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Christian's POV

She left me. Again. Every day this week I woke up just looking and touching all her things she left behind. I went onto her MacBook and looked through her pictures of us two at our beach wedding in Portugal, our honeymoon and the surprise birthday party I organised for her. I grin excitedly thinking back to our honeymoon. It was so romantic. I loved every second of it, especially because I was with her. My grin gradually fades away like a breath on a window after realising she's not here anymore.

I'm sitting on my bed right now thinking about her and looking at all her stuff. I let out a long and deep sigh. I glance at her camera that is standing up by a tripod. I get up and walk over to it. I don't even know how to switch it on let alone record something. I pick up the large SLR camera and run my eyes all around it in search of the on button. I see the on button and I click it. My two feet appear on the screen since it's faced downwards. I laugh to myself a little, wow; the first time I have laughed since Ana left. I find the record button too and click it. What am I doing? I set the camera on the tripod and turn it so the lens is facing me. Um…

"Hey baby," I say innocently to the camera like she is literally in front of me.

"If you're watching this, please carry on. Don't turn it off, please." I beg into the camera.

"I just want to say that I am so sorry for how I always make you leave. Baby, I know it's not fair that I hide everything from you, but...but you know why" I pause.

"For now, Ana, please be patient with me. It is so hard for me to open up to people; you are one of them because I do not want to scare you away. But it seems like when I'm not opening up to you, you still run away from me. Baby, you need to stop running and let me catch up with you so we can sort this out together." I let out within two heartbeats.

"The one year and two months of our on and off marriage has sure been a rollercoaster, but I want to get off of this rollercoaster ride. I'm so sick of it now. I want us to finally be happy together, forever; not just for a few months. You are my lifeline. Without you I am dead to many people. I don't work, I don't sleep and I don't eat. I even told Mrs Jones to have many days off because I am never hungry now."

"I just want to make you happy, Ana. I-I hate being the reason for all the tears you shed, and now I have realised how much of a dick I have been that has led you to walk out of our home. Yes, our home." It was our home.

"When you walked out it felt different to all the other times you walked out on me. It felt like…like this time you…you actually meant it." I start to stutter and pause. I look down in shame because I know this is my entire fault.

"But from this day onwards I-I will never ever make you walk out of ou-our house without your beautiful wedding-ng rings on. You a-are my happiness and the reason I am living-ng" I sob and choke on my words.

"Without yo-you, my love I cannot-not function prop-properly. Please, ple-ease come back, I love you so much, Anastasia Grey. You took my la-last name fo-for a reason." I stutter and choke, I am crying so much. I have never broken down like this before.

I stand up, walk over to the camera and press stop. Tears waterfall down my face and hot breath escapes my mouth when I breathe out to calm down as I slowly walk away from the camera. My face feels so burnt and irritated from the tears I shed.

I sit on the end of our bed and aggressively run my hands through my hair crying. I itch my stubble that I haven't shaved since she has left.

"I love you so much, Ana" I cry out as I sob, wishing she will watch the video and know that I meant each word this time.

I cut this chapter short because I really hated making you guys wait. I hope you enjoyed. Please tell what you all think!

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