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Two words

Chapter 1

Tori's POV

This is fucking killing me. I've been lying on my bed staring at the ceiling for the last half an hour and it's still killing me. I'm attracted to Jade West and I want her to be my girlfriend. It's just that simple, the problem is that it's not simple at all.

First of all of course she's a girl, and that's weird in itself. I've starting having doubts about my sexuality about a 2 years ago. I still find boy's attractive and cute, but I started to think the same things about women. It started with little things; I would find myself admiring some gal's figure or just marvel at how her hair looks.

I would catch myself and try and shove those thoughts out of my mind. I would say I'm confused, or its rampaging hormones or it's just a phase. I eventually realized it was none of those things. The thoughts about other women just kept coming. It was hard, I didn't know who to talk to and even if I had what the hell would I say.

My parents are pretty understanding so wouldn't kick me out or anything like that. At least I had that going. Some people can have very unpleasant reactions. I knew a guy named Mike at my old school that had a friend who told him he was gay. After that Mike never spoke to his friend again. The person who came out didn't even come onto him or anything like that, he just said he was gay and suddenly he found his friend suddenly hated him.

Regardless of my personal situation my opinion of Mike dropped drastically. I don't go to his school anymore but even if I did, I wouldn't have anything to do with him. I've always tried to be a good and true friend. You shouldn't put a price tag on friendship. I can't say that stuff like that didn't worry me. I go to an "Arts" school so the student body is much more open but one must never underestimate people's capability to be closed minded. It's a sad fact of life.

The feelings intensified when I got to Hollywood Art's High school, especially when I met the Blue eyed, paled skinned Goth girl known as Jade West. Something about her drives me nuts every time I see her. "She's fucking beautiful", that was the very first thing that went through my mind when I saw her.

Those blue eyes penetrate down to my very soul every time she looks at me, that smirk just turns me to Jelly when ever I see it. Her attitude just draws me in, every time she insults me I just want to pull her in kiss her and make her mine. This seems crazy, but some do say that Love itself is a form of insanity.

There are others I find attractive. Cat herself is rather cute but her childlike demeanor isn't too appealing to me. She is a good friend and I'm happy with that. Jade is in a class by herself. In my mind there are Jade and then all the others. I just can't get her out of my head. I do know now that I am attracted to women which is just who I am. The frustrating part of all this is that I had to be attracted to THAT WOMAN.

Why do we always want the unreachable ones the most? She hates me, with a passion apparently and no matter how hard I try to just be her friend, I'm make little of any headway.

She did a scene in acting class today and just blew me away with her performance. Afterward I made a point to say "That was really good Jade, I really liked your performance"

She just looked at me like I was covered in shit and said "I don't fucking care what you think, Vega" and just walked away.

I think if she had punched me in the stomach at that moment, it wouldn't have hurt as much as her words did.

Why does she hate me? I like her. I want to make her happy. I try to be nice to her every day. I try to be her friend and a good friend. Maybe she felt threatened thinking I would go after Beck. But the thing is I never did go after beck, even after they broke up. She seemed to only hate me more after that.

But it still remains that I want her. I want to tame her and make her mine. I'd probably have an easier time taming a Tiger.

The thing is I can't just pine away for her forever, I can't move past her but I cant get to her. I've been thinking that I should indulge myself in some small tiny way, I may start to be able to get all of this out of my system.

I can't just tell her, that seems impossible. If I did she would probably go out of her way to humiliate me. I could write her some long anonymous note, saying how I feel. Sometimes I don't even know how I feel. I want her, but part of me wants to get past her. Anything I could say would just be contradicted by some other part of me.

I was saying before that it was that simple that I liked Jade West. Perhaps I should make my action very simple. An anonymous note yes, but make it very simple.

"Just 2 words" I said out loud.

I'm going to indulge my passion for Jade and allow myself 2 words. I could do one or 3 or 5 but 2 seems like a good number. 2 is an unusual number, it's the only even prime number my algebra teacher tells me.

Which two words though.

I closed my eyes for a moment and thought of which two words did I want to say to Jade. The first words through my head when I saw Jade was "Your fucking beautiful" so I will lose the middle word and write

"You're Beautiful" Short simple and it is how I feel.

I just thought of something, if I leave a note, I'll be she thinks its from a guy. I want her to know a woman likes her. I need to know how she will react. Then I will know for sure if I stand any kind of chance.

So I hopped off the bed and walked to my desk. In the top drawer was some paper. After a moment I found what I was looking for. Several sheets of pink paper that I left over from a school project last semester.

"Perfect" I said as I pulled out one. I used a scissors, which is fitting considering it's for Jade and cut a strip about 4 inches long and 2 inches wide.

