!