Hey guys! I was really bored and not ready to write an update for Surrender…Sorry about that. But I promise Ill be on it weekend. But I this idea kicking around in my head and I was listening to Aerosmith yes I love them! And I got this! Its not gonna be the epic that is Surrender, because I don't want to take from that story, but it could be about 10 or 12 chapters. So here's a lil side track for ya.

What it takes

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Rated M- for sexuality, violence & language

Pairings: Bo/Lauren

I used to feel your fire
But now it's cold inside
And you're back on the street like you didn't miss a beat, yeah
Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go

Chapter 1

It was another damn rainy night. Bo dragged her exhausted ass into the crack shack dropping her car keys on the little table by the door. "Kenz!" She called out as she enter her make shift living room.

"Bobo" Kenzi yawned as she lifted her body off the couch and grabbed the remote control from the coffee table to shut off the television. She rubbed her eyes looking at her watch. "Damn girl I didn't think you would be home tonight" she smiled taking in the succubus' appearance.

Bo frowned, as she began pulling off soaked clothing. She hung her jacket up on the hook they hung on the frame of a wall. Six years later and she still had no walls in her home. But then again, she was still not paying rent.

"Yea well, we found the banshee right where Trick thought she'd be" Bo said pulling off a wet shirt to reveal a black silk bra. Kenzi noticed the blood stains on her shoulders

"hey you got hurt?" she said moving quickly, checking the succubus' shoulder with concern.

"I'm fine, what are you my doctor-" Bo trailed off, her eyes painful momentarily before she shook the feeling off. "I healed" she said shortly.

"With Dyson" Kenzi said flatly.

"He was the only one around" Bo said in a clipped voice. She really didn't want to get into this again. She loved her friend like a sister, but she didn't want to hear this lecture again.

"I thought u two were over for real this time" Kenzi said annoyed as she hopped up on the bar stool at the island in the kitchen.

"We are over" Bo breathed out an aggravated sigh. "We've been over for years now Kenzi, it's just sex every now and then"

"Just sex is what lost you the love of your life" Kenzi said coolly, instantly regretting her words as she watched her friend go ridged. "I'm sorry Bo, really?" her voice was apologetic.

Bo felt the tension leave a bit and lifted her eyes to meet Kenzi's blue gray ones. "Its fine" she said grabbing a bottle of liquor.

"Bo don't do that, you drink way too much" Kenzi said worriedly as her friend grabbed a 40oz bottle of high end Vodka.

"This coming from you" Bo smiled trying to keep things light. If she had been human she would have been an official alcoholic. She drank hard even for a Fae, had been drinking and partying harder since Lauren left. It was the only way she could pass the days, then months and eventually years of her absence.

"Bo" Kenzi said softly. "Call her, just call her" the girl was actually pleading. Bo shook her head softly, that she would not do. Lauren had left and Bo knew it was her fault. She'd broken the doctor's heart and she didn't deserve a second chance to do it again. A clean break.

"What for Kenzi" Bo said brokenly, would she never be over Lauren? "She's moved on with her life, we both saw it" Bo turned with and made her way up the stairs bottle in hand, shoes squeaking with water. "Good night"

Kenzi bowed her head.

She loved Bo like a sister and it killed her to watch her, these past 6 and half years. She walked over to one of the few windows that wasn't boarded up and stared out into the grey night, rain hitting the concrete pavement hard.

Lauren/Bo/Dyson, the damn triangle had ended in a cluster fuck of a mess. Dyson got his love back and basically guilt tripped her friend into taking him back. Bo felt she had to try again because he was quite literally tied to her now. She chose him and broke Laurens heart. What no one could have seen coming was the new Ash giving Lauren her freedom as a thank you for developing the serum that helped save the Fae world. Lauren was now hired as a Doctor for the Light, it was the first time something like that had ever happened.

But the new Ash had turned out to better than the rest. He'd made changes in the ways humans were treated. After her break up with Bo, Lauren suddenly disappeared not a month later. Bo had been distraught, she'd demanded answers from the Ash only to be reminded that she was unaligned and therefore he owed her no answers. It had been Laurens choice to be reassigned.

