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Santana lay emotionless in her childhood bed basking in the memories of her teen years. Flashes of blonde hair and blue orbits and the butterflies she felt that came with fresh love she once expressed to a certain blonde once upon a time in the very sheets she now found herself lying in between. Waiting for the blonde to return with a drink of water she let her mind wander.
"I'm not doing it again!" exclaimed a teen Santana to a begging Brittany while lying in her bed after a long week of the same routine,
"babe….please….ill do that thing that you like" Brittany said with pleading eyes and a toothy grin while Santana looked back at her while contemplating her options.
"I'm doing it once and that's it!"
"Yay! Ok im ready!"
The brunette sat up in her bed preparing her facial expressions to match that of Rachel berry and said in a very Rachel berry voice "while I appreciate everyone's input in this weeks musical number, Mr Shuester and myself have decided that my Barbra Streisand solo will be our final nationals number, and Santana I do not appreciate you putting your crumbs in my hair whilst I am warming up my vocal chords!"
"oh my god! Your sooo good at being Rachel! Dead on babe!" Brittany exclaimed after watching her girlfriend perfect a rachel berry impersonation
"I don't know whether I should take it as a compliment or not…" Santana replied while turning to lay back down in Brittany's arms,
"hmmm" Brittany kisses the top of Santana's head "maybe you could go to college for acting" Brittany suggests but notices Santana's muscles tense at the mention of college.
"I don't think I can get into college for acting just because I can pull off a grade A impersonation of a hobbit…anyway I don't want to talk about college" Santana's struggles with leaving Lima and graduating were becoming more evident the closer it came for everyone to decide on their inevitable futures,
"but babe you cant keep putting the topic off and I don't understand why you're having such a hard time leaving a town that doesn't accept us" Brittany presses on and regrets it as soon as the Latina huffs and sits up creating space between them and focusing her eyes on her hands playing with the sheet,
"just drop it Britt!"
Brittany looks back at her girlfriend offended at her outburst and moves to get out of the Latinas bed looking for her cheerio's tracksuit pants and jumper. After finding both items on the floor after the rush the two girls were in two discard them she slips her legs in the pants while the Latina huffs and mentally scolds herself for snapping at her girlfriend.
"where are you going?" Santana asks after watching Brittany get dressed
"To the spare room, I forgot my keys and its too late to go home and I'm not angry enough to walk all that way" Brittany replies in an annoyed tone toward Santana
"But you are angry?" Santana presses on
"As soon as you decide you want to talk about our future, if you even want us to have one then ill be there but until then im not wallowing in your self pity with you when this should be so exciting for us! And I don't like the way you snapped at me"
"Brittany come on…im sorry" Santana pleads with puppy dog eyes
"goodnight" Brittany turns and leaves the room while Santana listens to her footsteps pad across the hall not 5 metres away, Santana lets out a large breath and scolds herself for being an idiot.
Its not that she doesn't want a future with Brittany of course she does, she wants to spend the rest of her life with that girl, she is just scared of having to start again in a new city. Santana throws the sheet off her legs and swings around out of her bed finds some shorts and a singlet and throws them on before opening her door to apologise to a certain blonde.
Just as she steps into the hall her mother opens the front door and can see Santana from the bottom of the stair case.
"hi mija" Maribel addresses Santana
"hi mum"
"sorry Im so late from work, did you manage dinner?" she questioned further
"that's ok, papi cooked" Santana answered briefly knowing the long line of 20 questions coming her way as to why she was standing in the middle of the hallway at midnight
"ok mija…uh…what are you doing if you don't mind me asking?" Maribel asked
"Brittany is in the spare room and I..uh…was just-" before Santana could finish her sentence Maribel clicked her tongue knowing her daughters temperament would have caused Brittany to punish her by sleeping in the spare room,
"mija, girls are sensitive you have to watch what you say and I un doubtedly know you said something to cause Brittany to banish herself to the spare room…"
"thanks mum you're support is overwhelming please contain what belief you have in me to yourself" Santana sarcastically bites back feeling slightly offended her own mother assumes their sleeping arrangements are the cause of Santana.
