~ For Sarah and Yochabel. Always ~

This is a repost of my old story that I posted a couple of months ago. This is AU but it's set after 'Always' but ignores them finally getting together and the events of Season 5.

Disclaimer: I would if I could but I can't so I shant.

Fix You – Chapter One

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

All she wanted since that fateful day, 14 years ago, was justice. She never thought finally facing her mother's killer would come at such a cost. Her whole live was about getting justice for those who were innocently killed. That dedication drove her to become the best cop she could be. But all that hard work just seemed to disappear as soon as that shot was fired. What was she supposed to do now?

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

She called him out of the blue, late that stormy night. Her voice was shaking through the few words she managed to form during their brief phone call. He was surprised to hear from her. After all it had been months. She told him they needed to talk. She said she needed him, and only him. She wanted to meet at the swing set. Their swing set. He could tell she was broken, and knew that maybe she realised how much they meant to each other. Or how much they used to…

He grabbed his coat from the closet and rushed out the door, not taking a moment's pause. It had been 6 months since he last graced the soft features of her face. After he professed his love and she turned him down he honestly thought that they would never be together. Ever. He hadn't spoken to her in months and in all honesty he thought she continued on her mother's case and ended up dead. As cold hearted as it sounded, he assumed that she made the choice to find her mother's killer at any cost.

But there wasn't a day that went by that she didn't cross his mind. Whether he was drinking his cup of coffee in the morning or walking by a police car. She was constantly on his mind. He promised months ago always. That they would be there for each other always. As in without exception; on every occasion; every time. But he couldn't sit around and wait for her to die. And that's why he walked away.

He finally reached his destination. The park. He trudged through the mud as he made his way over to the small swing set. He could see a figure slowly rocking on the swing. He knew it was her. Her face was buried in her hands, as if she was crying. Castle walked up behind her and placed his hand reassuring on her shoulder. She jumped at his touch. She turned around and saw his solemn face. She broke down into tears again. Castle just grabbed her hand and led her off the swing, taking her undercover and away from the rain that wouldn't ease.

He took off his jacket and wrapped it around her cold, dripping wet body. She encompassed it around her as she welcomed the warmth. He noticed that she was fiddling with something in her hand. It was her father's watch.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Her eyes wouldn't meet his. She was staring blankly at the ground.

"Kate" he barely whispered. He gently touched her chin, nudging it upwards.

Her eyes said it all. Kate was no longer wounded. She was broken. It didn't take Castle very long to figure that out.

"He was shot" she managed to form through her sobs. Her eyes adverted to the ground once again. She tried to even out her breathing and explain, but she just simply broke down again, almost collapsing to the ground. But Castle was there to catch her. Always. "He did it."

Castle's eyes widened. No further explanation was needed. Only one man could cause this sudden outburst of emotions. Her Father. Jim Beckett.

Castle extended his arm and wrapped it around her shoulder as a sign of comfort. He pulled her closer, and she buried her head into his chest, much to his surprise.

Kate had been through so much over the last couple of hours. She had nobody left now. Nobody but the man before her. She had pushed him so far away, she thought there was no way he would agree to meet her, let alone spend the time to listen to her. She remembers his declaration of love like it was yesterday. But she couldn't have the kind of relationship she wanted until this was all put to rest. But now it seems it will never be over and this may be her last chance.

"Castle…" her eyes pleaded with his. He saw the hurt, the pain but also the sorrow she was feeling right now. "I love you." The words were barley a whisper, but Kate had never said anything more meaningful in her life. Kate looked deeply into his eyes and thought that he also shared the same love.

She leaned in to kiss him, but he pulled back. But he didn't let go of her. He still held her close to his chest.

"Kate" he once again hushed. "I can't. I'm with someone." She released him immediately as she stepped back. Her eyes drifted off to the floor.

"I have to go." And with that, Kate began to run off into the rain. She dropped the coat not far after she set off running. She never even glanced back.

"Kate" he called out as he began to chase after her. "Kate…" But it was too late. She was out of sight.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I…

Thoughts?