"Elena" said a husky voice that approached Elena who lifted her head from the zebra she was mauling at mystic falls zoo, her fangs were bared with blood and her chin was covered in the red liquid as she saw Damon kneel down to her height, she looked at his ravishing eyes and snapped out of her haze, she paused her feeding and thought of how she got in the zoo and when she got there as the red dawn of the morning started to rise, all she knew was she was brought her by one thing, blood.

"I'm a monster" she sobbed looking at the young zebra with wide black eyes open, its mouth opened as if he held on to every last breath as its neck barely attached to its body, its death was unimaginable.

"Kill me Damon, please" she sobbed as the tall dark man comfort her, hushing her in a tone that made her still, like Stefan had done. Elena tried to stop crying as they walked back to the front of the zoo but Stefan's voice kept making random announcements in her head. He had turned away from her, Elena being a new vampire and her desire for blood wild made him brittle weak and she repulsed him, everything he hated about himself and love Elena had died like her, and she became something he hated, a vampire.

"But if I kill you princesses who will keep me occupied?" Damon said helping the lost girl into his car, she wiped the dried blood off her face and pulled down the mirror to her view, she looked terrible. Her pink blouse and white vest was stained in blood alone, while her grey track suit bottoms were tarnished with more blood, her hair was damp and needed a wash fast along with her make up that started to come off, she had to get out of the clothes she had worn for the past three days.

"Just take me home Damon" Elena said trying to not sounds like she was in more shame than ever, Damon took the last turn for the forest towards the boarding house. It was her new home after she turned and tried to kill Jeremy twice and one time succeeding. Damon stayed quite until they pulled up, Elena tried to dash out of the car but Damon was older and faster than her. He looked down at her until she sat back into the car, he closed the door before returning to the driver's seat to lecture the astray girl.

"Where did you go on your little banter Lena?" Damon said staring into space at the shy girl, she was nervous and wanted to leave the car. She didn't know why she left but main thought and blamed it on the break up, she took a deep breath and sighed,

"I'm sorry Damon, I should have told you. I went to stay at the bed and breakfast owned my , I couldn't stay here. Not after what happened with me and Stefan, it was too hard." Elena twiddled her thumbs, she didn't know what else to say after telling a lie. Yes she did stay at the bed and breakfast but not to get over Stefan, but to feel free for once since she turned. Ever since she did she felt isolated from the world as her friends slowly stepped away from the Elena who started off as a bunny eating girl to a crazy ripper.

"Next time you tell me" Damon said getting out of the car and walking into the house, which let Elena think on her own for a while until she settled an idea, she wanted to leave mystic falls.

Tapping on the door twice, Elena felt frustrated that Jeremy refused to open the door, he was home and she could tell as he munched on food and watched TV. She gave into opening the door and walked into the living room as he arose from his chair fast and ran for the stake by the fire place, he always kept them around the house in case Elena went crazy for blood or angry, but now she was neither and he still took her up wrong.

"Jer, I'm not going to kill you" Elena said sadly, even her own brother, who could tell what ever mood she was in, was thinking she was going to kill him or drink from him. He grabbed the stake and held it in his hand ready for anything to happen.

"I can't take risks anymore Elena" he said walking away from here, not turning his back. Elena nodded her head and understood what he was talking about, Elena didn't want to lose anyone else after her parents' death, it was too hard and she didn't want to risk anything, but it didn't matter because it happened.

"It's okay Jer, I just called to say I'm leaving" she said looking blankly at the ground, she could see sadness rush over his body as the words sunk in, he put down the stake and ran to his sister, his arm opened to give her a hug but she backed away as he got closer,

"Don't come any closer" she said before leaving the house and speeding away.

Twenty years later.

Elena looked down towards the gilbert house as she hid away in the woods behind it, thinking of ways to confront the past. She did not regret not getting in touch with her loved ones in mystic falls and but only hoped the council laid off the vampire problems, but if someone noticed her she was sure to play off as a daughters of Elena's, called Rachel. The October leaves hustled around her and she could hear children from inside the house complaining as night fall came. Elena pushed herself towards the front door of the house and knocked a few times before a woman with golden long hair and blue eyes with tanned skin answered and looked at her surprised looking at a girl with brown straighter.

"Is this the Gilbert house?" she gulped and the woman smiled sweetly, nodding her head and steeping towards Elena. She could see the woman was pregnant and wore a yellow day dress as two children screamed playfully up stairs with a man.

"Can I help you dear?" she asked and Elena nodded, for the first time in many years Elena talked to a human without killing, compelling or drinking from them.

"Is Jeremy Gilbert here?" she whispered and the woman smiled weakly and stood aside letting her past. Elena could hear a male voice from above wishing the children for sweet dreams before shutting the door and walking down the stairs and making his way towards her, she got a look of her younger brother who was now in his mid-thirty's and resembled her father in many ways, he look up and his eyes locked on hers for the first time in twenty years, and he spoke with fear using only one word,

"Elena"

Elena didn't know what to do after the way he spoke her name, he was scared of her and she could feeling the fright bouncing from wall to wall.

