In an alternate universe, one without magic, vampires, or werewolves, we were meant to be together. But this wasn't an alternate universe. It was reality and it hurt... bad.
That monster had killed her and Edward had let it happen. If Bella had chosen me she'd still be alive. We would have grown old together. We could have had a family together one where children did not destroy their parents. It was always my dream. It could have been her dream, but now she was gone. Bella, my Bella, gone.
That monstenrkilled her. That stupid, little bloodsucker, such a thing should have never existed. Half vamoire. Half human. It went against all the laws of nature. It should have been mine. Not half vampire, just full human.
Our life together would have been great. I would have given her anything she ever wanted. My child wouldn't have killed her. I would have kept her safe.
Anger and pain flowed through my body. Was I angry or was I hurt? Both. She was suppose to live. It wasn't suppose to end this way. Maybe there were worse things than becoming a vampire - like birthing one and dying in the process.
Bella was gone forever. There was no point in fighting the tears, let them pour. Nothing mattered anymore. Bella was gone.
This was all his fault. He should have known better. A leach and a human together physically? Who had ever heard of such nonsense? He should have changed her first. He should have known. I'd warned them at the wedding. Sure I didn't think a baby would have come out of it then, but I'd known it was wrong. He should have known too.
There was no way I was going to kill him now. I wasn't that nice. The baby leach though? Oh she could die. She deserved to die. She killed Bella...
Looking back, I couldn't believe I'd ever thought such a thing. I was ashamed to say I'd ever thought of harming Nessie, my Nessie.
Her safety now meant the world to me. I would protect her no matter what happened. Life without Nessie would not be life at all. She was all that mattered.
Yes, it was unheard of, a shape-shifter imprinting on a bloodsucker, but Nessie was only half vampire - which thankfully made her smell much more tolerble as well. I didn't know what Nessie smelled like to the other wolves, but to me she smelled beaugiful. Everything about her was beautiful. Her smile, her laughm, the way she would touch my cheek to portray information, there was nothing about Nessie that wasn't perfect. I treasured every moment with her.
I couldn't stand to spend much time away from Nessie. Perhaps that annoyed Bella and Edward, but they seemed alright with it. It made it easier that they at least had a general understanding of what imprinting meant.
I was excited to see Nessie again as I left La Push to head to Edward and Bella's. It was strange to think that just a year ago I would have been angry at the thought of Bella and Edward sharing a home together. Now I didn't care. Edward and Bella could do whatever they wanted with their love lives. As long as Nessie was safe, that was all that mattered.
It was quite ironic that Nessie wouldn't even exist if Bella had never married Edward. The thing I'd once hated so much was now the only reason I'd found the pure joy and happiness that I had.
Even though she was young, Nessie brought pure joy to my life. My feelings towards her were not a romantic love, but more a brother-sister love, only stronger. As much as I knew in the back of my mind that Nessie would one day become my romantic love interest, I couldn't think of her that way yet. It literally felt impossible. She was too young. I just wanted the very best for her.
I wondered what it would feel like when those feelings did change into romantic ones. Would it just happen overnight? Would I just one day wake up and want to kiss her? How did this imprinting thing work exactly? I had no idea, but I wouldn't have to worry about it for at least six years. Nessie was still young and right now we just had to get through the present.