Hello everyone! I have decided to write a Hikaru/Kaoru fanfiction (I apolagize to all my Wincest fans! But I noticed that poll is a little biased considering I only have Wincest fans right now ^.^) Anyways, after reading millions of amazing Hika/Kao fics, I decided to write one of my own! It will be very angsty (just how I like them mwahaha!) but so far, I actually love it! And I hope you all feel the same! Right now I'm going to make a promise to FINISH this story because I read an AMAZING fanfiction that was never finished and I don't want that to happen to any fans of this story (If there are fans O.o) This is my first Ouran High School Host Club so don't be too harsh!

Better Summary:

Hikaru and Haruhi have started dating. Now that they are, all of Hikaru's attention is on his girlfriend and Kaoru has been left in the dust. Kaoru misses his brother. He loves his brother so much, but his twin has forgotten about him. Now Kaoru will try anything to get his brother's attention, even if he is absentmindedly making himself sick! But it seems as if everyone except the one person he wants to notice is noticing! Even that stupid commoner, Haruhi Fujioka! He just wants his Hikaru back...

(Narrated by Kaoru)

Hikaru and Haruhi?

Haruhi and Hikaru?

Whatever happened to Kaoru and Hikaru?

Hikaru and Kaoru?

I sigh and glance at the couch where Haruhi and Hikaru are sitting, their hands intertwined and laughing at something; probably some joke Hikaru made.

He is extremely funny like that.

Music Room #3 is empty save for us members of the host club. It's almost time for our first session with our guests, but to be completely honest, I'm not really in the mood to do our "Brotherly Love" act.

Why should I be?

Hikaru has been all over Haruhi ever since they started dating a week ago. I think he's completely forgotten about me.

He never talks to me anymore. Well, I guess that's a lie. He does talk to me; a lot actually.

But it's always, "Haruhi this" and "Haruhi that". I'm sick and tired of hearing about that stupid commoner. Who is she to be so important in Hikaru's life?

I sigh once more and continue with my thoughts about what to call the two of them: Hikaru and Haruhi, or Haruhi and Hikaru. I just can't decide.

I look out the window that is by the corner I am sitting in. I must admit that I am sulking as badly as Tono does. I'm actually surprised that I'm not growing mushrooms right now.

I remember when Hikaru and Haruhi announced that they were dating to the club.

Tamaki went in a corner and grew mushrooms for a whole two days. His daughter dating his son? That just wasn't acceptable! Especially when he was so madly in love with Haruhi. Though he didn't quite realize that yet.

And me? I just stared. I went numb; numb in my body and numb in my mind. Everything swirled together, and I vaguely remember voices swimming around in the air; congratulations to the new couple.

But do you think Hikaru noticed?

Yes? Well, you're wrong because he didn't.

I waited. I waited for so long for him to read me. Read me like he always had before.

"He'll know what you are feeling, Kaoru," I remember thinking to myself the first few days after the announcement; "He'll know how sad you are and fix everything."

But a week later, he hadn't noticed at all. And me? I had given up.

"Kao-chan!" I turn from the window and see Honey standing in front of me, Mori standing to his side and Usa-chan hanging from his arms.

"Kao-chan, why don't you come have some cake with us?" he asks sweetly with a grin on his face.

"Yeah." Mori adds.

I smile at Honey. It's a pathetic smile, though. I know it is. I can't smile without Hikaru.

"Thanks, Honey, but I'm not really hungry." I say to him.

His face falls as soon as I speak. I try to look him in the eyes, but I find it too hard to look in such innocent, sad eyes, so I look at the ground instead.

"But you haven't eaten anything in days, Kao-chan!" Honey whines, "Takashi!" he says, dropping Usa-chan and pounding his little fists on his cousin's legs, "Tell Kao-chan to eat something! Tell him!" he orders, his eyes filling with tears.

I know I shouldn't, but while Honey is crying and yelling, and Mori is comforting him, I steal a glance at Hikaru to see if he notices the scene that has unfolded; the scene that is centered around me.

But there he is: his hands are still holding Haruhi's and he is staring into her eyes as she is talking, not even looking at me once.

Didn't he hear Honey? Does he not care that Honey has noticed that I'm not eating? Why can't he notice I'm not eating?

He's my twin brother! He should notice before anyone else! Everyone else!

I force myself to look away.

Tono walks over to the three of us and kneels down beside me, "What is this I hear, mon amour? You aren't eating?" he puts the back of his hand on my forehead, "Are you sick, Kaoru?!" he screeches.

I lift my hand and gently take Tono's off of my forehead, "No, Tono, I'm fine." I lie to him with another one of my weak smiles. Pathetic.

Tono jumps up dramatically and runs at an unbelievable speed up to Kyouya, who is standing unfazed with a notebook and calculator in hand.

"Mommy!" he cries, falling to his knees and looking up to Kyouya, or, according to him, Mommy. "Mommy, my son is lying to me! Why won't he let Daddy take care of him!" he wails.

Kyouya pushes up his glasses, "Well, Daddy, maybe Kaoru just needs to take a day off." He says in a monotone voice, obviously not too concerned.

Tono looks up with wide eyes, "A day off?" he repeats.

Kyouya nods, "Yes, go home and take a day off; get some rest."

