Disclaimer: I do not own Junjou Romantica

Giving In

I cannot stand this distance any longer,

I refuse to be stuck on this side of the glass,

Staring at you, but unable to touch you,

Burn me…so that I may feel…

Like you are close once again.

"What happened Misaki? I thought you weren't returning until tomorrow evening." Akihiko was desperately trying to keep his composure. Just the sound of Misaki's voice…that beautiful, honey coated voice…nearly knocked the wind out of him when he answered the phone.

"Nothing happened. I…I'm just coming ho—I mean back early. I really have to get my things together anyway. (silence) ah, well, I'll be there shortly…but I may stop somewhere so—" Misaki was cut off.

"You haven't bought your ticket yet have you?" Akihiko's voice was serious, almost stern.

"Ah. No, but—"

"Wait for me. Right where you are. Wait for me Misaki."

"Wait…what are you—"

"I'll be there in 3 hours. Wait for me in front of the center entrance. I'm on my way."

"Hold on! Usagi-san! That's pointless…I was about to get on the train."

"Misaki, just let me come to you…" Akihiko hung the phone up, and began to quickly set his plans in motion.

Misaki just stood there, barely comprehending what had just happened. He heard the phone click before he could even finish speaking, 'wait for me', Misaki kept replaying that phrase. His chest was tight, his head was spinning, and he could hardly get his breathing under control.

Why? Why is he coming? This doesn't make any sense.

…you know when you see him, it will just make it harder to leave…

I know! I know!

…he wants to make you believe, he wants to make you depend on him to come to you…

No! I don't want that…yes I do…I want to love him…I want to believe he won't abandon me

…oh, but he will…this is just a whim of his, once he gets bored…you'll be on the first train out of his life…just like when Reece left you behind…don't you remember…are you ready to feel like that again…

Shit! I never should have let this happen…I should not be falling in love…I know this…but…he makes me fall…every time he looks at me…every time he speaks, I fall.

…poor, poor Misaki…this heart-break might be worse than the last one…think you'll survive it?...

Most likely not…re-freezing is going to be painful…even more so after a fire as hot as his.

Three hours ticked by rather quickly. Feeling a little nervous, and kind of out of place, Misaki stood obediently in front of the center entrance.

Akihiko saw Misaki, before the boy even realized he had arrived. His heart raced…pounded with each passing second after catching sight of his new personal obsession.

Misaki was leaning against a dark blue column. His weight rested on his left leg. Akihiko's eyes slowly traveled along the boy's body as he approached.

The setting sun…once again was illuminating Misaki perfectly, it was so beautiful surrounding him…it was almost blinding.

Thump. Thump.

That silky chestnut brown hair…falling in a haphazard manner over Misaki's face.

Thump. Thump

The quick flicker of emerald green emerging from down-trodden eyelids.

Thump. Thump.

The glimmer of pale skin showing under the black button up t-shirt, with the top two buttons un-done.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

His slim, skillful fingertips clutching a book of poetry in one hand…the other hidden in his pocket.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

His thick thighs and toned calves hidden under deep, dark blue jeans.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

Misaki was lost in his world of poetry, when he heard familiar footsteps coming close. Part of him was trembling in anticipation…part shaking in fear…part quaking with desire…part searing with agony…it was overwhelming. Then he lifted his green eyes to meet those violet eyes that he knew would be his undoing.

Black dress shoes, clicking on the marble floor.

*breath hitched*

Long legs enveloped in perfectly fitting denim.

*fist clenches in pocket, book in other hand is lowered slowly*

Broad shoulders, muscular chest, toned abdomen…long warm arms…concealed by a white long-sleeve button up, top button undone – barely revealing Akihiko's hot pale skin.

*Heart races, body trembles*

Then he saw them…those god-forsaken amethyst eyes…the eyes that seem to reach into his soul…steal his breath…and squeeze his heart mercilessly.

The sudden rush of intensity that consumed these two lovers in that moment was strong enough to cause a typhoon in each one of them. As soon as he was close enough, Akihiko reached out and took Misaki by the hand.

"Ah. Um, Usagi…" Misaki's entire body shook, the fire from his hand was quickly taking over his icy body.

"Run." Akihiko said. He began to quicken his pace, dragging Misaki along with him. Two quick turns and a flight of stairs later…they were both entering a train, with only seconds to spare.

Both men were panting. Misaki was so confused. He had no idea what train they were on, or where they were going…and he still didn't know why Akihiko had come all that way for nothing. He turned around after catching his breath to ask some questions, but he was taken by surprise.

Akihiko pulled Misaki into a tight embrace, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I almost broke my promise."

