My Last Chance in Saving my Humanity

~Prologue~

There was a storm outside. The sky was black and grey, and the rain was pouring hard, every drop sounding like shattered glass as it hit the ground. Ever since he tried to get his bloodlust under control, Damon found his life to be boring. After years of ripping and killing and screwing, he just couldn't take it anymore. He was prepared to die, actually-Die alone in the gigantic old house that he owned, because he simply didn't deserve to live.

He had pushed everyone away in his life. He pushed away his brother, who tried so desperately to help him pull himself together. Sure, Stefan was the reason he was alone in the first place, but his brother had tried to make things right. It was him that didn't let him. He had lost his friends, his family…His reason to live. Everything was just burdening him. He had the pain and guilt of a hundred years on him, he couldn't take it anymore. His heart was empty, unable to feel anything but hate and anger, no matter how much he tried. Sure, he did some good things too. Ever since he got his bloodlust under control, he had saved a few lives. He saved a six year old girl from being hit by a car. Another day, he saved a little boy's dog. But none of it was enough to make up for the bad he did in his life, the pain he had brought on others and the families he had left broken. He realized how much everything was unreal-The illusions he lived, the idea that a vampire lived to kill. Yes, it was true-But he was created as a vampire, not as an animal. Vampires had control, and there were shreds of humanity in them. But he couldn't have that though he wished to find his humanity again. Therefore, Damon Salvatore was now dead from both the inside and outside, and he simply didn't care anymore. He had lost his chance of getting his humanity back long ago, and now he just couldn't find someone or something to help him care or matter.

It was pure torture, going in a house late at night, bringing semi-conscious girls in and then find them gone, or dead, the next day. It had to stop.

He set the half empty whiskey glass on the table and stared at the fire he had just made. He had to end his miserable existence tonight, in the rain, so that when the first ray appears, he'll be the one to greet it. He'll embrace death.

Looking at the surroundings one last time, Damon walked around Mystic Falls. There were no people, no animals…Nothing. Everyone was safe and sound in their homes, as if nothing mattered. In the dark, any normal person would've thought that Damon was an innocent, vulnerable soul. And who could blame them? He looked like an angel, but he was far from it. He was damned.

He watched the mountains and he thought that they were beautiful covered in white snow. He wasted so many nights, so many days…So much time passed by. And now, he was going to serve in hell as punishment for his sorry existence.

As he stood there, the water trailing down his cheeks along with his own tears, Damon heard cries, a soft whine. At first, he thought it was his imagination. But then, the cries were louder along with pleas and he suddenly realized that it was a woman's cry.

And no matter how much he tried to ignore it and just finish off what he came to do, he just couldn't. Something in him made him act and follow the sound. Something in him made it feel like he was being connected, in a way. Like a magnet that had been put close to an iron, and it just…attracts.

What he saw before him was not what he expected, but he didn't even realize that he was already standing protectively in front of the girl, as if he was protecting something that was his.

What he saw before him was disgusting and menacing, and if he thought that he was a monster, he clearly was wrong. There were others worse than him.

But this time, he was going to be the one to protect something precious.

So, this is the start of a new story. As I told in my A/N, I'm doing a collaboration story with Cdaye8184, however I wanted to try this one out. This is just a simple Prologue, so there is a lot more to come if I decide to continue writing this.

Please Review and tell me if you liked this short, first chapter.