"Go home." Tono repeats the words like a child learning a new phrase.

He quickly jumps up and flips his hair, a little over dramatically, if I do say so myself. He puts one hand on his hip and points an accusing finger at me.

"Kaoru!" I jump nervously, "You are going home this minute to get some rest!" he declares.

Honey starts clapping excitedly, "Yayyyyy Tama-chan!" he cheers approvingly whilst jumping up and down, Usa-chan back in his arms.

I stand up from my spot on the ground, "I'm fine, Tono!" I say defensively. "Really, I am. I don't need to take a day off." I fold my arms to show that I'm serious.

But at that moment, I feel extremely dizzy and I feel my knees go out.

I fall to the ground.

I hear a mixture of, "Kao-chan!" from Honey, "My son!" from Tono, and "Kaoru!" from…Hikaru?

I open my eyes to see three people kneeling beside me: Honey, Tono, and Haruhi.

Ah. It was Haruhi, not Hikaru, who said my name. Figures.

"Kaoru, are you okay?" I hear Haruhi say in that annoying voice of hers.

I rub the back of my head and prop myself up on my elbows, "Yeah," I say to her, the words feeling sour on my lips, "I'm fine."

I stand up but feel myself falling once again. I feel arms catch me and look up expectantly to see Hikaru.

But, alas, it is Mori.

I groan, my head pounding, and close my eyes. The people who were previously kneeling beside me get up and surround me.

"Where-where's Hikaru?" I ask desperately. Why isn't he in the group of people that are concerned about me? Hell, even Kyouya is standing close by with a look of what could be worry on his face!

I hear Haruhi talk once again. Ugghh.

"He went to the bathroom before you fell, Kaoru." She answers.

I groan once again.

I shouldn't be whining though. It's my fault I fainted.

If I had just eaten something the past few days.

Honey was wrong when he said I hadn't eaten anything though. Crackers and water are quite delectable.

"But," I think as I feel my knees go wobbly, "possibly not enough."

"That's it, mon fils, you are going home this instant and I, your father, am going to take you!"

I feel hands taking me from Mori and open my eyes. Tono is now the one with his arms around me, holding me up.

I'm grateful, but why can't it be Hikaru?

"I guess I could take a day off." I whisper.

"That you could," Kyouya talks for the first time since I fell, "Although I think it would be a good profit for you to be sick and falling into your brother's arms every few minutes," he punches some numbers into his calculator, "We would end up losing more money if you didn't get well soon and had to end up leaving for a long period of time." He stops punching numbers in and pushes up his glasses.

I smile sheepishly. I know that's the Dark Prince's way of telling me to feel better.

"Thanks, Kyouya." I say to him. In response, he nods his head and walks away.

My legs are feeling less wobbly now so I tell Tono to let me go. He thinks for a moment before reluctantly obliging.

"You don't have to take me home, Boss." I say to him, "But could you call someone to take me home?" I ask.

He smiles, "Of course. I'll do it right now; they should be here in a few minutes." He whips out his cell phone and dials a number then lifts it up to his ear.

I turn towards the door and begin walking to it.

I hear footsteps behind me and am soon joined by Haruhi. Fantastic.

"Hikaru will want to know what happened, Kaoru." She says to me.

I shrug, "No he won't." I say plainly.

"Yes he will, you know that. I think you should tell him before you go."

"He's gone right now, Haruhi-" bleh, that name, "-Why don't you just tell him for me, no?"

She nods her head, "Alright, feel better, Kaoru." She falls back and I walk alone again.

I reach for the door handle, but before I even touch it, it swings open.

I am now face to face with my mirror image.

"Kaoru!" he says, shock evident on his voice, "Where are you going?"

"Home, Hikaru, I'm sick." I try to speak as little words as possible. I can already feel myself choking up because I know that he will not care.

"Sick? Should I go home with you?" he asks. He tries to sound sincere, but I can tell he is longing to stay here; with Haruhi.

I know this because I can still read him.

"Nai, you stay here." I say sadly.

I see a twinkle of relief in his eyes. He pulls me in for a hug-it feels so nice to be in his arms- "Alright, Kaoru! You feel better though, okay?" he pulls away, "I'll be home right after school to take care of you!"

He's lying.

I smile, "Sounds good." I say feigning enthusiasm.

He pats me on the back then walks away to join Haruhi.

I walk out of the room sadly and go outside.

A limo is waiting for me already. Tono wasn't kidding about the speed!

I get in the car and tell the limo driver to take me to the Hitachiin Mansion, and then look longingly out the window at the doors to Ouran.

I keep expecting Hikaru to run out of them and join me in the limo. That's what he would have done before he started dating Haruhi. He would have known I wanted him to come with me; he would have known I didn't want him to be giving all of his attention to that commoner.

But as the limo drove away, the doors did not swing open and my twin did not come racing out.

That is because Hikaru can't read me anymore. I can read him, but he cannot read me.

To be continued.

*Nervous breath* soooo how was it? Did you guys like it? I hope you did! Please leave a review if you're totally in love with it, you think it's so-so, or you just plain old want to shout at Hikaru for being so dumb! Anyways, the next chapter will be up as soon as possible (maybe not as soon as I like since school is starting up *shudders*) Hope you enjoyed :)