Hello, brother. You'll never hear this, oh no, I'm much too coward for that. But I have to at least say I tried, right? It's time I told you something, anything. We both know I stopped after you began school.

Shards of glass shatter against the limp body... A man in the shadows screams his anguish over finding his dead wife...

I' m a bad person, and I know it. The problem is that I'm not you, Sirius. That's always been the problem, hasn't it?

A cruel laugh sounds as the mind of yet another defenseless muggle cracks. It has always been as obvious as gunshot when that happens...

I'm not Potter, or Lupin, or you. I'm not brave, or strong, or a Gryffindor.

Wind seemed to pull at my mask, daring me to pull it off as Bellatrix had. I didn't. I didn't want you to see me there...

I'm pathetic, cruel, weak...

I slipped into the shadows... Waiting, watching... One curse and everything would be over... One curse and Edgar Bones will cease to exist...

And do you know what else I am, Sirius? No, of course you don't.

My lips curled as I spat on the body of a filthy muggle woman. It was only then I realized; she was pregnant...

How could you? The moment I became a Slytherin was the moment you began to ignore me. Don't deny it; I know you can't.

My wand hand trembled wildly, not of cold. Even though I tried desperately to tell myself that was why. I knew it wasn't... I was scared...

So here it is brother. My big secret.

I looked at the ravaged child with horror. It had been full moon, and Greyback had been busy...

It's actually not that big. Well, not for anyone else that is.

It should have been easy. Two quick killing curses. I didn't do it. I ran.

Well here it is, Siri.

I crouched in the Alleyway, knowing they were following. I was right.

My life's over. I've got no time left here...

Bella was in the lead. Of course she was. I could expect no mercy.

Here goes...

She raised her wand...

I'm going to die.

"Avada Kedavra."

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter. All recognizable characters and places are J.K. Rowlings.

This is for the "My first..." Challenge.