Brittany.

Leaving Santana in Lima was absolutely the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I cried when we kissed goodbye, I cried when I got into my truck, I even cried for the first half hour of the drive towards New York. I just turned up the music in my truck and cried along with heartbreaking medleys. Quinn and Rachel sat next to me with empathetic expressions but I rarely looked at them. They understood why I was so upset. They knew how sad I was to be leaving the love of my life without knowing when I'd see her again or when we'd be reunited for good.

"I think I cried myself dry." I said after turning the music down and looking over to Quinn and Rachel. They both looked at me with that smile, the one that says 'you poor thing' whenever you see it. I wiped my eyes to brush away the lingering tears.

"Maybe if we listened to something a little more upbeat... you might feel better. I, for one, have the perfect mix to play for our road trip to New York." Rachel said pulling out her iPod and plugging in the cord to my radio. I smiled at her attempt to help me out of my heartbreaking moment.

"Please don't put Barbra on, babe." Quinn said rolling her eyes but smiling at Rachel. Rachel huffed and waved her hand at Quinn.

"I wasn't going to put Barbra on sweetie. Although, she is the most talented artist of all time and has many uplifting, inspiring songs for an occasion such as this." Rachel said very matter of factly.

"Let's hear it." I said turning up the radio and motioning for her to turn the playlist on. When the music started I recognized the song immediately. I had sang it for glee club at a pep assembly with Rachel, Quinn, and the rest of the gang. It was my first solo and I had a blast, even though I was paralyzed with fear beforehand.

Tik Tok by Ke$ha blared through my speakers and the mood of our car ride immediately changed. We jammed to Rachel's Glee Club playlist and sang along to almost every song. It helped to keep my heart from hurting over the thought of moving further and further away from Santana. We had a dance off while I drove down the road and I had to admit it was pretty fun. After a few hours we made a pit stop at a gas station off the exit ramp. We all had to pee and Rachel wanted to buy a souvenir that said Pennsylvania on it. I wasn't even sure what town we were in but it seemed pretty small from where we got off the highway.

"We're getting closer and closer. I think we should take a photo to capture our pit stop. It will go great in my scrapbook and I'm sure it'll end up in some 'Before I was Famous' interview all about how I made it to New York and became a broadway star." Rachel said as we walked out of the bathroom. We were standing in the hallway that held the shower stalls that truck drivers paid to use on long trips. She pulled Quinn and me into her and before I knew what was happening I saw the flash go off.

"Rachel! I wasn't ready." I told her she smiled and turned back to her iPhone.

"Ready? 1,2,3. Say broadway!" She said smiling for the camera and I put on my silliest face, crossing my eyes and filling my mouth up with air to puff my cheeks out. She turned the camera around and scoffed at the picture.

"Brittany, we need to take another one." She said with a serious tone. I laughed when I saw the photo and shrugged.

"Will you at least send that to me?" I asked before we posed for another shot. This time I put on a cute smile and Rachel approved of the photo. She sent me both copies and I forwarded them to Santana.

To Sexiest Girlfriend Ever: Rachel's making us take pics at gas stations. Rambling about having some special someday on her trip to New York to become a broadway star. I miss you already. Well I missed you the instant we weren't touching but that sounds a bit pathetic, I guess. By the way did you change your name in my phone? It's so true ;] No one's sexier than you. I love you. xoxo -B

I sent her a text explaining the pics and then we all headed back to the truck after Rachel got her Pennsylvania magnet and key chain. We were making somewhat good time and after Rachel checked in with her Dad's it seemed like they were around the same area as we were only a few miles ahead. They were driving Rachel's car while a moving company drove the truck full of furniture. The bed of my truck was loaded with things as well. We were pretty well off with everything from both our parents and some things from Abuela.

My phone vibrated in my pocket and I reached for it trying to open the message from Santana. It was quickly snatched from my hand by Quinn who was in the middle seat.