"No hugs Jer?" she said sarcastically folding her arms, his eyebrows shot up and Elena didn't know was it either because she had a new style and personality, but she knew her brother better than he thought and was ready for whatever would happen.

"Holly, could you please go the kitchen and call Matt to come over" Jeremy said walking towards the fire place grabbing the same stake he held last time he saw Elena, she smiled and slowly walked around the living room, taking in the familiar room that hadn't changed much apart from a new tv and photos, she placed her index on furniture and dragged it along before making her way towards Holly as Jeremy made his to his wife, as she uncomfortably walked towards the house phone by the counter.

"I wouldn't do that if I was you Holly" Elena said thickly and crossed her eyebrows, Holly stopped and held onto Jeremy in fear, she walked up to the couple and Jeremy thrusts the stake towards her but she grabbed it and snapped it in half,

"Jeremy, that was mean to do to your beloved sister. And I travelled a long long way to get here" Elena said get angry that he ever tried that to her.

"What do you want Elena?" he said holding Holly towards him closer and shifting her to behind him,

"I'm not going to hurt you Jer, but you could be nicer to me, I came back to see you and all" she said with spite, she really was angry with his behaviour towards her and now he was getting more people into this drama

"Are you going to hurt us?" Holly said with tears filling in her eyes, she pushed beside Jeremy and was pleading for mercy,

"Listen Holly, I'm going to a little secret since your Jer's thing and all, I'm a vampire and if you tell anyone, your casket will have a casket because I will tear you up so much, and then I will do it all over again while you're in your casket and when kids ask what happened to mom and the baby" Elena said pointing using index finger towards the woman's tummy "People will say she got ran over my a lawnmower and that's why you can't notice her" Elena said making the couple jump at the thought, she could see she that she was making them uncomfortable by her presence.

"Well I just made a conversation started for you too, so I'm going to my motel or somewhere. I'm sure Stefan isn't over me yet. So bye" Elena said fixing her leather jacket before making her way towards the door,

"Everyone moved on Elena, we didn't stop for you, they moved on" Jeremy shouted from the kitchen, Elena stopped in her tracks knowing when Jeremy meant the Salvatore brothers by 'they'. She put her palms together and brought them to her mouth keeping her words in her mouth before entwining them together and smiling wickedly,

"Really? Wow I thought nobody can function without the golden girl Elena Gilbert, I'll just have to shake things up" Elena meant what she said, as she walked on opening the door and leaving it like that as her high heeled black boots made clip clop sounds.

Knocking on the door, nobody came to assist Elena at the Salvatore's boarding house, she waited and waited, during her time she tied up her hair tightly and high while making a list of people to see in mystic falls. After ten minutes Elena entered the empty house and made her way to the living room and sitting on the edge of the familiar house waiting for someone to return, and they did. Damon walked in and scoffed at the girl who gave a dirty look back and rolled her eyes while Stefan walked up to her and bent down, kissing her on the lips and she returned it,

"Hey beautiful" he said and she smiled, still having his cheek in her cupped hand,

"Well at least someone is happy to see me" she said smiling at him but giving an ugly look towards Damon who gave narrowing eyes,

"Forget him, what are you doing back so soon?" Stefan said sitting beside her and placing his arm around her and she laid into him,

"I missed you both, didn't you both miss me? She said playfully and Damon scoffed at her,

"Why would I miss a bitch like you Katherine?" Damon spat at her but she got up and walked up to him as he filled a glass of whiskey, she looked him in the eye and took the glass off him and sipped at it,

"That's funny Damon, because last time I saw you, you loved me and Stefan refused to be near me and now, the tables have turned" Elena said drinking down the rest of the whiskey and licking her teeth, visible as she done it,

"Elena" both brothers said at the same time, one said it chaotically while the other said unflappably, but one voice stood out to Elena, it was Katherine's.

Okay, so I had this idea Elena would leave town and she would come back and everyone would have moved on and she would be like "pay attention to me bitches!" and everyone would be like "screw you" and she's going to have this… oh can't tell you, then you'll know what happened and you won't read this ( and that may break my heart :P ) . I have done the vampire diaries fan fictions before, but I never done one about Elena on her own and how she changed. Even do I am a huge Delena shipper I think Elena should have some fun with others and well enjoy life on her own for a while. I would love reviews, like adore them so much! But I also want analysis about how I can improve my story or any ideas that you would like in it! Please send me them ASAP! As they say make the readers happy :D I also need a beta reader so can someone volunteer like Katniss in the hunger games :3 Reviews please :) The Girl with the Knifes (TGWTK for short :) ) Xx