Ciel looked down at his hands, he had known that that was a mistake to ask that. The young jockey looked away, thinking how fast it would take him to get out of the door when Sebastian said no.

"Ciel look at me."

The jockey fought the will to just get up and run away. To go hide in the corner and observe the rest of his life from there instead of actually turning and facing those ruby eyes. But Sebastian didn't give him that choose to run away and hide, he instead yanked Ciel's chin up so there eyes met. His red eyes filled with tears. That only made Ciel feel worse, that was the last thing that Ciel wanted to so was to make Sebastian cry.

"Yes. I want to marry you."

The breath flew from The young man's lungs. He said yes, he said yes. His heart began to pound in his ears.

"You will?"

Sebastian nodded, tears of joy running down his face.

"Yes… I don't ever want to be apart from you again. Your my all Ciel, the only person who matters to me is you."

He brushed a strand of hair from Ciel's eye.

"I love you more than life itself."

The word stunned could not cover what the younger man was feeling, that utter joy that was soaring through his veins. It made him want to get up and dance, through his body just to the rhythm of joy pull Sebastian to him and never look back.

"I love you too Sebastian."

He smiled then winced, a throb of pain seizing through his chest. That did not slip past Ciel's radar.

"Do you need more meds?"

"I just took some darling, they just have to kick in."

Ciel sighed.

"I… I just want you to feel better."

"Then don't leave me again, I can't bare not to be near you. It makes my very being ach."

He winced and looked way, feeling bad that he had to do what he was about to say.

"You know that I would give everything to stay with you. But you know that I can't."

"Why?"

THe elder whined loudly, expressing his displeasure like a child.

"Because I won't see you get hurt."

Sebastian looked away disgust planted gently onto his face. Not disgust with Ciel more, for the whole situation it self.

"I can't…. I can't live with out you."

Ciel sighed and slipped off of the couch.

"Seabstian. Your going to have to for now."

"Why are you so stubborn?"

The harshness in his love's voice stunned him, making him take a step back.

"Because…"

"Ciel enough, enough of this hiding. I want you by my side for there rest of eternity and nothing less."

Those red eyes met Ciel's .

"You are mine. And I won't let that motherfucker T come between us."

He stood reaching out and yanked Ciel to him, smashing there lips together. Their bodies pressed together, Ciel scrabbling to pull his love closer to feel that hard body against his once again. That desire to feel raw love flow through him was almost too much to take. The young jockey pushed Sebastian back onto the couch, not breaking the kiss climbed onto his lap. Straddling it. His hands coming up to entangle in that raven mane of hair. He gasped for air when he finally pulled back. His blue eye was glowing in the feint light of the after noon. Pale fingers massaged the muscles in the back of Sebastian's neck, freeing him of that pain at least.

"Ciel."

"Am I hurting you?"

"No but your avoiding the issue…."

Ciel kissed him again, forcing his tongue into his lover's sweet mouth he moaned lustfully. That sound set Sebastian's blood on fire forcing it to roar through his veins like a stampede of wild horses. There was nothing more that he wanted to do then to pick Ciel up and take him against the wall. But he knew that he was not strong enough to actually make it enjoyable for both parties. He pulled back completely out of breath. Ciel was no better he was panting, both eyes bright and open, his ingered one glowing brightly in the dim light of the room.

"Stop… please Ciel."

"Why, it seems that your enjoying yourself."

With that little coy response he moved his hips slightly across the growing bulge in Sebastian's pants. Causing the elder to moan his happiness, but quickly grab Ciel by the hair yanking him till there lips were centimeter's apart.

"Enough, I can't have you, I can't fuck you so stop teasing me."

Ciel grinned and slithered down that gorgeous body, settling himself in between his legs .

"Don't even think about it."

Sebastian was shaking, with lust and some pain. But not enough to cancel out his hard on. Pale hands worked there way up his legs, that husky voice of his lover making his head spin. Ciel whispering into the dimming light his love and all the naughty things that he wanted to do to the black haired man.

Those hands soon found that now rock hard bulge in Sebastian's sweat pants, gently they massaged it. Enticing a strangled moan from the trainer.

"Mmm Sebastian."

His name sent a chill up his spine, akin his arousal twitch in Ciel's palm.

"You have no idea how I missed you."

Ciel yanked worth all his might, pulling the sweat pants down till they pooled at the floor, his small hand grasping around Sebastian's cock. The elder moaned loudly bucking his hips up. HE leaned forward and kissed the head of the cock then began to suck. It didn't take long for Sebastian to be moaning and bucking his hips up to his own rhythm. Ciel swallowed the pre cum that was leaking from the tip and let go of it. He climbed once again up his body and kissed his lover. The raven bit down on Ciel's bottom lip and moaned. The jockey pulled back and chuckled.

"Naughty boy. Unfortinually I know that you don't have enough strength to fuck me properly. I will just have to suck you off then."

He slithered right down the body again and continued to suck .

"Ciel I…. "

That was all the warning that the young jockey got until Sebastian exploded with a scream and Ciel's name on his lips. The jockey swallowed it all and licked his lips. The raven pulled him up and kissed him, even though it was a sloppy tired kiss.

"I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry Sebastian ."

"That I can't help you."

Ciel smiled and kissed him sweetly.

"It's ok my sweet. I can handle it."

His eyes fluttered closed for a moment.

"Sleep… Sebastian I love you."

"I love you too."

They cuddled together, they felt warm. For the first time in a long time, they were content and warm.