A/N: me back. hopefully you all know who I own. I don't own vampire academy or the vampire academy characters. Sorry I have been gone for a while. But here is an update. its out earlier than I expected it would be. :D let me know what you all think,.

Last Time

When I finished singing that song I knew that someone was watching me and I wasn't sure who it was. When I turned around I saw Rose. She looked at me and I noticed that she was fighting to keep her control of her feelings and I knew that she was scared and hiding things from me.

"Ro-" I started to say but she cut me off and said, "We need to talk but not here. I know a place where we can go and talk. A nice quiet place that no one knows about but me, but you must let me tell you everything without you interrupting me."

"Fine, where do you want to go? You can lead the way."

She looked at me and then at the time and said, "Not right now, but tomorrow because it's been a long day and I'll come and find you tomorrow because I need to see to something first."

She left me in the music room without anyone knowing that she was here, and yet tomorrow we're going to be talking about everything and I wasn't sure if I was ready or not to hear what she had to say about the loss of our child or the fact that she left court without anyone knowing why she left and the fact that she left the Queen without so much as a word. Yet I knew that she had a recording of a song and also to produce a new music video of a song on her album that just came out in stores.

Chapter 15

Rose pov

The next day went bye so fast with the recordings and video shots and also a photo shots and whatever you called them. Things went well with everything. I knew when we were shooting the music video that me and Jesse had to kiss, the song we're making into a video was bewitched, Jesse and Mike were to two male singers for the song.

All too soon the day ended and I noticed that I still I had to talk to Dimitri still. When we got back to the house we went our separate ways and I walked outside to my secret spot. Of course I knew that I was being followed and I knew who was following me. When I reached the pond I sat down and looked up at then night stars and wait for him to sit down, but I couldn't deal with the quiet.

"I don't know where to start with this story I am about to tell. I'm not sure if you'll beable to handle all of this."

"Just tell me what you need to tell me rose. I just want to know what happened and why you decided to not even bothered to tell any of us what was going on. So start from the beginning of the story and as far as you want to go, but I would like to hear to full story tonight. I know bits and pieces but that's all."

I didn't dare look at him. So I just looked up into the night sky and said, "After we cleared my name, that's where this all started."

Flash Back

It's been a few days since we got back to court and my name was cleared. I decided to go and work out for a bit. I haven't talk to Dimitri since we go back from court, but he did say that he wanted to try and be what we were.

After an hour of working out I wasn't feeling well. Walking around court, I found Lissa, and everyone sitting down eating. Walking over to them I looked at Lissa, and said, "Where is Dimitri at?"

I knew something was off when I had asked her that question, she looked up at me and said, "He's getting ready for a date. You can see if he's in his room."

Walking away I decided to go to my room, when I noticed that his door is partly opened I knocked on it and said, "Dimitri can I talk to you before you leave?"

"Sorry Rose, but I'm in a hurry to leave, Lissa is sending me off to visit my family, also I wanted to talk to you, it about what happened at the hotel room."

I looked up at him and noticed that this wasn't going to be a talk that I wanted to here but I decided that I should just see what this was going to be about.

"Go on then."

He looked at me and said, "I can't get back together with you. I need time to think. I'm going to Russia to see my family. Call if anything happens."

"Wait-what? You don't want us to get back together now, since you slept with me. I can't believe this. Well I guess you can go and have fun, I don't care. I'll be in my room, I won't be seeing you off then. Good day."

I was beyond pissed and upset, so I didn't do anything but walked into my room. I decided that I would just close myself off from everyone.

A week went by and I started to drift away from everyone. My parents we going to be married and my mom was going to have a child. Lissa was going to be married to firefly. Everyone was happy but me. This morning I got up and felt like I was going to be sick, and I ran to the bathroom. I felt I crap. But when I was done throwing my guts out I washed up and got dress. I walked out of my room and went to the hospital and talked with the doctor there. She was a nice person, she had me take a test and asking who I have been with, and I told her only two people and I told her the last person was like me. Then I came up with the reasoning behind it. I was shadow kissed so I could get pregnant with anyone in the world.

Walking out of the hospital I was placed on bed rest. I had them send a note telling Queen Lisa stating that I was on bed rest for a while. Things started to get better, I hid everything well.

A weeks passed and Dimitri was back, and we all decided to go out to dinner. Lissa wanted me to come. So I decided to go with them all. The dinner was quiet. When we got back to Court that's when all the problems started.

We were attacked, all the guardians got of the cars and started to fight. I decided to fight, but I noticed that I was slow, they started to attack me, but I was caught off guard. When they were all dead I felt blood run down my legs. Next thing I knew I passed out.

Waking up the next morning I realized I was at the hospital. When the doctor came in she told me that I had lost the child and I was placed on bed rest for a while. I asked the doctor if I could go home, she said I could.

I ran to my room, but before I made it everyone ganged up on me. I then decided to run outside of the court boundaries of protection and I started to cry. Lisa found me and she started to yell at me even more that then we were attacked again. I tried to fight but I couldn't handle the fighting. Lucky enough Dimitri made it in time to protect her. Then I was attacked from behind. I decided then and there that I was a mistake.

But before my wish came true I was saved yet again. When I could get up I noticed that I was sick, I threw up again and when I looked at them they were gone. It was three days after that I started to cut because no one talked to me. Everyone hated me and no one bothered to check on me.

End Flash back

"Then Eddie came to check on me. That's why I left court. All of them were the reasons. Everyone turned their backs one to me. You even made it worse when you started to date after what happened in the hotel room."

Dimitri was quiet for a while and then I felt him sitting down next to me. I saw his relfection into the water and said, "Was I the father of the child?"

"Yes, She would have been a beautiful little girl if she would have lived. She was yours because when I was with Adrian he used protection and we never did. I even called you when you were in Russia but you would pick up. I called your mother, but she said that you were outside with Paul. She asked if she needed to get you, or tell you that I called. I told her don't worry about it. I wanted to tell you that I was carrying your child but you wouldn't listen. No one would. I guess when I started cutting no one noticed that I had changed. When I decided to leave the vampire world forever I knew it was the right choice. I knew that one day you all would look for me. But to answer your question, I don't want to go back. I would like to stay where I am to be happy. I guess with everything that happened I got what was coming to me. Well I better get some rest. If you want to talk more about this came find me tomorrow okay. "

A/N: yay I updated. I though I wouldn't until the weekend. But here is the new chapter. Another thing is that I'm not sure when I'll update. I'm thinking about next or so. But no sure. Please leave a review. The music video I was talking about is bewitched by blood on the dance floor. Until next time.

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