Kenzi pushed away from the window heading over to the fridge to get a drink herself. Five years had made her a little more mature and world wise. She now could see that Lauren had been Bo's true soul mate, she couldn't imagine what it would feel like to be rejected by that person. Worst yet, she couldn't imagine how it felt to be Bo, to realize you just made the worst mistake of your life and never be able to fix it. It had taken her a year to get Bo to pull herself out of her pity party and look for Lauren. They'd finally found her in Miami of all places! She was working on loan for the Ash in the American South District.

They had tailed her for a few days, waiting until Bo could work up her nerve and rehearse her apologies before thinking about approaching. Kenzi sighed sadly, that had been before they both saw something that changed everything.

It was after work hours, the Miami heat was scorching the two as they sat hidden in a rental outside of Lauren's condo. The place was nice as hell. They couldn't even get into the gated community without breaking into it, so they waited. Lauren finally emerged holding a small baby in her arms with a tall dark haired man trailing behind her carrying a baby bag. Lauren lifted the baby up to her shoulder, kissing a fat little cheek. The man, was trying to fit a little sun hat on the baby's head, which was covered in a mass of dark wavy hair. The baby looked very young, a new born really. Laurens' face was lit up like the sun as the man easily draped his arm over her shoulder leaning down to kiss the baby on the cheek.

Kenzi could still see the shell shocked look on her friends face. Bo was stunned. She quietly slipped out the car before Kenzi could say another word. When she came back her face was near unreadable. All she would say was that Lauren had moved on with her life and no she didn't confront her. She thought it best to let her be happy with her new family.

They had returned home after that and Bo hardly ever mentioned Lauren by name again. She'd thrown herself into the on again off again dysfunction that was her and Dyson. Over time even he noticed she wasn't happy. True he had mated with her but Bo never actually mated with him. Eventually they came to an arraignment and Bo and he took lovers. Kenzi was too confused on how this was at all healthy. But she could see the devastation in the brunette's eyes every time she remotely thought about the blond woman.

A knock at the door drew her from her unhappy thoughts. She padded over with a metal bat in her hand asking who it was. "Dyson" the voice barked back. With a sigh she opened the door and gave her friend a soft smile.

"I know you're not here for another booty call" Kenzi chastised him, giving him a disapproving look as she laid the bat down.

He shook off the rain from his jacket, ignoring her look. "Whether you like it or not we are still together" he said gruffly, walking into the living room looking for Bo.

"She took her Belvedere and went up stairs" Kenzi sighed. "Just leave her be, it's one of those nights" They both knew what that meant.

Dyson frowned, staring ahead, his jaw clenching. "I thought when my mating bond was broken she'd be happier" he said finally watching the surprise grow in Kenzi's eyes.

"You didn't know?" he asked

"No, how the hell did that happen. Especially after everything I did to get that shit back for you" Kenzi punched him in the arm.

He threw his arms up in surrender. "Hey, I don't know how it happened" he sighed leaning against the wall. "I just felt it break one day. It was the strangest thing. I even went to the great wolf spirit"

"And she howled what exactly?" Kenzi smirked as he rolled her eyes.

"She said that the bond was broken by my chosen mate" he couldn't hide the hurt in his voice. "That she must have chosen another"… He said again clenching his jaw. "I asked Bo about it and she had no clue what the hell I was talking about"

"No offense but if Bo could break the bond she would've done that way before she chose you Dyson. We both know she was in love with Lauren, you were and still are just too damn stubborn to see it" Kenzi said folding her arms over her chest.

His body tensed up. "It doesn't matter, Lauren left. She's gone as I keep telling your good friend, she's not coming back" he snapped angrily taking a breath to calm himself.

"When did this break happen, last week, last year-" Kenzi ignored his outburst.

"I don't know. It was some months after Lauren left, almost a year I think. It just happened, I felt lighter, as if my whole meaning for life wasn't wrapped up in whether Bo loved me back or not" he admitted.