"Huh? What are you sorry for? I'm the one who should apologize…why did you—"

"Come all the way here?" Akihiko finished his sentence. "I won't give you up Misaki. Not to anyone. I will never let you go, and I will never abandon you. Do you remember when I told you that?"

"Mm." Misaki couldn't move, and he couldn't speak…he felt like if he opened his mouth in that moment, his heart would surely beat right out of it.

"If I didn't come, you would have never believed in me…I'll work things out with your brother…please…forgive me…stay with me Misaki." Akihiko's voice was dripping with desperation. It was almost enough to break Misaki down, right there.

"Akihiko…I…I can't fall in love with you…why…why do you insist on me…I don't understand." Misaki shut his eyes tight, trembling…waiting…for an answer.

"Do you want to know Misaki?" Akihiko pushed gently on Misaki's shoulders, leaning him back just enough so that their gazes would meet. Misaki just nodded in agreement.

"Then stay with me. Let me show you." Akihiko peered into those emerald eyes, trying to find some hint of confirmation.

Ahhh…this is going to hurt like hell later…"Ok." That was all Misaki could get out.

With that one word…that small answer…Misaki was quickly dragged into a private sleeper car. It was no longer sunset…it was dusk…and the sky was darkening by the second. He heard the sound of the compartment door shutting…and he could no longer find the resolve to stop himself.

Misaki turned himself around and gripped onto the sleeve of Akihiko's shirt. Then his pressed his lips to his…letting the fire take him over. Akihiko quickly responded. He wrapped his arms around the younger man's waist, and pulled him into him. Their tongues clashing rapidly, the heat between them building; Misaki, without breaking the passionate kiss, pressed forward…causing Akihiko to land on the bed, taking him down too.

They were now in the middle of the train car bed; the silk white sheets rippling and curling beneath them. Akihiko was sitting up with Misaki straddling his lap. Akihiko slid his hand into Misaki's soft hair, and tugged…breaking the kiss and causing Misaki to throw his head back and moan. He slowly released his grip, and he watched has Misaki brought his face back down to him. He gently pressed his forehead onto Akihiko's and brought one hand to the author's face.

"I shouldn't be doing this," Misaki whispered, his lips only centimeters away from Akihiko's, "I shouldn't be falling in love with you…do you know what will happen, if you ever stop loving me?" Misaki slowly brought his lips to meet Akihiko's…he planted a soft, gentle, fleeting kiss on those fiery lips he loved so much. Akihiko's warm breath tickled the skin on his face…

"I will disappear

*kiss*

…evaporate…

*kiss*

I will no longer have the strength to breathe Akihiko

*kiss*

If I love you…and lose you

*kiss*

Do you understand?" Misaki pressed fervently on Akihiko's lips this time, trying desperately to convey his fear, and longing into him.

"Misaki, I love you…I will never not love you…I know it's hard to believe me…but (Akihiko pulled his head back, so that their eyes would meet) I can no longer exist without you…I won't let you disappear…or evaporate…I will spend the rest of my life giving you the strength to breathe…if you will let me love you."

Tears slowly began to drip down Misaki's face, causing the moonlight to twinkle against the glistening surface of his deep green eyes. Akihiko moved his hand softly over the cool skin of Misaki's bare arm, bringing it up to caress the young boy's face. He gently used his thumb to interrupt the stream of tears on one side. Then Misaki spoke, in a low...sincere...almost painful voice...

"I love you…I love you so much it hurts…

-Misaki closes his eyes-

You burn me…set my entire world ablaze…

-slightly turns his head into Akihiko's hand-

Never, have I ever, been so overwhelmingly enchanted…

-begins to brush his lips against Akihiko's palm-

You make me dizzy…

*gentle kiss*

You make my heart race, to the point where I feel my chest can no longer contain it…

*kisses only centimeters higher*

Everything about you makes me want to love you with everything I am…

*plants several small kisses up the length of Akihiko's index finger, then turns his eyes to Akihiko's and brings his own hand to grasp the one still lingering on his face…Misaki then slowly places his fingertips against those of Akihiko's*

Akihiko…with these hands…hold me…love me…change my mind…because I love you…so, so much…and I can't stop myself anymore."

Without another thought, another word, Akihiko quickly pressed his face forward claiming Misaki's lips with his own. His heart was numb, his mind foggy, his body quaking…he knew he would never love like this again…that no matter how many days passed, that he would never love anyone else the way he loved Misaki at that very moment.

To Be Continued.

A/N: AHHHH! I AM THE MOST TERRIBLE AUTHOR EVER! I know…first it was finals, then the holidays, then my dang internet screwed up…but I am back…soooooooo sorry…please forgive me and continue to read and review…thanks so much…and yes a hot and steamy sex scene is coming…be prepared :)