Maribel rolls her eyes and walk off past the stairs to head into her bedroom yelling "goodnight Santana!"
Santana walks to Brittany's door and puts her ear to it for a good 2 minutes unsure herself of what she was expecting to hear and just as she is about to twist the knob without knocking the door is pulled from the other side and an unamused looking Brittany is standing before her,
"I swear you are the heaviest breather, it was like darth vader was standing outside my door…what were you expecting to hear with your ear up against the door? A rave party?" Santana rolls her eyes at Brittany's wit and grabs the blondes hand in between them "can I come in?" Santana asks pleadingly,
"are you ready to talk?" Brittany questions straight away "yes" was Santana's reply and Brittany accepts it and tugs on Santana's hand pulling her into the spare room, she takes a look around like she's never been in the room before and takes a seat on the dishevelled bed and then looks up at an expecting Brittany,
"I like what you've done with the place" Santana states and Brittany rolls her eyes knowing Santana would try and make light of the situation,
"Santana!",
"okay , okay, lets talk!" Santana says throwing her hands in the air, Brittany makes her way over to the bed as well and takes a seat next to the Latina and turns to face her girlfriend.
"What are you so scared of?" Brittany asks while reading the Latinas face as she turns to face Brittany as well.
Santana takes a breath and thinks before answering,
"I don't know…it will be like starting again, new friends, new surroundings, new people to judge us…I only just got comfortable here…" Brittany takes both of Santana's hands and brings them up to her lips peppering them with kisses
"okaaay… and what else?"
"Its not that easy britt, what if we don't get into the same college and then your in new york and im in bum fuck ohio"
Brittany snorts and rolls her eyes "ill go wherever you go…",
"see I can see it already…you get into some amazing dance college and I don't get in to any and then you stay here with me and resent me for the rest of our lives because you're a carpet cleaning lady and I stay at home and raise our 10 cats"
"that's sounds like the life to me babe" Brittany replies to Santana's over dramatic prediction with a toothy grin
"I'm serious what if I hold you back? I want you to promise me right now that you wont ever deny an opportunity because of me."
Santana pleads with Brittany but Brittany rolls her eyes "I can't do that Santana"
"what why not?" Santana asks
"because I don't ever want to be without you and we cant make irrational decisions now, when it comes to it then we will deal with it…"
after looking into each others eyes for a few seconds brittany presses on "we can apply and take one step at a time, no need to get a head of ourselves, we can take it one step at a time…and we don't have to worry what other people think because I saw on the 60 minutes special the other night that like ohio and a select other few states are a bit behind on the whole no more homophopia and equality for all movement"
Santana chuckles and bit and squeezes her girlfriends hands that are now resting in her lap "you know I love you right? And im sorry for snapping I just feel a lot of pressure at the moment from everyone…but I want to go wherever you go too and we will make it through anything ok?"
Brittany pulls Santana to the top of the bed so they can lay down and after adjusting themselves so Brittany has her head resting on Santana chest.
A few moments of comfortable silence passes and Brittany replies "I love you too" to which Santana just kisses her temple and turns off the lamp next to the bed and Brittany speaks up again "I forget every time I come in here that when the lights go off that coat rack looks like a scare crow that wants to murder me" Santana looks to the coat rack and after a second of analysing brittany's words grabs her hand and makes a run for her room across the hall.
"What are you thinking about?" Brittany asks as she enters Santana's old room with two glasses of water in her hand where she finds the brunette laying with a small smile tugging at her lips,
"you and uh the serial killer scare crow across the hall".
It has been 6 years since that night Santana was reminiscing about and now living in new York in a nice apartment together after finishing college with a law degree and Brittany being a successful dancer, dancing in Broadway shows and small tours she thinks its silly that she ever worried they wouldn't make it work.
"Please don't remind me about him babe!" Brittany scolds as she makes her way to the bedside to put the glasses down and get into the bed with the Latina she notices her girlfriends not all there behaviour and lovingly strokes her hair out of her eyes when the Latina turns to her girlfriend and barely smiles at her "are you okay babe? I know it's been a big day, and your mum hasn't moved from his recliner all night, should we do something?" Brittany asks in a worried tone,
"I'm okay, it just feels weird being here and dad's not here, I don't think I'd accepted his death until seeing the coffin and now its like numb, you know?"
