Hey Guys!

First of all, I live in Germany and English isn't my fist language. Please be patient if there are any mistakes. I do my very best. :o)

The story is set in the future...hope you like it!

Chapter 1 – Don't make me do it!

„Guys we have to tell you something…." it was just four hours ago that she and Sam had been sitting around with the guys during the briefing. Just four hours ago they had been the happiest people on earth telling the team that Jules was pregnant. She was just eight weeks along but they had to tell the team because Jules was immediately on light duty, it should be her last call out with the team.

"Team 1 hot call."

It was Winnies voice which had brought them back to reality. The cheering, laughing and joking about little Braddock-Callaghan or little Callaghan-Braddock had stopped immediately as they where heading for the trucks.

"Winnie, we need some information here.", the Boss said about the lack of information. They were heading to the scene completely blind by now.
"Okay I just spoke to the 911 caller. A woman is threatening a man with a gun at Burton Plaza. She fired one shot in the air."

"Okay you heard Winnie. Spike with the Boss, Raf with me, no deadly weapons. Sam Sierra One. Get yourself a good shot. Jules you are with Sam." Ed introduced while everyone jumped out of the truck immediately.
Sam took the riffle out of Jules hands as soon as she had grabbed it.

"No heavy lifting, you forgot about that?"

"Sam!"

"Julianna.", Sam said getting a light slap from Jules on his biceps.

"What? Just saying. Come on, let's get us a good position."

Sam and Jules got to the roof in no time. Sam settled his riffle down and got onto his stomach to get a good look on the subject.

"Ed, Boss!", it was the sound of Sam's voice that got everybody alert.

"What is it Sam?", the Greg asked.

"I got the solution but the woman is highly pregnant."

"What?" Ed barked into his comm. link. He had never got Sam into the Sierra position if he had known about this earlier.

"Sam you stand down.", Ed continued.

"Eddie. Sam hold fire until my command.", Greg said.

"Copy that." Sam's voice was calm as usual while Jules was watching the woman trough her binoculars.

"Wind is changing to north west." Jules informed Sam. She knew that he didn't need her assistance up here but she was glad that Ed made this call.

She could see the woman escalating further and she could hear the Boss in her ear begging her to think about the unborn child but there was something else she recognized. It was Sam's heavy breathing from underneath her. It nearly felt irregular and she knew that Sam was loosing it.

"Come on. Get the weapon down. Don't make me do it! Don't make me do it!", his begging getting Jules to frown.
She had never been with him when he was in the sierra position. She had only seen him first when he was guided down by the SIU.
His breathing was getting even more unsteady and she knew that she had to do something. "Sam.", she said in a calm voice. On the ground the Boss was slowly closing his eyes. He had heard Sam's begging two and he knew that Ed had. They also recognized his breathing.

Jules wanted to touch Sam. Support him but she knew that his body was fully alert and that she couldn't touch him in this state.
Sam recognized Jules soft voice and tried to calm himself down immediately.

"Sniper breathing." Jules helped him trough the state of panic he just got in. He didn't want to take this shot. He couldn't kill a pregnant woman. In particular he couldn't kill the unborn and completely innocent child in her belly, not again.

"Scorpio." He heard the words echo in his ears. Jules stepped back a little closing her eyes while the sound of the shot filled the air.
Sam watched through his scope as the woman was falling face first to the ground. He let go of the riffle and got to his feet in no second. The first thing he saw was his Jules, tears building in her eyes but he couldn't concentrate on her. He had lost the ability of his sniper breathing and was now dealing with the sick feeling in his gut. He tried to calm himself by walking around the roof a few times getting his arms over his head while he could feel Jules eyes never leaving him.

Jules was shocked. Shocked about the fact that they had to end the call like this but also shocked about Sams reaction. She couldn't say how his normal reaction after a shot was. She never had thought about it. When he came down with SIU his face was always calm and blank without any emotions. Sure at home he wouldn't eat and at night it was always difficult for him to get some sleep but that was all far away from his reaction right now. Jules got even more scared as Sam stumbled towards a wall getting everything out of his gut. He was throwing up violently, his fist clenching on the wall for support. His breathing was irregular and as he turned around to face Jules his face was pale as a ghost. He was trembling, not only his hands, his whole body was. He stumbled forwards and it was Jules who got him before he was about to fall over.
She gently dropped him to the ground watching his lifeless body in shock.