"No texting and driving. We know how badly that can end." She told me in a serious tone. She had gotten into a car accident last year while texting and driving. She had been texting Rachel while rushing to be on time for work one day after school. She was in a wheelchair for a few months while doing physical therapy. I realized I wouldn't even have thought twice to text Santana back if neither girl was in the car right now.

"Will you at least read it to me?" I pleaded. She smiled and opened the text.

"You look cute. Especially sexy in the cross eyed pic. I'm going to keep my mouth shut about the Rachel situation... girl's nuts. I miss you more. I missed you before we even stopped touching... I may have changed it, I'm glad you like it. I love you xoxo -S" Quinn read aloud. She let out a whiny awe noise making fun of our sappy I miss you's.

"Will you text her back and tell her... I took the cross eyed pic for her and I'll call her the next pit stop we take... make sure you say I love you and sign it like I'm the one typing." I told her and she rolled her eyes at me with a wide smile plastered across her lips.

After a few more hours it was time for another pit stop. We were a little under two hours away from NYC and our excitement had grown with every mile. Even though I was excited to be getting closer, I still felt that dull ache in my heart that tugged tighter and tighter as I moved further away from Santana. It was like we were connected and the further away I got the tighter the string was pulled.

Rachel had to buy another key chain and magnet for her collection because we were now in New Jersey. We took another picture and before I went back to the car I pulled my phone out to call Santana. It rang a few times before she picked up and my heart fluttered at the sound of her voice.

"Hello gorgeous." She breathed into the phone with an extra rasp behind her voice that tickled my stomach. I smiled into the phone and wished so badly that she was in front of me talking to me right now. I had barely made it nine hours and I already missed her more than I could even explain.

"Hi beautiful. I'm so happy to hear your voice." I told her. I felt like it had been ages since we'd talked even though we talked this morning before I left.

"I know, I feel like the biggest sap on the face of the earth but I can't help it you're so perfect and I miss you more than I can even explain in words." Santana replied.

"I don't know how I'm going to survive this. I wish I could just turn around and come back to you." I admitted. She sighed into the other end and I took a deep breath in.

"I know babe. I hope you're at least having some fun with Rachel and Quinn." She said trying to change the subject.

"We're having fun. We've been listening to this really awesome playlist of all the original versions of the songs we've performed in glee club and rocking out." I told her. She chuckled into the phone and I was sure she'd pictured all of us jamming in my truck.

"That sounds like torture as far as I'm concerned. I mean listening to Rachel sing that is. I'd love for you to give me a private concert." She joked.

"Well, maybe when you come to visit, you'll get lucky." I told her.

"I'm not even sure when that's going to be. I'm thinking in like two weeks if I can afford a plane ticket." She explained. Well two weeks was an awfully long time but we'd have to adjust somehow.

"I can't wait. I'll start counting down the minute you buy your ticket. I can help pay for it." I told her.

"No, it's okay. You'll have enough to pay for out there. I can pay for it." She said. Rachel and Quinn both walked up on either side of me staring at me with death glares. I let out a deep breath knowing they wanted me to get off the phone.

"Baby, I have to go. Rachel and Quinn are staring at me like I'm robbing a bank by talking to my girlfriend on the phone for five minutes…. I'm sorry I'm not lucky enough to have my girlfriend here with me so back off and I'll be out in a second." I said into the phone before turning to each of the girls on either side of me.

"I'll let you go Britt Britt. Call me when you get time after you've settled in." Santana said as I watched Quinn and Rachel head back to the car.

"I will I love you." She told me she loved me too before we hung up and I went towards the car.

The last two hours of the trip seemed to feel like the longest. Traffic got worse and worse the closer we got to New York. Rachel was being overly excited while I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed by anxiety about living in such a huge area. I knew I'd be getting lost a lot more than I was used to. I was hoping Rachel would have my back in that department and help me around the city. She's been here so many times on trips with her Dad's and for nationals with glee club.