Brittany doesn't answer her because she doesn't know what it feels like so instead she presses a kiss to the Latinas forehead, then her cheek and eventually a lingering kiss on her mouth.
"mum will be okay…I think…lets just go to bed and hopefully wake up tomorrow and this will all just be a dream okay" Brittany nods slowly and pulls the covers up over them both and the Latina turns on her back so Brittany can spoon her from behind,
"I love you" Brittany whispers before kissing the Latinas shoulder, not long after Santana releases a long breath and an "I love you more" before drifting off to sleep.
The next morning the sun is what wakes the blonde first and she looks to the clock on the bedside table and she decides she will let her girlfriend dream longer in world where her father did not just pass away. She untangles herself from the brunette and the covers and quietly makes her way down the stairs where she can see Maribel Lopez staring off into the distance still sitting in her husbands recliner with tear tracks down her cheeks and a numb expression on her face, Brittany notices her shivering and walks toward the ottoman that she knows stores blankets where she grabs the one she knows is the warmest and walks toward an emotionless Maribel, Brittany places the blanket over her and kisses her on top of her head, at the contact Maribel finally acknowledges the presence of someone else "thank you mija" Brittany presses her lips together before asking if she needs anything else just shakes her head and motions for the blonde to take a seat the couch next to her Brittany complies
"how is Santanita?" Maribel asks after a brief moment of sitting in silence,
"she is ok, I think she is dealing with It in her own way you know…but she is worried about you…we can stay as long as you need us, I already took time off and Santana spoke to her boss at the firm he said to take what she needs so whatever you need okay?"
Maribel shows an honest smile of appreciation which is the first emotion Brittany has seen for a few days
"you are too sweet Brittany, ill be fine okay and tell your parents thank you for the flowers they were very beautiful"
Brittany smiles back "Santana and I going there for dinner if you would like to come, maybe it would be good to get out of the house for a bit…we don't have to stay for long you just let me know when you are ready to leave" Brittany offers and Maribel considers the offer knowing she should get out of the house but doesn't think she can put on the brave face just yet
"thank you sweetie but maybe in a few days" Brittany nods understandingly and gets up from the couch
"call me if you need anything ill be upstairs okay?",
"okay mija" Maribel replies and holds her arms out gesturing for a hug and Brittany easily finds comfort in the arms she has found to be like a second mother ever since she was 13 when Santana and her became friends.
When Brittany returns to the bedroom Santana is lying awake staring straight ahead with her back against the headboard, she makes her way over to the Latina and cuddles up to her side knowing Santana will find comfort in her, "wasn't a dream was it?" Santana states dryly Brittany just shakes her head no and the Latina kisses her forehead and releases a breath she didn't know she was holding.
"Are you sure you'll be okay to go to my parents tonight because we don't have to" Brittany says gently
"Babe ill be fine plus I need to get outta here…now come here" Santana replies and pulls the blonde on top of her so Brittany is now straddling her and bucks her hips up with a cheeky grin on her face but Brittany isn't impressed and Santana already knows what's on her mind so she starts kissing the blondes neck and jaw and running her hands across the small of her back, Brittany moans at the touch and immediately pulls back looking straight into the Latinas eyes
"San, I feel weird being sexual right now with everything that is going on" the Latina just rolls her eyes and smiles at her girlfriends guilty expression
"well what about that time your cat died and you wanted to have sex and I gave in" Brittany laughs at Santana's comparison
"I hardly think you can even compare the situations…one we were 16 and it was a cat, two since when have you ever had to give in to sex like its some sort of job for you and three your grieving mother is downstairs!" Santana pulls her hands out from the back of the blonde's top and nods her head a bit ashamed
"you're right. I'm sorry" after sharing a few pecks the Latina says she's going to check on her mum and leaves the room.