Then I wrote in neat block letters, if I wrote in my handwriting she may recognize it. "You're beautiful"

It looked great but I wanted to have no doubt a girl liked her. She may not even go for that, and I need to know now. I needed something else.

"Duh…Perfume" I said aloud. I went to my dresser and looked at the various bottles, some 2 or I used regularly. I couldn't use one of those, but I had others which I didn't use. In the back there was a bottle of expensive perfume my aunt and uncle had brought back from Italy for me last month. The label was in Italian and said "Desiderare" which I think means desire in Italian. I sprayed a bit in the air, it smelled wonderful, reminded me of channel a bit.

I sprayed just a small amount on the strip and it was ready.

I began to feel almost giddy about the whole thing. At least now I was doing something about it, even it was a wholly futile gesture. Now I just needed to get it in her locker and see if I can observe any reaction.

I thought for a moment, I had observed that she usually goes straight from 3rd to 4th period without stopping at her locker so that was a good time to strike.

The next day I had my little note ready tucked in my purse. You could still smell the perfume, not to strong, no to faint. I was nervous as hell as I walked in the school. Like somehow the entire student body would somehow be able to just know that I had a note for Jade in my purse.

My heart skipped a beat as I saw Jade by her locker as I walked in. She was in her usual attire, combat boots, black leggings, black and green plaid skirt with a black top and several gold and silver chains. I tried to act nonchalant and gave her a smile as I headed to my locker. She said nothing but just eyed me suspiciously.

I went to my locker and opened it to get my books. After I pulled my books out I looked back at her locker but she was gone. I would drop the note now but I saw cat standing nearby talking to Robbie, so I just headed to class.

My nerves were shot by the end of 3rd period. Jade was in my 2nd period class but she just ignored me today. I hate it when she ignores me. After 3rd I pulled out the slip and moved quickly towards Jade's locker.

My heart was just about to beat itself out of my chest as I neared the scissor covered locker. I tried to calm myself down "Your just putting a note in a locker, not like your on some dangerous commando mission." I said to myself to try to calm myself down.

Of course the next thought was, "This is Jade's locker, and it actually is dangerous."

I had this fear that as soon as I shoved it in, she would be standing there just staring at me with those piercing blue eyes. My hands started to sweat and my stomach suddenly felt like someone turned it inside out. The hallway near jades locker was full of students but Jade was no where in sight.

I then moved in and struck, quickly and quietly slipping the note in the slit in her locker door and quickly rushed away. No one seemed to notice which was great. I wanted to celebrate my victory but I had become so nervous and my stomach so upset I went into the bathroom and threw up.

After worshiping the porcelain god as the saying goes I cleaned myself up and went to my next class. I had this irrational feeling that Jade would hunt me down at any second. As I dried my hands in the bathroom, I kept eyeing the door half expecting a certain persons black combat boot to suddenly kick it open.

Fourth period was math and I went to class and tried to concentrate. After this class Jade would go to her locker and then go to lunch. I hoped to catch glimpse of her reading the note or see how her attitude at lunch would be. I was starting to get giddy.

After the bell rang I made it down to the lockers but didn't see Jade, she may have beaten me and already left. My heart started to beat faster again. I just had to know how she reacted so I could possible get this out of my system or know I had a chance with the "Goth of my dreams."

I closed my locker and went to lunch at the asphalt café. Since I blew chunks earlier in the morning I was hungry again so I was looking forward to eating. I was looking forward to seeing Jade more.

My heart dropped when everyone was there except Jade. She was almost always at the table before me. Where she shoots daggers with her eyes at me if I dare to sit too close to her at the table. I sat down, greeted my friends and started eating. I tried to act as if nothing was wrong but my eyes kept darting to the door which Jade would usually come out of, nothing.

After about 10 minutes I was practically dying to know where Jade was. Did she read my note and flee in terror, or is still trying to hunt me down, what?

"Where's Jade? She's gong to miss all of lunch." I said trying to act like I didn't care.

Cat swallowed a mouthful of food and looked at me "Jade had to go to the dentist to get 2 cavities filled so she left right after 4th period and she will be gone for the rest of the day" Without missing a beat she added "My brother bit his dentist, he needs a new dentist now."

"Arrrrgh" I screamed mentally screamed in my head.

All of this, the making of the note, the nervousness, throwing up afterward, and I'm thwarted by tooth decay. Perhaps if she spent a little less time playing with scissors and more time flossing I wouldn't be sitting her in a state of utter frustration.

I couldn't ask about the note without giving myself away and I am now firmly back at square one. I thought two words might do the trick but that didn't work so I will indulge myself with Two more words.

I just had an idea and burned this chapter in a short amount of time. Does anyone want me to continue?