When we pulled up to our apartment building I was thankful for the empty spot that fit my truck perfectly. I looked to my right at the tall brick building that I now called home. It just looked like your everyday brick building. It had those black metal ladder fire escapes with the landings at every level. I wondered if people hung out on those or if they were just for emergencies. It looked scary but sometimes scary things are the most fun.

"Oh my god we're here. You're going to love it Brittany. I wish you could have came with us to see it!" Rachel said. I opened my door slightly and squeezed my way out so that I didn't have to worry about some crazy New York driver running into my truck.

"Well, we're here now and I'm sure it's amazing. I would expect nothing less from you." I told her with a smile. She grabbed Quinn's arm and pulled her towards the door. We already had our own copies of the keys and I knew that our apartment was on the sixth floor. I walked around my truck and grabbed a few things from the load to carry inside, no sense in wasting a trip.

When I walked inside I was happy to see that the walls were painted a deep royal blue that sent a calm feeling through my body. I didn't know what I was expecting but for the cheap price of our rent I didn't think we'd have some super swanky pad. I walked down the hall and found a door leading to the stairs on the left but then saw the elevator up a ways to the right. It was one of those open elevators with the scary gates. I carried the boxes to the lift and pressed the six button. When I got to our floor the hallway was empty and I wondered how Quinn and Rachel disappeared so quickly. I walked down the hallway to the left and saw our apartment number on a grey door. Apartment 646, my new home. I opened the door and walked into the apartment. I could barely see over the boxes in my arms. The first thing I noticed was the nice new wood floors. They were a dark cherry color and shined in the light from the windows. When I looked to the left I saw a good sized kitchen. There was a bar outlining the room with stools in front of it. The appliances all looked pretty new and everything looked really clean. I turned to my right before taking my first step through my new apartment. I saw an open empty room which I assumed we'd use for a dining area.

I walked a few steps through an open archway into a wide open space with windows as tall as me lining the exterior wall. I figured this would be the living room. The walls were all a freshly painted white and it reminded me of being in a hospital. There was a fireplace in the wall to the right which made me somewhat excited. I knew we'd have to paint to make it feel more inviting.

"Rachel!" I yelled wondering where the two girls had ran off to. I set down my boxes in the middle of the would be living room.

"We're in here." She yelled from a room off down the hallway on the right. I followed the sound of her voice to find her in an empty room. It was pretty large for a bedroom and it had a walk in closet.

"This is going to be my room. Your room is down the opposite hall on the left. We both have our own bathrooms and walk in closets. Don't ask how we got this amazing place. My Dad's pulled some string with an old friend who owns the building, that's all I can say." She explained smiling from the floor where she and Quinn had been sitting against one another.

"This is amazing Rachel. I love it." I admitted smiling and walking around her room. She jumped up in excitement and we all practically ran out of the room. I heard a loud buzzing noise and it made me jump through my skin.

"That's the buzzer. I bet my Dad's are here or maybe the moving company. Let's go check it out." She said motioning towards the front door. She reached towards a plastic box in the wall that had a few different buttons on it. Each one had a word printed above it; talk, listen, door.

She lingered over the talk button with a smile across her lips.

"This is the first time we'll be answering the door in our new apartment. This is so exciting. Take a picture Quinn please." She said handing her camera to the blonde next to me. We both laughed and I leaned in reaching my finger over Rachel's to pose with her. She smiled at the camera and I saw the flash go off. I had made another goofy face but I hoped Rachel wouldn't mind this time. She put her phone away without looking at the photo and pressed the button.

"Hello." Was all she said, which is odd for Rachel Berry.

"Hello darling, it's us." I heard Mr. Berry say through the intercom. She smiled and pressed the door button.

We all waited patiently for her Dad's to make it to our apartment. We stood in the kitchen looking around at everything in awe of our new living space. I couldn't keep the smile off my lips even though inside my stomach was twisting at the feeling of wishing Santana were here to share this place with me.

Here's to a new chapter with Brittany and Santana. Sucks that they're apart but it's awesome that we get Pierceberry roomies. More to come soon :] Can't wait to hear what you think.

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