"So that's why you two came to your little "arrangement" Because you didn't love her like that anymore and she damn sure didn't love you that way" Kenzi surmised.

Dyson blew out a puff of air. "Just when did you become such a fan of the doctor?"

"When I saw my best friend in the world literally drowning in her own despair. Dyson come on! Bo is miserable; you have to have seen it. She takes any risk on any mission! She fucks anything with a pulse-"

"She's a succubus" Dyson ground out as if that were an explanation.

"So what? That makes her a ho? The old Bo was up for a little fun with her feedings but it was just feeding and you know it. She didn't use sex as way to cope! I see her Dyson, You don't! You don't see the despondent look in her eyes after her meals have left. Its killing her" Kenzi said her eyes watering. "What do you care, you're not bonded to her anymore, you're free. Bo's trapped in her own guilt and regret"

"I care about her" Dyson said angrily. "I still want her! I want her to come to me, to love me. We could start again if she would just try. I could give her my love again and we could be happy" he said clenching his fist.

"Is that what these little, hook ups are about? Hoping Bo' comes around" Kenzi shook her head sadly. "Dumb wolf, why would tie yourself to someone who could never love you they way you deserve?" Kenzi asked sadly.

Dyson eyes were hard.

"Look I just came to give you the pay out. Bo left without it" he said slowly thinking about their last encounter. Bo hadn't even let him take her to his bed. She simply dropped her pants and climbed on him. If she wasn't so hurt he might have turned her down but she was a succubus and she knew exactly how to get him to cave. The sex was fine. She took his chi, he came and then she followed after, climbing off him like he'd paid for it. He felt like a fucking john. But he loved her and he was willing to take any part of her he get. Even if she wasn't the girl he had fallen in love with. He believed his love could bring her back. He pulled out five large bills. "I'm going now" he said as Kenzi watched him stalk off.

Kenzi grabbed the other bottle of Vodka and carton of orange juice. This whole damn subject was too depressing. She needed a night of Ciroc and a long sleep.

Is it easy to sleep in the bed that we made?
When you don't look back I guess the feelings start to fade away

Girl, before I met you I was F.I.N.E. Fine
but your love made me a prisoner, yeah my heart's been doing time
You spent me up like money, then you hung me out to dry

New York, New York

"But I'm scared mami"

Lauren kneeled down hurriedly zipping up the leather jacket she put on the little girl. . She gave her the once over, except for her hair, she appeared to be a 6 year old boy. She smoothed down the long dark hair that hung loosely over narrow shoulders. "Don't be pumpkin pie, Ok. You are the smartest, toughest, strongest little girl ever." She said kissing her forehead.

"But why can't you come"

"Isabel!" Lauren said sharply nerves getting to her. The little girl flinched. "I'm sorry baby" Lauren said pulling her into a tight hug. It was pouring outside the awning of the bus depot. The sounds of horns blaring, sparkling lights making an array of colors on the city streets reminded Lauren of the danger of the situation. She needed to get her daughter sent off safely. "Izzy, I wish I could go with you but I have to lead the bad men away" Lauren said putting on a brave face.

"But you need me to protect you" the little girl argued, her chocolate eyes determined, a pout on her lips. Lauren smiled weakly…she acted like her mother so much it hurt sometimes. "I can protect myself" Lauren reminded her, her eyes flashing dangerous gold, before turning back to hazel brown. "And you my love, if it comes to it…I give you permission to hurt anyone that tries to keep you from getting to the Ash" Lauren's face was determined and serious.

Isabel nodded silently throwing herself into her mother's arms. "You're gonna come for me right?" she sniffed into the blonds neck and Lauren held her tighter.

"I promise!" Lauren hissed before pulling back and digging into the little back pack she packed for her daughter. "Now wear this and don't take this hat off for any reason" she said holding Izzy's eyes.

"Do I have to dress like a boy" she pouted adorably. Lauren smiled as she began tie her hair up in a quick little pony. It was a hard task trying to get all that hair under the New York Yankees hat but she managed.

