Entry 1

Dear Diary,

I know most grown men don't have a diary. I usually call it a journal just so I don't feel stupid. It was actually my Roza's idea to have one. She already knew how quiet I was that she thought maybe having a journal would get out what ever thoughts she believed that I couldn't express to her. I tell her a lot but I guess she thought I deserved a way to express my feelings or something. That wonderful woman.

Roza and I had now gone public with our relationship. And I personally thought it made us stronger. Yeah the thought of forbidden love is interesting but actually going through it is hell. I mean, when you're in love with someone for real you want the world to know. And I really love her.

Our world had changed a lot lately. Princess Vasilisa was now Queen Vasilisa. Her bond with my Roza had been broken since then when Rose was shot by Tasha Ozera. Oh Tasha. I never did think she would have been the type to shoot another woman over a man. Let alone when the man was me. I mean I knew she had a crush on me but I didn't know the crush had gone as far as love. But, I couldn't love Tasha back. For my heart was already tangled with and promised to my angel Rose.

Rose. Just hearing her name brings a rare smile to my face. I know it sounds ridiculous to most people but I really do love her with my whole heart. And I don't think anything could ever change that.

As I lay in bed awake that morning I watched Rose's chest rise and fall with heavy even breaths. I leaned close to her and gently brushed my lips against her neck in a simple kiss. Most things never woke up my Roza. But apparently a kiss from me did because she woke right up. Well more like she rolled over half asleep and kissed me. I still smiled anyway feeling her lips on mine. I kissed her back as softly as I could. It was such a gentle kiss I was surprised she could feel it.

As we broke the kiss I saw a sweet smile spread over her face. That beautiful smile that made my heart beat a little bit faster. She laid her head on my chest and I slowly ran my fingers through her gorgeous dark hair.

"Do we have to go to work today?" She asked me. I couldn't help but smile.

"Yes Roza we do. But we won't be apart forever. I just have something to do first," I said honestly.

"What do you have to do?" She asked with a mild but sincere curiosity. I kissed the top of her head before answering.

"I'm not really sure. I was called to the prison but wasn't told why I was being called," I said still running my fingers through her hair.

"Well just make sure you call me after so you can tell me what it was about," she said. Oh Roza, sometimes she is so curious that it's funny. She just has to know everything.

"I will Roza. I will. Now we must get ready for work," I stated. I knew we had to get ready for work but neither of us moved. I kept running my fingers through her hair and she kept listening to the steady beat of my heart. Something about my beating heart fascinated her. And I knew why. When we were in Russia and I was a strigoi we had spent many nights in each other's arms. And as if reading my mind Roza asked me in a soft voice a question I had dreaded.

"Dimitri…when you were a strigoi…how did you feel about me?" She had suddenly grown still.

"It's hard to remember the way I felt. But I know that I wouldn't let them hurt you. And I know that I cared about you even when I thought I couldn't. I'm not sure if it was love but it was as close as a strigoi could get," I said. I held her close and heard her sniffle.

"You shouldn't think of such depressing things my beauty. I am here now and I always will be," I said before kissing her forehead. I felt her bring her body closer to mine in a tight hold.

"I love you Dimitri," she said in a soft whisper. I smiled and kissed the top of head.

"I love you too Roza," I said. After a little while Roza and I finally got up out of bed. When we were ready for work I couldn't help but smile at her. Even with her hair in a bun and her in her guardian uniform she was still the most beautiful woman I had ever seen.

She smiled at me and took my hand walk out the door with me. Eventually it came time to part ways so she could go to the queen's suite. She pressed a gentle kiss to my mouth before walking away. God I love that woman.

When I finally got to the courts prison I was let inside by one of my co-workers.

"You have been requested by one of the prisoners Guardian Belikov," he said. I believe his name was Guardian Harris. I nodded and was lead to the third cell in the right. God I hated this place. I had been kept here after I was brought back as a dhampir. Ever since then I had a slight fear of prison.

When I got to the cell Guardian Harris left me alone with the prisoner. There she was. Blue eyes as bright as the last time I saw her.

"Hello Dimka."