After spending the day lazing around the house and organising a few things for Maribel who eventually moved to the bedroom to get a few hours sleep the girls were ready for dinner at the pierces who they saw briefly at the funeral but haven't seen them since last Christmas and it is now august. They pull up to the house and Brittany cuts the engine and turns to Santana before she gets out of the car,
"do you want to make like an escape word?" Santana looks back at Brittany a little surprised
"babe its dinner with your parents, not Quinn and Berry we don't need an escape word" Brittany laughs at that
"I don't help but notice you never actually use the escape word when we hang out with them" Brittany mocks Santana knowing that she secretly loves hanging out with their friends back in New York but would never willingly admit it
"that's because you made the escape word vagina knowing I cant say that word while looking berry in the eye" Santana defends herself as she is getting out of the car and walking toward the front door she knows so well hand in hand with a grinning Brittany but before they can even knock the door is opened and they are both being engulfed by Brittany's 16 year old sister Emily who looks exactly like the older pierce but with green eyes
"oh my god! I missed you guys! You have no Idea what its like living with these lunatics!" she whispers the last part and Brittany and Santana hug her back individually
"missed you too kid" Santana replies "and I do know what its like living with a lunatic" Santana jokes and winks at the younger version of Brittany which gets her a pinch on the arm from her blonde
"Ow! I was talking about my first college roommate! Remember her…she was crazy" Santana laughs it off knowing Brittany caught her out.
They make their way into the kitchen where Ava pierce is cooking away and Paul Pierce is setting the table, once they are aware of the company they both stop what they are doing and make their way over to greet the girls Ava hugs Santana first and kisses her on the cheek
"im so sorry about your loss Santana, if you or Maribel need anything, you let us know okay?" Santana smiles back at Ava
"thanks Ava I will let her know and thank you for the flowers they were beautiful" after she has hugged Santana she moves onto Brittany and Paul gives Santana a hug but doesn't say anything just a tight squeeze at the end says enough and Santana appreciates it then turns to Brittany who is currently telling her mother she promises to call more often and that they have just been so busy with the Broadway show she is currently dancing in and Santana's job at the law firm.
When Santana and Brittany first came out to their families no one was shocked of the news as they had been attached at the hip from the very first day they met and they were pretty certain their parents had secretly loved the idea that they weren't off gallivanting around with boys and wouldn't come home knocked up. Santana had always been welcome in the Pierce family, she went on every family vacation with them, was included in every Christmas photo and Paul had even tried to do the whole what are your intentions with my daughter but Santana couldn't keep a straight face and they laughed together for 10 minutes.
Now sitting at the dinner table enjoying a pierce home cooked meal she could not feel more comfortable and at home, they ate and enjoyed each others company and asked about Brittany's dance and how Santana is liking the law firm and make plans for future visits. Brittany often feels likes she is missing out on seeing Emily grow up into a young woman and whenever she gets the chance grills her about the details of school and love life.
"So…who's this weeks conquest?" Brittany jokes to her younger sister who laughs sarcastically at Brittany's lame attempt at asking who she is seeing
"ooooo his name is Michael and is very buff darling" Ava contributes to brittany's antics unknowingly, Santana bites back a laugh and Paul doesn't look to be enjoying the new subject in conversation, Brittany grins and presses on
"but how buff mum? Like the rock buff? Or more of a ryan gosling buff?" she presses her lips together knowing her mum will continue and Emily just covers her face with her hands
"ummm I would say…taylor laughtner buff...isnt that right sweetie?"
Emily moves her hands and scowls at Brittany who just laughs and nods her head
"He is in the football team and is very sweet, he came over for dinner the other night and is very well mannered" ava continues the conversation and Santana looks to Paul who shares a brief eye roll with Santana, Brittany notices their hidden conversation and smiles to herself feeling how lucky she is.
After dinner they spend the rest of the night watching TV until it gets late and they share their goodbyes promising to see them before they leave and tickets to Brittany's show.
When they get back to Santana's house they notice a car in the driveway and share look over the console as if to say who could that be?
will continue depending on reviews! will be rated M later on for sexy times! brittana and faberry to come in New york! already half way through the next chapter. REVIEW :)