"Yes until you get to the Toronto" Lauren said grabbing the backpack and placing it on her daughter. "Now what remember what I said? When the bus lets you out, Mami's friend will be there to get you. His name is Hale…Here. Call me on your cell. All you have to do is push and hold number 1, just like I showed you" Lauren said looking around her quickly. People were starting to load the bus. "I'll be waiting for your call ok baby" she said kissing her again quickly trying not to call.

"Why can't I go to Bo's? You said she lives there" Izzy asked looking up at Lauren. Lauren closed her eyes against the innocent and longful look in her daughters eyes.

"I told you we can't go to your moms. "She said shortly as she pulled bills out her pocket and stuffed them in the pocket of the oversized jeans her daughter wore.

"But she might help us mami" Isabel pushed. "You said she helps everybody. That she was nice most of the time" the little girl said tears growing in her dark eyes.

Lauren sighed as she knelt down to her daughter. "I know you want to see her Isabel. I know you do. But I told you already, Bo "Lauren could feel her heart clenching. She hated thinking about Bo. She was still angry with the woman and even though she had her to thank for her precious daughter she couldn't get past her choosing Dyson over her. Maybe it was ego and hurt pride, but the blond didn't care. For once she wasn't going to be the super trooper pushing through all her depths of shit to smile and be friends even while her heart broke! She was done being the victim, being the one that got left behind. "Your mother doesn't need us in her life Isabel and we don't need her" Lauren said bitterly. "We fine, we're better without her" she said hating to break her daughters heart but better she learn right now she couldn't count on the succubus rather than find out the hard why like she had done. She'd do anything to save her the rejection she'd felt.

"Ok" she whispered.

"Oh Izzy" Lauren said pulling her into her chest. " I love you so much. Just go with Hale when he comes to pick you up. Remember I told you about him" Lauren said trying not to cry.

"Yes, he's nice and his whistle has powers. He's the black guy with the funny hat." She smiled remembering the picture her mother kept tucked away.

"He might not be wearing the hat, but yes, he's really nice. Now kiss me and don't talk to anyone on that bus" she said again.

Lauren walked her daughter up to the bus, taking a moment to talk to the bus driver and slipping her an extra 200 hundred bucks for her daughter's safe arrival. "You're gonna watch out for her and make sure no harm comes to her. She doesn't leave this bus until you reach Toronto, and then you hand her over to a man named Hale" Lauren said slowly her hand pressed against the woman's shoulder. The blond watched as her power slipped unnoticed into the woman and her eyes became mesmerized.

"Ok…watch the kid, give her to Hale in Toronto" the woman repeated before Lauren snapped her fingers and the woman blinked. She put the little girl in the seat right behind the lady bus driver. "I love you! I'll see you soon" she said desperately kissing her once more tears coming down her cheeks.

She melted into the shadows and watched the bus drive off into the streets of New York. Her instincts warned her of danger and she slipped deeper into the shadows waiting as man appeared directly in front her where she hid in the alley. He was watching the bus. He was tall with dark hair and he wore a hoody. Lauren slipped her hand into her waist band and pulled out a sharp and deadly serrated knife.

Before he knew what happened she had tugged him back and slit his throat. With some difficulty she dragged his body back behind a dumpster. She rifled through his pockets finding a cell phone, some money and a picture of her and Isabel.

Lauren went through the call records just as the phone rang. She flipped it open a voice she recognized stopping her cold. "You had better be telling me their dead!" the woman barked.

"Sorry to disappoint Evony, better luck next time" Lauren hissed and slammed the phone done on the ground. Lauren stood tall tightening her trench coat closer. She reached next to an empty trash can where she had put a carry bag and large umbrella before she'd sent off Isabel. Grabbing the bag she opened up the huge black umbrella and stepped out of the alley way and blended in with the throngs of people all brandishing umbrellas of their own. Soon she faded from view.

So there ya have it…Too dark? Not saying it will stay this dark but this aint season 1's Lauren ya feel me! LOL. She's pissed, she powerful and she's a mother whose daughter's life is currently in danger. Bo will have to really pull her ass out of her funk to get anywhere near Lauren's heart again. But this story says B/L for a reason right?lol

Tbc….