"Sam!", she screamed before getting her comm. working.

"Officer down. We need EMS immediately. I repeat we nee EMS immediately." Jules nearly screamed as she was turning Sam to his back.

"Talk to me! Sam! Hey.", she tried to wake him without any success.

"Sam, Jules, status! What's going on?", the Boss asked within a second.

"Sam collapsed. He is unconscious."

"I'm on my way." It was Ed. Jules could hear his footsteps bouncing into the ground through the comm. link.

Sam slowly turned his head to the side just to see his beautiful Jules kneeling over him. He could feel the hard floor and his body armour pressing against his ribs.

"Sam?", Jules voice echoed through his head. Something was wrong. She was dressed in her SRU uniform as well.

"Can you hear me? Sam please talk to me!" There where tears in her eyes.
Sam exhaled deeply. He could taste the smell of vomit making him feeling sick again immediately. He couldn't get it together. He was on the roof with Jules, his pregnant Jules and there was this woman. Sam winced as the memories hit him back. He had killed that innocent child.

"Shhhh….it's going to be okay. Tell me what hurts." Jules voice was still as calm as possible She had heard Sam wincing and even if she knew that he had to be okay physically he had winced in pain.
"'m good." Sam mumbled. He could feel his head hurting. The pain from inside was just too much. He had shot this innocent child. Pictures of the little boy in Afghanistan hit him. His whole body was not willing to deal with this situation. He had been trough so much he couldn't get through killing this innocent baby.

"What's going on?", it was Ed's voice and Sam looked at him as Ed was getting over him his face full of concern.

"I'm..."

"Don't tell me you're good buddy. Is EMS on the way?" Ed asked while Sam could feel Jules hand on his face.
He tried to get into a sitting position but Jules and Ed forced him to lay down again.

"I tell you I'm good." Sam tried again while Jules kept brushing his face.

"You passed out Sam.", she explained getting Sam to look at her confused. Why should he pass out?

The door to the rooftop opened again and the next thing Sam realises is Steve looking at him closely. With all the paramedics in the whole city, why Steve?

"Sam? Can you hear me buddy?"

"Yes, loud and clear. I tell you guys I am good."

"Does anything hurt? Any pain"

"No."

Not physically.

"Do you feel light headed?"

"A little." Steve got his flashlight out of his jacket controlling Sam's reactions.

After finishing Sam looked up at Jules who was standing close to them. Ed had wrapped an arm protectively around her.

"You were with him when he passed out?", Steve asked getting Jules to nod slowly.

"He had thrown up and his whole body was trembling before he crushed down."

"Did he hit anything?"

"No, I got him in time."

"I want you to come to the hospital with me. We need to get you checked."

"No way Steve. I tell you I'm good.", Sam said again turning his head to the side just a little to see Jules. He had killed the woman. He had killed this baby. Afghanistan. The boy. His sister. How was he supposed to get this happy family? His own little perfect family? It was just too much by now.

"That is not a point we are discussing. You are going to the hospital and get checked out!" Ed started but was interrupted by Sam who got to his feet with light assistance from Steve.

"I am going to face the SIU now. The job isn't done yet."

"Sam!", Jules voice was begging.

"I promise you that we will go to he hospital if I am not feeling good this evening. By now I can just promise you that I am good."

"Eddie, what's going on up there?", Greg asked. They had all turned out the comm.. link to give Sam some privacy but the Boss had to know that his family was going to be alright. It was Sam who turned his microphone on first.

"Boss I'm good."

"Sam! You gave us quite a scare here buddy."

"I know. Serge you can send SIU up here now. I am ready."

"Don't you need to get checked out in an ER?"

"Yes he does but is refusing it." Ed answered before Sam could talk to the Boss.

"I just promised that I will go to the hospital this evening if I am not feeling good."

"You sure about that? SIU isn't going to be easy today.", Greg asked again.

"Positive."

"Okay. SIU is on their way up. Ed, Jules you know the procedure."

….to be continued!

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