That day Nan got a phone call to say an old friend had died so she was going up to Clacton for a week for the funeral and see some old friends. She held it together, tough old bird. But I could see in her eyes she was hurting and when I asked if she was ok (stupid question I know) she just replied 'you expect and accept it more at my age.' I didn't like that.

I pottered around for a few days in the house just got stoned when she left, she knows I do it and I know she doesn't like it which is why I don't do it around her but she knows I won't stop whatever she says. I respect her so I don't do it in the house well not when she's there anyway. As far as me taking other drugs go she has no clue and never will. Besides the drugs I sell keeps my money coming in plus I get my social money and helps out where it needs to no questions asked. As much as Nan wants me to get a 'proper' job, I'm not good at anything else and I don't know anything else. Drugs keep me from remembering and drugs keep me happy. Why give up something that makes you happy.

My mate Stevie came round Thursday night as he had called me saying I had to try the cheese he'd grown, which is a type of weed for all you non-smokers. It was goooooood no doubt about it my head was spinning, I text Luke to see if he wanted to join us but he was with Lucy.

'He been whipped' Stevie laughed 'your next'

I leant back enjoying my head fuzz and blew out the smoke 'me? Never boyo I live the good life' I sighed putting one arm behind my head

'Oh yeah' he said rubbing his shaved head 'what happened to that bird you was seeing'

'I wasn't seeing her, we were shagging and I got bored'

Stevie just burst out laughing 'mate I aint got a clue what you just said I'm so stoned'

I grinned as his head dropped forward, his eyes were so red, and mine probably were too but its funnier looking at someone else. I stubbed my joint out. 'Right it's still early we need four things'

Stevie stared at me waiting.

'Munchies, girls, alcohol and a bit of Charlie'

'I love you man' Stevie mumbled.

I patted his back and went to get my phone. Stacey and Chloe will do.

I called them both; they were well up for it. Two of the biggest blonde sluts I know. Let the party begin.

Chloe brought her friend Lauren, she weren't really my type but Stevie was cracking on to her.

I rolled up a £10 note and lined up the coke for everyone. I had a bag upstairs already that I was saving for the weekend, just have to get some more. It was about 1am when we started to feel it, early I know but I had started getting on it around 3pm, I looked over at Stevie 'Mate spare bedroom upstairs on your left, you and Lauren can sleep there'.

Lauren didn't hesitate, go on girl. She grabbed Stevie's arm and dragged him upstairs before I knew I could hear them going at it.

I had my arms round both girls.

'We're are we sleeping' Chloe asked nuzzling my neck,

I then felt Stacey's hand sliding up my leg.

'Up to you girls there's enough room in my bed for the three of us'

Chloe and Stacey looked at each other deeply then at me. They both knew what I meant. I leant in and kissed Chloe first, then turned to Stacey and kissed her, neither girls protested or hesitated instead they kissed each other and there we have it, I had a hard on ready for the events about to happen.

'To bed with both of ya' I ordered. They giggled and ran upstairs holding hands. ' Oh yes I was in for a treat'

I sat on my bed and leant back while they stood in front me. 'strip down to your underwear and kiss' I whispered rubbing myself. They did as they were told and amazingly were both wearing black, well one could have been dark purple but I was pretty much out of it. They began kissing each other softly rubbing their hands up and down there backs. Then Stacey moved her hand over Chloe's boob and began massaging them seeing Chloe liked it she stopped kissing her and put her mouth over her nipple and gently sucked. I couldn't take any more I needed in on the action. Chloe was watching me the whole time and pulled Stacey over to the bed. Chloe undid my trousers and started sucking me off while I fingered and kissed Stacey. It went kinda blurred after that, But I woke up with two blondes wrapped round me. Blurred or not I still had a threesome. That is what I call a good night.

Friday I decided to have a few people over. We went to Bar FM first. Then me and a couple of the football lads, Matt, Chris and Dan went back to mine with a few girls we met. We kept the drugs a bit more on the low with these girls, did the coke in my bathroom away from them as we didn't know them and didn't want them freaking out as you find some girls do. Specially also Luke was on his way round with Lucy and he had told her he didn't do drugs anymore which of course was bullshit but I told him we'd keep out of sight from her. It was a pretty chilled out night to be honest, we all sat around got a bit stoned and drunk which none of the girls including Lucy really minded. I could see how happy she made my friend. We were sitting in the kitchen cracking up about something Matt had said and we could see Dan dancing around in the living room to Niki Minaj he was off his nut . I had one of girls sitting on my lap, when I heard the doorbell ring. I looked at Matt confused. 'Did you call anyone mate?' He shook his head.

'It's probably Cara' Lucy said getting up off Luke's lap.

I pushed the Girl off my own and stood up with Lucy 'what Cara as in your friend Cara who we went pub with the other week'

She nodded. 'yeah she's picking me up, I'm knackered, Luke's going to stay with you don't worry, as long as he behaves himself' She said pointing a finger at all the girls then him. He winked at her and she bent down and kissed him. 'I'll call you tomorrow remember I know everything'.

'I'll come say Hi' I said following her to the door

'erm ok if you must' she laughed

Lucy opened the door and Cara stood there in black hot pants white t-shirt white vans and with her hair up'

I could have cum in my pants there and then.

'Come on you dirty stop out' she laughed Then she noticed me and gave a small wave. 'Hi Paul'

I grinned like a knob 'Lucy stay for a bit longer I know Luke wants you to then Cara can have a drink with us as well'.

I could see Lucy thinking about it, 'What do you think Cara?'

Please say yes please say yes I thought.

'Yeah sure why not' she said stepping in 'not long though, cause I still have to drive us so I can only have a couple'.

I shut the door behind her and followed them both into the kitchen fixated onto Cara's ars. 'so where you been tonight?' I asked.

She turned around to look at me 'oh I went out with my cousin to some indie bar, was good'

I nodded and smiled, Cara introduced herself with a big smile and I already noticed the boys sit up more and pay attention when she walked in.

Lucy sat back on Luke's lap. 'Paul convinced me to stay a bit longer' she grinned

I patted Luke on the back and handed the girls a white wine each.

I left them all chatting away even the other girls liked Cara. I went in the back garden for some fresh air and sparked up, 2 seconds later Cara appeared next to me. ' I think I came round too late your all falling asleepI looked at my watch 'well it is 5am can't blame them'

'So where was my invite' she asked nudging me

'Didn't think sorry' I said coolly 'I'll get Lucy to tell you next time'

She nodded biting her lip looking a bit disappointed.

'Oh baby you have no idea what I would do to that body of yours, but I promised Luke and I have to behave myself' I thought

'What you thinking' she asked catching me looking at her

I shook my head and looked straight ahead 'nothing my mind is blank'

'Sounds peaceful'

'It is' I sighed we stood in silence looking ahead for bit.

Then I noticed Cara shivering, 'want to go back in?' I asked

'No I'm good'

I smirked and took off my jacket and put it round her.

Her smile was enough of thanks.

'So where are your parents, don't they mind you having a party'

'I live with my nan, She's in Clacton for a funeral' please don't ask questions about why I live my nan I mentally begged. But she didn't just nodded like she understood.

'Cool tree house by the way' she said changing the subject.

'Thanks my granddad built it for me and my brother'

'Oh you have a brother?!'

'I had a brother' I stated.

I saw her face drop a little 'oh I'm sorry'

I stood on my fag putting it out and shrugged 'I'm going back in need a drink, you coming?'

She nodded again knowing I didn't want to talk about it anymore.

I sat down, was pretty quiet while they all laughed and joked about. I needed a pick me up. I got up and went into the back and sorted out a couple of lines for me to sniff, I did one then Cara walked in on me. Straight away her mouth dropped, I could tell she wasn't impressed.

I lifted my head and wiped my nose quickly trying to hide it even though he she had already blatantly seen me do it.

'oh erm sorry I just came to say bye' she stuttered

I opened my mouth but before I could say anything' she just said 'bye' and rushed out the room.

She was out the front door getting her car before I had a chance to catch up. Lucy wasn't with her she was still in the kitchen when I walked back in. Lucy frowned 'why did she rush off'

'I don't know' I snapped

'oi tone mate' Luke warned

'Sorry Lucy just tired' I apologised 'weren't you meant to go with her?'

Lucy just shook her head 'changed my mind, I want to stay with Luke'

Later on everyone had crashed out everywhere. I couldn't sleep just kept seeing Cara's shocked face I had no idea why it was bothering me so much. Then Luke walked into the kitchen with an empty glass and went over to the tap.

'Please tell me you didn't try it on with her' Luke said

'Who?' I asked confused

'Cara obviously, there must be a reason why she legged it so quickly out the door, what did you do?'

I Put my head down 'she caught me sniffing' I said into the table

'Oh great nice one, now she's going to tell Lucy, that's why I told you to keep away from them'

'Sorry' was all I could muster up'